My Ex
Chapter 7
Arka: I'm sorry for making you hurt, though,
Nadine: if this is still a problem that we separated, do not worry, God willing I'm sorry, I'm sorry,
Arka: thanks Nad, I feel guilty and not calm, because after I was the same you separated. I feel like I have karma now.
Nadine: you mean??
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...Al jaza minjinsil charity, the reply was according to charity,...
...If you do good, then good is for you...
...If you do evil, then evil is for you...
...Because what you plant, that's what will be harvested....
“karma? He said karmic? Meanin? Why is he suddenly apologizing like this?” Nadine wondered to herself. He went to the kitchen and made some juice. For about half an hour he put his phone in bed.
Nadine returned to her room with a glass of tomato juice. He checked his phone, and sure enough there were 3 messages from Arka.
From: Arka
‘gue can not calm Nad, since I broke up with you, my relationship with Clarissa never get along, we continue to fight,’
‘gue also do not understand why every time I am the same he chatted surely only end I discussed about you, but I do not mean to reveal the past,’
‘gue really-questioningly, because already feel the same sin you, sorry I Nadine.’
Nadine read the message slowly. His heart felt a fresh breeze. From the way Arka conveyed this message, Nadine knew that the man was confused right now.
Do you think after hurting someone else's heart, your life will be calm? In your dream, dude.
Everything you do will come back to you. But to be honest Nadine did not expect to come so soon.
Nadine grimaces to imagine how angry Clarissa is. Back when he was Arka's girlfriend, when Arka mentioned Clarissa, Nadine knew exactly how she felt. And with a relaxed look Arka did not do the wrong thing.
As long as you know yes, it was a big mistake. And what did he say? Always say his name every time you talk? No wonder they don't get along. Who will bear if ‘ betrothednya’ mention other women in front of him, who is none other than his ex-lover. And that's every time, not just once or twice.
Unheard-of...
Nadine started typing a reply message.
Nadine: you mean still calling my name how is it?
Arka: I also do not understand, every time I chat with him, end-end I must discuss you, sometimes I feel proud of your excess to him, or I also want him to be the same you.
Nadine: are you sane? Speaking of ex in front of your girl? Especially in bandingin, you kill yourself his name bro..
Arka: well that's it, I don't know why. I have no intention of talking about the past.
Nadine: yes the same. You used to go to me, discuss him mulu, be proud of him in front of me, you think my heart doesn't hurt?
Arka: good bye, I'm bales with God. My heart hurts so bad if I fight with him, he's not rich you Nadine.
Nadine: your business is that anyway. If you love him, never say my name in front of him. Take care of his feelings, I'm enough that you make a heartache. Don't do both.
Arka: yes I'm sorry...
Nadine: sorry about him not being with me. If you are so rich, you are just as rich ‘sipawa darts that fall’
Arka: meaning? The arrow-bearer?
Nadine: as you know I don't like him, but I don't talk to him directly, but you yourself tell me to him. And in person, you make him not like me. As if I ‘yang manah dia’ but the arrow fell, keep you picked up, keep you samperin him and nusukin the arrow was directly before him and say ‘ini from Nadine ya’. Got it??
Arka: I understand.gue emang is not a good man, rich girl you are not pantes for me, for me,
Nadine: and btw, congratulations on your engagement, success yes assurance.
Arka: thank you, you are the best.
“tch, you jerk, so jan sok, you should too. Emang considered good what a rich position it..” umpat Nadine satisfied. He did not reply to Arka's message again.
Nadine was a little satisfied. The pain that he felt yesterday, God has retorted. And without him having to bother to find out, Arka himself delivered the news for him. God is fair.
Even if Nadine thought it through, the pain yesterday was not comparable to Clarissa. Hey, they're engaged. And if there is a problem like this is not an easy thing to part, unless he wants to smear his own face withholding embarrassment, everyone already knows this news.
And the only thing he could only withstand was the agony of the Ark's behavior. Nadine couldn't imagine if Clarissa knew any further. Arka still contacts him a lot. What kind of relationship is this full of drama.
Nadine starts to get fed up with Arka and her drama, she takes a deep breath. Nadine opened her cell phone gallery, and in an instant she deleted all the photos of Arka there without any rest. Even the photos that might remind him of Arka though, he deleted them.
