
Good morning, does anyone miss them? Read it slowly. This episode is the longest episode I have ever written. I have a surprise for you at the end of the story.
Okay, happy reading
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Seven days passed after the birth and death of the twins. Today Alika has been allowed to go home by her Obstetrician. Since last night he has been free from the infusion hose.
Alika was still sitting in front of the bed with her legs dangling down. His body was still a little wet with a towel wrapped around his chest. The smell of soap envelops the body smoothly. Bilmar had just bathed Alika, because soon he would bring his wife home.
Alika was still staring at the hordeng who was shaking due to the wind from outside. Staring at the incoming sunlight highlighted his sense of sight.
There was no joy on his face, even though he was watching a funny show on television. He just kept silent. Every night, he still cries. Although he no longer complained to anyone, because he had promised to Bilmar to learn to accept all this. In fact, it is still difficult to accept all of this quickly.
"Do you want breakfast?" ask Bilmar while crawling up on the bed. The man sat down behind his wife's back. Grabbing a comb from inside the bag, to comb Alika's hair.
Alika simply shook her head and gave a thread-thin smile.
Bilmar nodded and obeyed his wife's will. He got up and down the bed and grabbed the shirt his wife was going to wear from the suitcase. He walked back to Alika. To dry his body completely from the water. Then after that, he put on a pregnant dress that his wife had.
"Wear powder, let's not pale?"
Alika nodded and pointed at her Hermes bag. Bilmar grabbed the powder to be smeared on his wife's cheeks.
"Wear lipstick, yeah.." Bilmar greasing lipsmate with amateur movement. Alika just let go of what her husband wanted.
Tok tok tok tok
There was a knock from outside Alika's treatment room door. Bilmar deliberately locked it because it was bathing his wife. He came to the door and opened the key.
"Are you ready, sir?" the nurse asked, bringing a rostur.
"Yes, Sus, it's."
"The nurse went inside and brought a rostur.
"At first, ma'am." greet the nurse to Alika. "Are you ready to go home this morning?"
"Yes, Sus." replied Alika with a charming smile.
Bilmar also helped hold Alika to a seat in a wheelchair. "Let my husband push, Sus. Sister can go back to work.." pinta Alika.
"Right, ma'am, don't want to be ushered in until the main door?" Nurse ensure.
Alika smiled back. "Yes Sus, right---"
"Good, Mom, sir. Excuse me for a moment to take the drugs that must be drunk by Mother at home, wait a while ya." The nurse left them.
Alika and Bilmar nodded simultaneously. Billie sat back on the sofa.
"You still want to go home to Papa, Al?" tanya Bilmar made sure to go back.
"Yes, Bill. It's nothing, is it?"
Actually Bilmar's heart is heavy, but inevitably he finally let it too. Because he knew his wife was in a difficult situation. Bilmar tried to give in and would not suppress Alika's mind in times like these.
Last night Alika asked Bilmar to allow her to stay while at the Papa's house. Alika is not ready to go home. He was afraid to imagine memories during pregnancy at home and more difficult was when he would stare at the room, sleeping box and baby equipment belonging to Bilka and Abrar. It was still very difficult for Alika.
Alika forbids all to come to the hospital even if just to pick up. He just wanted his family to wait for him to come home. She also misses her two children. During his time in the care, Alika did not meet with Maura and Ammar. He did not want his two healthy children taken to the Hospital.
"Yes baby..." Bilmar returned. "But you have to eat a lot." asked Bilmar.
"Yes, honey. Make it yes."
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It is true that Papa Luky's heart is now very blushing and happy even though deep down he still feels pain due to the loss of his twin grandchildren. He was happy because his eldest son would stay with him for a while. Papa Luky has long wanted this, to be closer to his son every day. Especially with the situation of Alika who is still in turmoil like now.
"My son, baby." she said when Alika had arrived at the doorstep.
Papa Luky stepped quickly to hug, kiss and embrace his daughter. With such body language made Alika lay her head on Papa Luky's chest while hugging his stomach.
"Mom.." His mouth.
"Already, already. There's Papa here!"
Papa Luky brought Alika into the house. Bilmar followed her from behind with Alika's bag. Papa Bayu, Maura and Ammar are still on their way to Papa Luky's house. While Binara, Rendi and Girl are still out to shop for the needs of the Brother.
"Slow down, son.." Papa Luky and Bilmar join Alika to sit on the sofa. The scar of stitches in Alika's stomach still feels lax if she moves quite heavily.
"Alika lived here first, it's okay, Pah?"
"Why wear it, son. This is your home too."
Alika nodded and smiled. "Do you want to move here forever, son?" papa Luky's words suddenly made the look of Bilmar's face immediately stiffened. There was a look of dislike from him.
"Don't, Pah.."
But hearing his wife's reply just now, made his heart instantly become relieved. He will not have long arguments in this matter with his parents-in-law.
"But maybe a few months, Alika's here, Pah."
The jag.
The relief that had just enveloped Bilmar's heart, was simply extinguished.
"What do you mean, Al?" Bilmar finally made his voice.
Alika and Papa Luky turned. "I'm gonna be here first, Bil. Three months, shall you?"
"Huh? Three months?" ask Bilmar to repeat.
"Yes, honey, is it okay?" Alika looked at the two dark netra of Bilmar deeply.
"I think only a few days or a week, Al. Why is it so long?"
"What's wrong, Bil? What's the difference between Alika here and there? It's both his house, right?" sahut Papa Luky's.
