Married to a Husband of 2 People
What if forever?

The eyes cannot be closed even though they have tried but it is so difficult to enter a dream. What if after closing his eyes then tomorrow his eyes won't open again? what if this was the last moment with his loved ones? even though sleeping with Alex's embrace was so warm, Jessica remembered the moment a few years ago.

The flashback

"Jessica, we go for a walk" Rara who always faithfully accompanied her sister even in her short time, because she already had two children even had to take care of her husband when she came home from work, but it doesn't matter that Rara loves Jessica so much that she always tries to make her sinking sister happy again.

"Where?" ask Jessica.

"Said Uncle there's a night market event in the field there, we go there yuk?" take Rara while looking at Jessica with a gentle smile to Jessica.

Jessica nodded in agreement, because these nights she was always lonely to the crowd even felt lonely, empty without anyone. Though people were full of swarming around the place until finally Jessica's eyes looked at a couple, Jessica's lips smiled just somehow her tears still dripped.

Can Jessica be jealous?

When he saw the husband of the pregnant woman was leading his wife to walk.

Uh! it feels too evil.

But that's what's in the heart, as soon as the shadow of Alex's face again looms, not about love just the fetus that is now in his womb Alex is his father.

How can you forget a man who hurt you? but there are seeds that even make memories without being forgotten.

In the heart of Jessica also had time to pray that her son did not look like Alex so that the shadow of the painful past never lingered in his mind always.

"Jessica" Rara awakens Jessica from her daydreams.

Jessica wiped the tears that turned out to have wet her cheeks.

"What do you think?" Rara knew it seemed like Jessica was in a state of remembrance of her past, but from that moment on Rara missed Jessica's smile a lot, her cheerful sister now changed instantly no matter where the smile that used to always adorn her beautiful lips.

"Aren't we going home?" said Jessica.

Rara could only nod weakly, confused how to comfort her sister how her heart also grieved countless times.

Until finally back home the situation is still the same Jessica is still silent and finally stretched her body on the bed.

Again he needed a small caress like stroking his stomach which now looks enlarged.

Unfortunately, she was so unfortunate, not once ever knew what it was like to be pampered while pregnant, ever Jessica wanted to return to Alex because she could not help herself to bear the burden herself, the desire to conceive makes him need attention, although his family continues to give attention still can not give as what he wants, the attention can never be fulfilled other than from a husband to his wife, to his wife, again all broken by the wounds that ever existed.

"Ma, I want to see Alex" Jessica asked a few days later after weighing.

Especially that day Inggit came to see the situation.

"Well? want to be tortured again?" asked Inggit in anger.

"You want to see Alex and then he tortures you again? that so?" inggit's sharp gaze was not in doubt, how much he hated Alex.

Jessica could only shut up, wiping away the tears that had been her constant companion all day without exception.

"You stay here! start from the beginning and never think about going back to that brash guy" said Inggit.

Jessica also wants to be strong without returning to Alex, but the trials are so heavy, the obstacles that cross are sometimes difficult to overcome, but what the power of everything said by Inggit is true, is true, Jessica also felt Alex did not expect himself and his son.

Given that until now Alex has never looked for it, Alex is not a man from the bottom maybe if you really look for it must have found himself easily.

But no!

Think of her as just trash, but is it so for her fetus?

The days passed, the nights passed with tears, the longing to get a little attention from the father of her fetus, sounding memuakk Jessica was aware but the mind can never deny it.

Unfortunately, the reality is only bolsters that are always in his arms, the fetus that is becoming an encouragement at this time.

Flashback off

"You haven't slept?" Alex wakes up and sees Jessica still not closing her eyes.

"Why?" ask Alex again

Jessica took a deep breath and exhaled slowly face to face could make things calmer.

"You want something? I can't wait for tomorrow because of what? because tomorrow I'll check" Alex stroked Jessica's flat stomach.

Then a little touch it, feel with his hand that there is a fetus in there even while lying down but he can do it.

"Actually I'm sure you're pregnant, it's just that I'm afraid it's just my feelings because I really want it" Alex said.

"Yes I know" Jessica replied.

'Therefore I can't say everything, I don't want you to feel guilty for swapping the pill' Jessica's inner self.

"I'm very happy" said Alex with a full face twinkle can not be covered the feeling of happiness was emanated clearly without exception.

"Can I ask you something?" ask Jessica.

"What do you want? of course I can!" answer Alex quickly.

Long Jessica was speechless, staring at Alex's happy face.

"What do you want? what do you want to eat or something?" alex asked impatiently because Jessica was silent.

Jessica shook her head weakly and her hands coiled around Alex's stomach.

"Never be angry if I make a mistake, never buy time when I need you because there is something that is also no less important, please. I'm sure one day you'll miss your time with me" Jessica said expectantly.

"Sure" Alex answered quickly without knowing what Jessica was now referring to.

"I still have one request, too" Jessica said.

"There again?" ask Alex.

Jessica nodded.

"I want Devan to be his doctor" Jessica said.

"Devan? why, am I a doctor?" Alex is confused and wonders if he lost to Devan.

"Don't think far, I don't love him anymore, only you, I never lie it's just my wish" Jessica said.

Jessica does not intend to continue to be in touch with her ex-husband, it's just that Devan is the person who can most keep his secret, especially Devan used to already know about his circumstances, although not by now that much worse, if other doctors are afraid even secretly tell Alex.

"Do you believe me?" ask Jessica again when Alex just shut up.

"Are you seriously not feeling the same?" ask Alex.

"I'm a woman who can't love someone who's not mine anymore, I'm just trying to love what's already mine" Jessica said.

"Am I in your heart?" ask Alex.

Alex was waiting for an answer from Jessica, the silence of Jessica made the feeling more curious roared just like that.

Afraid? of course, not just want to have a body.

Is it too greedy?

Alex also wants his love reciprocated so that it can bind in all circumstances stay together not be wary like this, the fear of abandonment is certainly there.

"I don't know, but now that I'm comfortable around you, I'm scared when you're gone and not visible from my eyes for a second" Jessica stroked Alex's face staring with such deep eyes.

"What if forever?"