Not only that, he also blocked whatapp and Facebook Arka. Instagram is all he left. Nadine only unfollows Arka's account. But Arka can still see Nadine's account. He was getting tired of the situation.
Nadine no longer wants to deal with Arka, but unfortunately they are still one place of work. He could not break his full contact with Arka. At least learn to minimize the situation.
***
20 Days went by and there was no interesting story. Everything is going normal. Until one Friday’at, Nadine back MC because she feels cramp pain because of monthly. Okay, all the girls know how the pain is, and it's sometimes out of control, and it makes Nadine have to go to the clinic.
He went to the clinic on purpose earlier than usual, because this is Friday’at. He is lazy if he goes during the day, surely his doctor is not in place and he has to wait until 2 pm.
Today Nadine is wearing a maroon red robe with the same khimar. This is a new look from Nadine. He's a little awkward wild with clothes like that. Sometimes he feels there are some people watching him, either true or just his feelings.
Arriving at the clinic he sat in the waiting room after filling out the patient form. A nurse called him.
“oke relax aja, do not touch.” He muttered to himself.
Nadine was thinking about what reason she would say to the doctor so that she could get an MC letter. Because if he does not get the letter, well tomorrow he will get problems at work. It's the other day he got SP, if he's in trouble now, die.
Nadine entered the doctor's room, the smell of medicine directly pierced her kiss. ‘oh today her doctor is male,’ Nadine's inner calm. He consulted with the doctor several times, and he was one of the doctors who very easily gave the MC letter. Nadine can breathe a sigh of relief now.
“hai, Nadine. Why else you?” greet the doctor read Nadine's data to greet her.
“emm anu doc, I'm from morning diarrhea, did I eat wrong ya?” tanya Nadine started to have an alibi.
“em, today looks different yes, what because it is now Friday’at?” the doctor said he switched the conversation, focusing on Nadine's makeup. I know very well how Nadine if she comes to his room.
Without hijab, let alone a wide and long gamis and khimar. The doctor laughed teasingly at Nadine who blushed in embarrassment at the doctor's remark.
Nadine walked out of the clinic feeling relieved. He looked at the MC letter as if he had a golden ticket. Along the way he smiled amusedly with his discussion with the doctor who continued to tease him. Nadine was ashamed of herself.
***
Honestly since Nadine's anger subsided, he re-unblocked her on Arka's account. He felt that it should not be like that, Nadine is not the type who is too hard feeling. He just needs space until he feels stable.
This Saturday and Sunday, Nadine is quite busy with her new activities. That is, going to the study, he began to blend in with new friends. He studied religion again, listening to lectures and the advice of teachers.
Nadine feels the old thing has returned to her. When he saw his new friends who were very religious, inevitably it brought a very positive impact for Nadine. He realized that the earth of God is vast, if you feel crowded here, try to go out and find a new atmosphere.
“God's promise is spoken twice, with difficulty there is ease, with difficulty there is ease.”(QS: 94 verses 5-6)
But it wasn't as easy as imagined. Arka keeps coming to him like a trial for Nadine. ‘this is the test of feeling.’ Nadine complained.
Women will be strong if they are tested with poverty
Women will be strong if tested with a lack of partners.
Women will be strong if tested with their children
But women will be weak if tested for feelings.
Nadine posted a picture of herself clad in maroon red robe to her whatapp status. After a while, Arka replied to her post.
Arka: hey, who is this? new look wow,
Nadine only bengong after reading the message. What the hell, whats wrong with you man~....
Nadine doesn't understand Arka at all. Okay they've broken up, and Nadine doesn't care if she still has to be friends with Arka. Just friend, no more, it’s OK.
But do I have to keep contacting him at regular intervals like this, making the situation ambiguous. Making Nadine's heart waver, had she made the wrong decision to part with Arka??
‘hey c’mone Nadine, don’t thinking about step back like a loser’
Nadine only replied to Arka's message without any intention, just limited to courtesy so that their relationship remained normal as usual.
He squeezed his temple plan. His head is dizzy with the behavior of this one man. breaking up with someone because of being forced to this is not an easy thing. Even to stay away takes extra effort.
