My Ex
Chapter 6
Drrr....
Nadine's phone vibrated, a message coming in on her screen. Nadine shifted the lock screen, before long she was surprised by the message, especially to the sender.
From: Arka
‘ada what? Why is your status like that? Any problems?’
.....
Nadine was silent for quite a long time reading the message over and over again. He was surprised to receive a message from Arka. Because Arka is indeed getting in touch with him more often, sometimes he deliberately sends random messages. Wrongly sent it said.
But honestly Nadine is actually very disturbed by this attitude Arka. she wants to live a quiet life without interference, she just wants a normal relationship, friends, without frills. Because Nadine is worried that she will be carried away if it continues like this.
Wrong, he could never make a firm decision. He was blocked, and soon he opened it again. *It’s not work it at all*. His own feelings were still unstable, he was still trying to close the door of his heart from Arka.
But how can he shut it down if Arka still keeps calling Nadine. Makes this girl squeezed by two flavors. Hate and miss.
“**be careful with hate and longing because they are in the same place, which is the heart. Because the difference between hate and longing is thin, thin as thin as the skin of an onion**.”
Nadine took a slow breath neutralizing her feelings. He started typing a reply for Arka. Nadine can only positive thinking if what Arka did to her is nothing more than friends, without there is ‘udang behind batu’. The wounds he had yesterday were enough.
Nadine: nothing
Arka: seriously? So why write that rich status? If there is a story problem.
Arka: usually you always tell me the same story, just relax .
Nadine: I was offered to go up to the stage later in the evening, but I doubt, between willing and involved...
Arka: why doubt? Last year was great, I also want to see you dance again,
Nadine: I'm males, anyways I cape together, there will be no time for training, too,
Arka: if you feel ready, just take it. But if you don't want to, don't be forced.
Nadine read Arka's reply, her heart began to warm. Arka always understood him, he never forced Nadine. He put his phone in my case, grabbed his bottle and drank the contents until it ran out.
He grabbed the ballpoint then filled out the form after his heart felt steady. Nadine refused to participate this year.for him last year was enough, he did not want to go on stage anymore. Even though the sensation of going on stage is very fun and memorable in his heart.
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Nadine lined up at the gate in line to come home, she could faintly see Arka was beside her. Open right next to him as well, just there in the next row and a few different people from Nadine.
He pretended not to know. At the gate, Nadine remembers ordering costumes for dinner. Nadine grabbed the package list book, then pulled over so as not to block the road. The index traced the line of names listed there.
“nah..pak, my package is on behalf of Nadine!” nadine shouted a little.
In the spirit of Nadine waiting for her package, she saw the officers were looking for her package in the post.
“dapet package?” ask a man who is suddenly next to her for *pass-card*
Nadine turned her head, she saw Arka looking at her. Nadine just nodded her head, she had no intention of replying to Arka at all.
Upon arrival at the apartment Nadine hurried to pick up the scissors and open the package with enthusiasm. He saw a white parcel, torn it to look a black cloth that was a little glossy.
A set of black student uniform type Korean hanbok with pink vest. This is the costume he ordered from 2 weeks ago. His smile expands, he can't wait to wear this hanbok.
Once he was satisfied with the results, he took a few selfies of himself for keepsakes. Nadine stood in front of the mirror, looking at her reflection. He touched her brown hair.
His heart was worried whether he would wear a hijab or not. She would like to dress up like a Korean girl, nod her hair and then she will dress her face like Korean girls she often watches on YouTube.
But his heart whispered. ‘what if you wear a hijab why? Am I going to look ugly?’.
Nadine opened her closet, picked up a rectangular black cloth. Then wear it on the head covering her hair.
He looked back at his reflection. ‘cakep kok,’ praise he saw himself with hanbok and hijab. Heart's steady. He wants to hijab, and no longer wants to escape the tide.
Drrrr...
The vibration of his cell phone rippled his daydream,
Arka: what package was it? It's really rich, though,
Nadine: costume package for dinner,
Arka: ohh, you so buy hanbok?
Nadine was silent, there was sadness on her face. When *dinner announcement* is already spread with the theme *culture nigth*. Nadine had told Arka about the costume she was going to wear. Nadine was devastated when she remembered that.
When Arka says she still loves Clarissa, Nadine makes a commitment to herself.
“if I should break up Arka, serebak break up after dinner,”
But that was now only his wishful thinking, due to the fact that they had split up before the event began. Nadine would like to sit alone with Arka when the dinner this year, because of course the event will be very boring. Plus, there was no couple this year.
Nadine no longer replies to Arka's messages.
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This Saturday is an *hectic* Saturday for Nadine and her friends. Nadine's housemates, namely Julia, Eisqil, Wulan and Anisa. Everyone was busy dressing up from after Ashar.
For your information Wulan is David's lover, and they've been dating far longer than Nadine and Arka. Even though they fight more often.
One night when Nadine was just coming home from work, she saw Wulan and David in front of her apartment. Nadine had no intention of greeting them because of the very unpleasant atmosphere.
He could see David's anger from his gaze, Nadine also saw Wulan's reddened and watery eyes. I don't know what issues they're having in dispute. But clearly, behind the walls of Nadine's room, she could clearly hear the snapping and sobbing.
They must be fighting. After that he saw Wulan's wrists turning blue, for some reason. Nadine asked Arka, because she felt she could not bear to see Wulan who cried more often, and maybe also David had done physical violence to his friend.
David was more angry than Arka. As for Arka, Never hit, just yell never. Arka's anger is silence Nadine. Nadine was lucky to be close to Arka, not to David.
Okay back to the mood this afternoon.
Nadine is busy polishing her face with make up. Nadine's face is slightly different from the makeup polish and eye color that becomes gray due to contact lenses. Not to forget last he put on his black hijab and gave petini flower-shaped for sweetener.
