My Daddy Is My Sugar Daddy
117. Can I See You Now?

"Hey, it's me."

Rahadyan did not move even though she heard Laura enter her room after knocking twice. The woman sat on the edge of Rahadyan's bed, sitting looking at her back who was now busy playing games.

The giant screen displaying the game situation was like depicting the situation of Rahadyan's heart as well. Messed up. Full-fuss. Just containing the desire to ruffle everything while hoping he wins (feels better).

Laura doesn't talk much. Just let Rahadyan play until he is completely satisfied. Maybe it took more than two hours, because Laura felt her butt was already hot sitting until Rahadyan finally turned around.

"I just wanna make her smile." Rahadyan told me without being asked. "You know, I don't know why, I don't even care about why. Why I do love her so much? Tell me why?"

Laura thins her lips. "Well, maybe 'cause she's your kid?"

"Kid? She's my everything, Laura, everything. I love her before I love myself, can you believe that?"

"Why did you tell him to leave?"

"Because he doesn't like it here!" Unknowingly Rahadyan raised her voice. But, after that he regained his senses and covered his face with his hands.

Rahadyan could not hide the trembling in her body. Noiseless, without ringing and just in a faint tremor, the man cried.

"From the beginning he didn't like it here" Rahadyan muttered as she wiped her tears. "From the first moment he didn't want to be here. But I just because I think she will change her mind. She will try to accept it, accept me."

"So, according to you, just let him live beyond that better decision?"

"What is less? He still has me. He wants to live where it's his choice. He doesn't have to think about the cost or anything. There's me."

Just, let him go because it seems like he really dislikes Rahadyan in his life. Responsibility can also be done without close supervision. As long as there is Agas, Kalista will be safe.

After all, even though Agas was cold to her, Kalista preferred Agas even more than Rahadyan. Kalista will definitely enjoy his life without Rahadyan.

"Gue doesn't feel like you're making a real decision, Rahadyan." Laura patted her shoulder. "But she's yours so it's all up to you."

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Slowly, it infiltrates the guilt. Regret has told his son to leave, yells too loudly at Mama, then acts like a badjangan who do not want to bother anymore to take care of the family.

Huh, what exactly is he doing?

Though Rahadyan knew Kalista was at his age was not sane.

Rahadyan was the same. Although Raynar is not as bad as Rahadyan at that age, never rebelled at Mama let alone do things that make Mama or Papa extraordinarily disappointed, but Rahadyan never.

Not all children can know themselves directly to their parents. Raynar is a self-knowing child whereas Rahadyan is not.

And Kalista is like Rahadyan.

So Rahadyan knows Kalista's feelings. The boy did not want to think of anything as boring as Rahadyan would be sad or he would lose his family.

"Mom."

Before Rahadyan realized, he had even called the Director's Mom. So far, only the Director Ma'am can understand Kalista a little, even more than Rahadyan.

"Ruler." The voice of the Director's mother was heard to the whole room Rahadyan. "Calistas don't come in today. Why?"

"He's angry again."

"Huh?"

"I told him to go." Rahadyan covered her own face even though no one could see the guilt there. "I don't know what else to do, Mom."

".... Can you see me now?" the Director suddenly said.

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