MY BELOVED KNIGHT'S
WANT TO BE FIRST AND FOREMOST FOR YOU
Tira's question made Ernest immediately stepped on the car brakes suddenly, although not to make the driver in the back of their car surprised and braked deeply while cursing at Ernest, because by chance the streets today are pretty quiet.
Tira's question, of course, made Ernest's mind drift everywhere with his memories that he had to admit, had ventured too far, too far, and imagine not being with Tira when she misses the girl so much, and the love that is in her chest is showing, because the love has been sitting in Ernest's heart for too long.
Not even once, despite not wanting it, Ernest had dreamed of Tira being in the confinement of his two arms, and they were doing things that only married couples should do.
Even though Ernest was a polite man and so guarded his honor as well as his partner until the time came when they had the right to do such a thing, but he was also a very normal adult man, where sometimes such dreams came to him uninvited, and make him have to immediately change his pants even bed linen when he woke up in the morning.
However, there was always a sense of satisfaction in Ernest's heart, because never once did he dream of such a thing with another girl, he said, but only the figure of Tira appears as the girl he loves even if it is only in his dreams.
“Ke... why suddenly ask me such a personal thing?” Ernest, with his chest pounding, asked, trying to calm his heartbeat because Tira's question was indeed a very personal question for him, moreover, the question really immediately reminded her of the dream she had just experienced a few days ago, even before Tira had actually become her lover.
“Just want to know how a grown man like you can control yourself well, and never get involved with any woman, even though you are also a real man right?” Tira said with a smile, not realizing that Ernest's chest was beating hard because of the question.
“Trust... if... I answer it now.. I'm not sure you can accept.. as a result.” Ernest said with an attitude that tried to look as calm as possible, even though inside there, his chest continued to pound.
Tira immediately laughed at Ernest's reply which seemed a little stammered from saying it while trying to hold the pounding on his chest.
“Then... when will you give an answer that does not make me accept bad consequences for asking such a thing?” Tira again teased Ernest while his wiggly fingers touched the face of Ernest who was almost out of breath because he was busy holding his breath when the soft lentic fingers touched the skin of his face.
“Finely... after we get married only. I answer such personal questions. Ehem...” Ernest ended his words with a slow deheman.
“Is that? Then you must remember to answer yes, do not try to escape, and pretend to forget or I will not forgive you, if I hear… turns out you did something weird with the other woman behind me.” Tira said as she pinched a small amount of Ernest's cheek.
“How dare I betray you..” With a more relaxed attitude, Ernest answered Tira's question.
How can I do the hidden thing with the other woman behind you? As for how I feel, I could die if you leave me.
Ernest said inwardly by biting the bottom of his lips, and his eyes slightly glanced towards Tira.
“Like you said, I am handsome, talented and also great, It is difficult for a girl to refuse my presence. Have I ever been interested in another girl? Why ask like that?” Ernest answered Tira's question curiously.
“What can't? I want to know the deepest content of your heart, I really want to know all about you Ernest... everything... because from now on... I want to live my life by making you first and foremost in my life.” This time Tira said her heart with a serious face.
Somehow it could happen, Tira's intention of initially asking to tease Ernest, suddenly became a serious question.
During this time he had only seen Ernest's figure a few times, admiring the man even though at that time he was not sure that it would be a sense of love in the future.
But with Tira's growing confidence in her love for Ernest, Tira becomes curious about everything about Ernest, no matter how small it may be, including the things that were possible for Ernest were the most personal things as a man as well as his past relationships and life, relating to other girls.
“You can also ask about me…. Whatever your question is, I will answer it, for only to you will I entrust everything. I don't want anything hidden between us. For me, ever since we became committed to being lovers.” Tira stopped her words for a moment.
“My heart is determined that I must say that you are also responsible for me in the future…. You are the only man who should be my husband even though we have to wait for the right time to make that happen, which will probably make us in a long waiting period before my intention is achieved, because there is still the blessing of our family that we have to pursue and get.” Tira again said his words to Ernest, which was enough to make Ernest's face turn red.
How can it be, the two of them who have just officially become lovers, who have not even been an even week, but it turns out, Tira really thinks that seriously about their relationship, and had already thought far ahead about how the life he wanted to live in the future along with Ernest.
Right now, even Ernest felt that Tira was proposing to him, something that Ernest could never have imagined.
Being Tira's lover alone, for Ernest it was already an extraordinary thing that felt like a dream in broad daylight, especially now that Tira said such sweet things, like that, it made Ernest completely lose his ability to speak suddenly.
“Ernest... what are my words not right and make you feel uncomfortable?” Tira immediately asked as she saw Ernest only speechless after hearing his words.
“Can I respond to your words after this?” Ernest asked without looking at Tira, because he was focusing on the steering wheel he was holding to be able to immediately park his car.
Seeing Ernest's reaction, Tira became speechless in a thousand languages, and felt her confidence so drastically decreased, because she felt rejected by Ernest's silence on her at this time, made him think a no-no about the meaning of Ernest's attitude towards him at this moment.