My Daddy Is My Sugar Daddy
96. It's Your Choice

The Director decided to accompany Kalista. The main reason was indeed because Kalista was one of the special students in the school escorted by Narendra— bodyguards and Bu Director worked for Narendra's.

But, leaving aside the main reason, the Director also sympathized with this child, so he sat down to listen to Kalista cry.

Then after a long time Kalista spilled all the emotions from her feelings, the girl turned her head.

Didn't say anything, just looked at the Director Ma'am.

"You want to answer my question?" The director decided to talk first. "On your personal affairs."

The Director did not expect much if Kalista did not want to, but it turned out that the boy nodded.

"You don't have any friends at all? Outside of this school."

Calista suddenly moody. "No," he answered vaguely. "When my elementary school was verbally bullied, because I was an illegitimate child, my child didn't really become most of my parents."

"When Junior High, I started to volunteer. I hate the same people who fuck me, so people hate me even more."

"When I was in High School, I never talked to anyone again. Even if there are people who don't know me, I don't want to."

So you could say, Kalista's lifetime has no friends. Even if there is, it's just a friend who does not have the title of best friend. Only strangers now did not feel too strange even if Kalista did not contact them.

"Just my mommy. Also, Mama's friends who can be said are not friends either."

Hence, make Kalista, Agas everything. Everything he could have. Even if Agas blatantly rejected Kalista's feelings, he was still the first person Kalista needed in this world.

"Calistas." The Director reached out his hand suddenly, at the dried leaf that slipped in the boy's hair. "Are you sure it's because of Agas?"

Whatdoes thatmean?

"Because Agas is the only thing that makes you comfortable ... or because you are the one who makes you comfortable?"

Calistas widen their eyes for reasons they don't know. Why did the Director speak as if it was wrong Kalista?

"You don't want your Papa, who you think has a great sin, so your place is comfortable. You don't want him. You don't want Sergio either. You don't want to believe Sergio more than the usual 'temen. You want Agas."

"...."

"That belief is either bought or given, Kalista?" The Director handed the leaf over to Kalista. "I give you a leaf, it's your choice to accept or refund. So who is the place where you are comfortable? You or Agas himself?"

That's himself. It was him who decided.

Even if Agas makes it trustworthy, the one who decides to believe remains Kalista.

"That's what happened to your Papa, I guess." Director shrugged his shoulders. "It's not about him being wrong, it's not about him being sinful, it's not about him cheating on you. But you're not accepting."

Kalista lowered her head again, hiding her face among the bloody words. "Keep my fault?"

"Obviously no. Also called choice. It doesn't always have to be the same."

"...."

"But, if Agas is gone from you and you have no place to feel comfortable, a place for you well, my question, whose responsibility is it?"

Callistas.

Calistas who choose only Agas, so it's Kalista's responsibility for his own feelings if Agas leaves.

"But the same, Mom, if I choose Om. There is no guarantee that he will not hurt me. There's no guarantee she'll be better than Agas."

"Emang."

The justification of the Director who was too easy even made Kalista jerked. He thought the Director wanted to say 'not that'. Or something like 'Your father is different because he's Papa'.

"I told you so. Everyone, even parents, even our children, even that couple live as we live, there will be time they abuse us. That's our choice and responsibility."

Director's mother patted Kalista's head.

"Don't wait for someone else to do something for you. You have to admit it to yourself, because you want it, you need it. That's just strong."

Calista's eyelids closed, letting his head continue to be eluted.

It feels like the first time after losing Mama, Kalista really heard a suggestion that makes you just want to keep listening.

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