My Annoying Lecturer's
Far Away (2)

Week in.

Yes, time has passed for a week. During that one week I avoided Mr. Arfa.

For one week anyway, I kept silent about the problem of the photos of Mr. Arfa and Delia that I got from Mas Alvin.

"El. Why keep quiet? You make me worry."

I just laughed blandly at Mr. Arfa's words, "I'm busy, sir. If there's nothing important, I'm sorry."

"You don't have a fever anymore, do you, El? Or got a sudden virus mute?" I don't know why Mr. Arfa's statement sounded sarcastic.

I try to control my emotions. Don't let me cry here. Just imagine that I can't.

"Sir, what if our engagement is cancelled? Papa's company has also started to stabilize, right?"

Mr. Arfa frowned hearing my sudden remark, "What the hell do you mean El?"

Mr. Arfa's tone sounded frustrated. But, actually I'm more frustrated with Mr. Arfa's attitude.

"I'm going." I said then out of Mr. Arfa's room.

Unexpectedly, Mr. Arfa even grasped my wrist.

"Crazy father?"

"I'm crazy because you're the one who silenced me, El."

"I think you're happy because I don't bother you anymore."

"You why El? Please, tell me if there's a problem."

"I want to go home, sir."

"Please don't do this, El."

"Brother what exactly? I told you I wanted to go home! If I say I want to go home, I want to go home, sir!" I said in a high tone. Maybe my tears are ready to slide.

"I just need your explanation, El."

I scrunched my forehead, "What do I need to clear sir?"

Honestly, my emotions are a little unstable now.

"You are doing." Said Mr. Arfa with a firm tone.

"Sir father ever?"

Mr. Arfa seemed to not understand the purpose of the question I asked, "Don't be convoluted, El."

"You haven't even answered the question I asked."

Mr. Arfa clasped my hand, his shady gaze almost made me crumble, "Elvia. I once encountered a saturation point. But, what exactly do you mean you want to convey?"

"Sir. I also seem to have started to feel that saturation point."

I slowly took in my breath which began to feel heavy, "I'm already saturated with the behavior of the father. I have kept my heart for my father. I'm also fed up with my attitude of loving you too much."

"Sir... I want us to break first. Please respect my decision. I just want to be alone."

Mr. Arfa seemed to be at a loss for words, he just looked at me with a thousand questions that might be raging in his head.

"What do you mean El?" Mr. Arfa's tone of voice is weakening.

"I need some time, sir."

Mr. Arfa is silent.

For a long time, it may have been about 10 minutes Mr. Arfa was silent.

"I accept your decision, El. But if you can talk to me. Please meet me. Don't hide."

I only replied with a nod of my head and decided to leave immediately, before Mr. Arfa saw my eyes that seemed to have no power to hold back tears.

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"El, are you crying?"

I don't know why, I didn't choose to go home soon. In fact I chose to sit in the back garden of the campus alone.

This park is actually beautiful, but unfortunately a little unkempt because it is rarely touched by students/i.

"Mas Alvin?" I said as I quickly wiped away the tears that I don't know how long they've been broken.

"You cry, deck?"

I shook my head, "Link."

Mas Alvin took a slow look at my head, "Not lie."

I also hinted Mas Alvin to sit next to me.

"The alpha?"

I nodded my head. It's also free if I lie to Mas Alvin.

"He's what?" Ask Mas Alvin.

"What's my value?"

Mas Alvin smiled, "What do you think I am?"

I shook my head, "No, Mom. I haven't told you Mr. Arfa."

"Why?"

I smiled wryly, "Aren't ready. I'm not ready to hear Mr. Arfa's answer."

"If you love him too much. Then you lose, El."

I looked at Mas Alvin's face, "I know, Mas. I've already lost. I've loved Mr. Arfa so much that I'm afraid of losing Mr. Arfa."

"When are you like this? Holding your feelings like this?"

"Until my heart is strong enough to let go of Mr. Arfa."

Mas Alvin suddenly held my right hand gently.

"El, I promise I'll take care of you."

I gasp.

What do you mean Alvin?

"I won't make you cry, I promise that your happiness is my top priority."

"Yes..."

My tongue is my tongue, my mind is raging. In fact, I was no longer able to digest Mas Alvin's words.

"Elvia, I know you need time."

"But whenever you need me. I will always be there for you."

I just smiled in response to Mas Alvin's remark, "Don't you know how much I love Mr. Arfa?"

"I also know how often Arfa hurts you."

"Elvia, don't be arrested. If you want to cry, I can lend you my shoulder."

I also sobbed. I don't know why, but this seems like the first heartbreak I can't possibly forget.

Why can a broken heart hurt like this?