Nadine just needs space for herself to be at peace with her heart. But why is it so hard? It was as if the man was deliberately bothering him.
Sometimes Nadine doesn't think with Arka. After everything he did to her, still he had the face to make friends with Nadine. Ok, that's not wrong, only the situation is less fitting.
Nadine squeezed the tip of her hijab with a huff. Sighs in frustration. ‘what moves on this hard?’ his inner.
“why ma'am? Daritadi diem aja?” sengol Julia resuscitated Nadine from her daydream.
“hehe regular, there is temptation from syaiton ahaha,” reply Nadine original while wiggling her phone.
“oooohhhhh definitely from si’u’ yes? He's still calling you?” guess Julia was on target, Nadine could only nod her head.
“ya already...cemen terribly you, already know he is already engaged, you still want to wait it guy, if I anyway I have blocked everything, clear.” Julia sarcas.
Nadine just grinned as if it was a guyonan. The object is as easy as you delete a file in the gallery, it must have done it a long time ago.
***
Nadine didn't go to work today. Not because he's the MC anymore, but he's already taking annual leave for Monday and Tuesday this week.
April was waiting for him under the apartment. From a distance he could see Nadine with a red robe and a black veil.
“ecieee..tumben pack a robe,” goda Nadine saw April with her pink dress.
“iya right let same, btw already pesen taxi?”
“not yet, just me pesen grab first,” Nadine deftly order a taxi online.
A few minutes later their taxi arrived at the gate. Today these two girls are going to the state library. Actually Nadine had gone there about a few months ago, with Arka. But that day, the library closed.
Maybe because it was Sunday, Nadine thought.
“supposedly, if monday does not close right?” nadine said make sure,
“should have been,” timpal April.
A much more enjoyable trip, at least this helps for relaxation. But none of this lasted long.
It's raining rather heavily, it's daytime hey, even midday.
“rain, how about?” April looks out the stop,
“gue do not know it will rain, but it was bright sunny aja,-- eee.it bus dateng, hunted!”
without thinking, Nadine pulled Arpil into the bus before they got drenched.
Unfortunately, they did not get a seat. Today, many people use city buses, but rarely this full bus. Nadine saw herself being slightly wet from the rain.
“eh, long time no test,” chirps April.
“ya continue? You want to continue testing about MC gegara fever?”
“ya not that anyway, I am as good as aja, will not have a fever, you know if you, hehe” April cangengesan see Nadine's face is upset.
“eh, one more stop, jan overdue. Males I walk again ujain gini.” Said Nadine reminded after seeing the bus route.
The bus stopped at stop C in April and Nadine immediately descended in a hurry due to heavy rain.
“wah..wet all my clothes.” Nadine complained.
“ya the name is also ujan, how the hell, yuk road, already deket,” April with his chuckles running through the rain.
“eeee...behold, the rain is still big, wait a minute,” Nadine immediately withdraw April before coming out of the stop, wait for the rest,
“ya continue? Wait until when? Night hunt,”
“just a moment, you don't see the test big?”
“ujan mah only water, not stone, yuk road..” April walked away from Nadine who was still grumbling on her side.
After walking through the rain to make their clothes wet. They finally arrived in front of the library building. Nadine looked at April with annoyance mixed with disappointment, who was stared at only retaliating with resignation.
“kok close anyway!” angry Nadine upset to see the announcement on the glass door that says ‘CLOSE UNTIL FEBRUARY’ that means it is still 10 months from now.
“ya keep how?” ask April not know what to respond.
Nadine was upset, her goal came Monday to be able to enjoy books, a quiet library. But apparently, after crossing the rain, the library was closed.
“already from here, mending enter the gallery,” April pointed to the classic building right next to the library.
“gak, I've been there the same Arka,” rejected Nadine, I've been,
“but the same I ever belom, ayok hunted, you want to hang out here?” April pulled Nadine's hand impatiently. Want to not want Nadine to obey him lazily.
Nadine once entered this gallery with Arka, right on Sunday when she wanted to enter the library building which was still closed. Nadine felt deja vu, everything she saw inside as if opening up her memories with Arka. He remembered every corner of it, with whatever they were doing inside, with all the conversation. Makes Nadine hold tight.