Perfect.
“wah really cute...” praise Eisqil who is wearing high heels, making Nadine blush embarrassed.
“hanbok his very fit Nad, if I use his wealth will develop deh,” said Julia. Initially Julia had bought hanbok, but because she felt it did not match her body size she also switched to wearing a maroon batik dress.
“eh has not yet?” asked Anisa while confirming the location of her hijab.
“udah..lu anyway want to be diapain also tetep sakep,” praise Eisqil honestly. Anisa is indeed berparas ayu and very graceful.
Eisqil confirmed the location of her chinees model dress is bright red, with the hemisphere of the skirt high enough to the thigh. Had Nadine not intended to wear the hijab, maybe she would have chosen a costume that is more open than hanbok.
They all got out of the apartment using the elevator. Like royal princesses, they walk very gracefully with gorgeous dresses, elegant high heels and makeup that add to their appeal.
It was raining that afternoon. They walked towards the shuttle bus with their hands on their heads, afraid that the rain might make their up*make fade. Nadine was amazed by the appearance of her other colleagues. So fascinating.
The trip is quite far, it has been an hour more they are on the road before reaching the destination. The place reserved for *dinner* this year is the same as last year. So many of them are not too *surprise* with the place and atmosphere.
Nadine began to reminisce to last year, where she became one of the show's performers. He remembered very well, with his appearance that made almost all of his friends pangling with him.
the very make up*eyecatching* makes it very beautiful. Not a few who praised the appearance of Nadine at that time. Especially after he got off the stage. Everyone looked at him in amazement. Not a few compliments that he received. And every guy's eyes were on him, he wasn't like Nadine that night.
Nadine's view it spread around*venue*. He was looking for someone who was none other than Arka. Nadine was curious about what Arka was wearing tonight. Last year Arka only had a formal casual look. Maroon shirts with stripe motifs, trousers and black shoes are in line with their pants. The sleeves of the shirt rolled up to the elbows, revealing his white arms, were adorned with a classic watch on his left hand. And so neat ramnut made him even more handsome.
Unfortunately last year, Nadine has not been close to Arka. Don't be dating, not even friends. But he remembered very well at that time, because their views often met.
Nadine felt a little disappointed that Arka had not arrived on the spot. Maybe the bus for men will arrive a little late. Nadine goes in tailing her friends looking for a table. They chose the backmost table that was far from the stage but could clearly see every side of this large room.
Nadine sat facing the stage. His eyes were still searching for Arka. Suddenly he saw a tall, white figure with his hair neatly combed to the left. Nadine smiles. Arka sat at the table parallel to Nadine, blocked 1 table between them.
Nadine blushed at the very neat Arka. Although he does not wear cultural clothes like David and others, but Arka is still the most interesting in his eyes.
*Formal* is indeed very fitting with Arka. The black color of his shirt adds contrast to his white skin. Had they not broken up, they would have sat at the same table, had they....
Wulan and David seemed to be getting along, Nadine noticed the eyes of David who could not be separated from Wulan the blue kebaya dongker. He sees clearly how David looks at Wulan, but Wulan is just cool himself pretending not to know. Nadine was jealous.
Let alone being stared at by Arka like that, whenever Nadine glanced at him, the man was always busy with his phone. Make Nadine inflamed. ‘definitely again chating the same girl.’ Inner irritated.
Dinner this year was boring. Same place, same service, more or less the same menu, and the boring performers. Not a few of Nadine's friends who complain because Nadine is no longer on stage.
He was bored, lucky Arpil came and took him out to take pictures and happily Nadine followed April.
“eh wait!” Nadine screamed a little following April, making the tall man who had just come out of the musola turn to her. Nadine looked at Arka who was wearing her shoes, the man's hair was slightly wet. He's good-looking. I am Nadine in my heart.
Arka smiled at Nadine, but Nadine arrogantly threw away her face without returning Arka's smile. It makes the man disappointed.
From afar, Arka silently watched Nadine, only that every time Nadine glanced at her she would look down at her phone, or go back to eating.
Arka himself felt this event was indeed boring, especially because of Nadine's cold attitude to him. If only their relationship was okay Arka might not be this bored, because there was Nadine beside him, if only....
Throughout this event, Nadine honestly did not enjoy it, except the good food. His heart was very agitated, he hoped Arka would greet him. But that's just his wish.
Arka is not a man who likes to show off affection, he is a man who only acts romantic if only two or not many people know. And Nadine really likes that.
Nadine went home first, before she exited the building she had a glance at Arka who was still busy taking pictures with her friends. Nadine grunted in annoyance. He was disappointed tonight, no matter what disappointed him.
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Two weeks after *dinner* nothing interesting to tell. Everything was normal and normal. Arka never sent him a message or anything. As if nothing happened.
On this sunny Sunday...
Nadine as usual was busy with her phone on the mattress, she felt very lazy to do activities outside the home. Suddenly a barrage of incoming messages made his phone vibrate several times.
He knew who always sent him messages like that. Carcass. Because Arka often sends messages not only 1 time.
From Arca:
‘Nadine..gue apologize’.
‘gue really-im sorry to make a mistake I’
‘gue tau you heartache same me,’
‘gue apologise..’
With a frown Nadine read Arka's message.
“lah why this person, sorry mulu rich again lebaran,” Nadine did not immediately reply, he deliberately let it until a few minutes before typing a reply message.
Nadine: what's wrong? Suddenly apologized again,
Arka: I'm sorry for making you hurt, though,
Nadine: if this is still a problem that we separated, do not worry, God willing I'm sorry, I'm sorry,
Arka: thanks Nad, I feel guilty and not calm, because after I was the same you separated. I feel like I have karma now.
Nadine: you mean??
....