‘why should be here anyway.’
After touring the entire gallery and taking many photos there, April takes her to Souvenir
it is located next to the cafe.
“chocolate cup cake, and vanilla cup cake please,” Nadine offers 2 meal coupons that she can get in front of the cashier before entering the gallery.
“thanks,” April immediately picked up her order and sat down at the table that Nadine had chosen.
“nih got you,” April thrust chocolate flavor order Nadine,
“thank you, uh btw the interior is much replaced, last I came not so good,” comments Nadine noticed the colorful window behind her, I think,
“hehe yes, gapapa lah ga so enter the perpus, here also ok.” April starts eating the cake voraciously, making Nadine think they should go to a place that sells rice, not cake.
***
The sun is moving west. Nadine and April actually spend the day walking around the city, around the city park and the souvenir market. They finally decided to go home because the sun had set.
But to be honest, Nadine secretly felt a rush in her chest, she quietly cried to see every corner of the place she had ever stopped with Arka. On the last day of their date.
Flashback~
“yang photoin me,” Arka thrust his phone and immediately stylish on the edge of the bridge with a blue-lit river background. The dark night sky, as well as the flickering lights of the city make the atmosphere very beautiful at night.
“the real style,” said Nadine seriously membil photo Arka posing like a model.
“change style, which swag try, really calcic your style,” Arka according and change the style more tengil, Nadine laughs amusedly at the sight of Arka,
“mana clay, good ga?-- wah..kaya model nih me,” praise Arka satisfied to see the results of his photo, and,
“who used to be a photoin,” proud Nadine,
“thank you my dear,” Arka with an anxious scramble brunette Nadine,
“eehh pay, good for free,” protest Nadine
“here, I pay,” Arka pulls Nadine walking down the stairs, her hand embracing Nadine's shoulder without awkward, she said,
“where's the payment?”
“kiss first..” Arka pointed at her cheeks flirtatiously, making Nadine sneer and pinch Arka's cheeks in annoyance,
“ask in kiss not in pinch,” Arka with an anxious kiss on Nadine's cheek, making Nadine wrong behavior.
Flashback end~
“gue ga strong Pril,” said Nadine suddenly,
“lah why?” April was shocked to see Nadine as if out of breath.
“all the places we came from the beginning until now, ngingetin I same Arka,” said Nadine honestly, her voice began to hoarse.
Nadine doesn't know what to do. If it had to be said he was too weak just because of this trivial matter, it seemed like it was. Because Nadine's heart is really claustrophobic now.
Sayup-sayup sounds azan. Arpil glanced at the clock, already entering Isya's clock.
“eh pray first yu, before getting off to the station,” Nadine just nodded according to.
At a time like this, he must complain to his Lord immediately. He poured out all his heart. The best place to address all problems.
***
“April! Buruan..Keretanya has come!” nadine shouted running down the stairs in a hurry after seeing the train that was already stand by. Arpil went down the stairs with great difficulty.
“aahh...alhamdulillah, fortunately not missed,” relieved nadine after sitting in the car, nadin,
“iya wkwk, if you miss it,” timpal April with a breath that is still hunting.
“eh.. pause, we entered the platform number what? Weird rich ko huh?” Nadine patted April's thigh with a huff,
“lah, do not know me, hurry up anyway, why?”
“we entered the wrong train, mampus lah,” great-granddaughter Nadine after seeing the train route above the door,
“serious lu?” panic April,
“iyalah, noh see, we even enter the opposite lane of our home,” Nadine pointed the route, making April panic.
“how are you? This malem,” panic April.
“we get off at the next station, continue to ride again the train that leads to home,” right after that the train stops at the station x002.
Nadine exits the train looking at a very strange, quiet and dark station. April followed behind him,
“duh we die,” said Nadine saw the board of raiders who will arrive at 10 pm.
April sat down resignedly, that means there was 1 and a half hours before the train arrived. The quiet and dark state made both of them very uneasy in the waiting times.
Nadine took a picture of the deserted station, then wrote on her status
‘ok, we die, where is God...T-T’
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