"But, Pah---"
"Alika is also my son. This is his house, he has the right to live here and I have the right to Alika!" papa Luky's voice sounded resolute and solemn. Making Bilmar can only be silent without refuting.
To be honest he knew, this was only Alika's reason for burying Bilka and Abrar's memories. Not that Bilmar wouldn't let Alika stay at her Papa's house. But for that long, it seemed impossible for him. He prefers to stay at home and the distance from the office is very far.
"I'm sorry, Bil. I'm not ready!" Inner Alika.
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It's eight o'clock at night. After finishing dinner with the family, Alika and Bilmar choose to enter the guest room that has been prepared by Binara. The house tonight feels crowded, because all the Artanegara family gathered. Maura and Ammar were forced to stay in this house.
It looks like Bilmar is leaning his body against the bed. Folding his hands together in the chest, he continued to look at the back of his wife who was fondling Ammar. From the outside still heard the sound of Maura and Girl who laughed fiddled for playing with Rendi and Binar.
There was silence in the room. Until finally Bilmar re-opens his voice.
"Three months here, isn't that too much, Al?"
Alika only shook her head without answering. That's his mark he stays in his stance.
"The distance from home to office is very far, Al--"
"There's a driver who can pick you up!" alika Strait.
"I never liked being in a driver, Al--"
"From now on you have to like!" Alika back to interject.
"Maura would also not be comfortable if not sleeping in her room and my father too, can not she live alone at home?My dad is old, Al!"
"Well, let me be with Ammar who lives here!" Alika remained in her decision.
Honestly, the woman can not think clearly, she has not been consistent with her promise. Sometimes today he would say A, if his mood was good. But when the sadness arises, then he will say B. Alika still has not accepted the departure of their child in this close time.
"That means you can leave Maura alone at home? How's the PR? How does it eat the same? He's been with you for a week, Al!"
Alika was silent for a long time. That's not what he wants. Feeling his wife was silent, Bilmar thought Alika would change her mind. Maura is indeed the reason to persuade Alika.
However, Bilmar again guessed wrongly.
"Maura's food is here, Bil. There is also a Binar and Girl, can help PR Maura. My condition is still like this, I'm still not focused and Papa Baby must understand."
"How am I supposed to be?" The volume of Bilmar's voice was heard rising.
"Yes you're here too, Bil! Same with me and the kids. What's the trouble anyway?" Alika raised her voice. Making Ammar who had fallen asleep slightly blinked his eyes and fell asleep again.
"Yes but it doesn't have to be three months here, Al. Please understand me..."
Alika turned her head, twisted her body and stared clearly at her husband's face.
"What harm? This is my home too, your home! What's the difference between living here and there?"
Alika still looked straight at her husband's eyes. "I'm just asking for a little understanding from you, Bil. This is all hard for me!"
Bilmar was silent. He wants to keep his wife awake if he is difficult. But still all this must be lived with a chest. But it seems that the thought of Bilmar was not taken for granted by his wife.
"Please understand me, Bil. I've followed your will to not complain and not cry over them often. But I'm a fragile human too, Bil. I need some time. I've been abandoned many times by people I love in sudden ways. That's heavy, Bil! I honestly can't accept our children's departure!"
Bilmar was silent again. He just kept frowning his forehead. He hugged his wife and calmed her down. But it seems very impossible. Alika will not change her intentions. Then Bilmar gave up, he didn't want to make a fuss tonight. Bilmar just silenced Alika and got up from the bed to leave the room. The man was sure that tomorrow Alika would definitely follow his will.
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A month has passed. Alika remained in her stance, she did not want to go home first. He still wants to be here, at Papa Luky's house. For some reason his heart feels cold if it is always close to Papa and his sister. A bunch of spirit has now returned he cantongi.
Although Bilmar always complained tired, tired and tired when he arrived at Papa Luky's house after returning from the office. This he did to get Alika back home. But Alika still only wants to be at her Papa's house.
It's 11 p.m., Bilmar hasn't come home yet. Alika was still pacing back and forth in the guest room to wait for her husband to come home. She was worried and worried, why could her husband come home this late. The mind that does not-do just decorate his head.
"What's up?" Alika muttered to herself.
She kept staring at the screen of her phone which she had been using to call her husband. But Bilmar did not answer his phone call and did not return messages from him.
"Where are you going, Bil!" Alika is getting restless. The time keeps turning, now the time shows at 00:00.
"It's midnight, but Bilmar hasn't come home yet?" Finally he decided to knock on the door of Binara's room.
Not until the hand was paddled, immediately a knocking sound came from the main door. Making Alika stop to wake Binara, she already knew it must be her husband who came home. Alika quickly darted towards the main door, although there was still a sense of linu in the seams when she was running.
Crick
The door opened wide.
Like a thunderbolt that was shattering the sky with its voice. So did Alika's current gaze, it was painful and poignant to look at the state of the man she had been waiting for for hours just now. Alika's soles instantly became helpless. His tears trickled down and fell, he would not have expected at all the state of Bilmar like this. Alika was also screaming in frustration.
Was it because of an accident?
Wasn't it!
But, because tonight Bilmar came home in unusual circumstances.
Bilmar's drunk!
The man came home drunk, staggering, half conscious. Mr. Adit still faithfully embraces Bilmar in order to stand optimally. Although many times Bilmar's body just so sloshed on the floor.
"Sorry, Mom. Dad mostly drinks. I tried to remind him, but he still wanted to drink a lot."
"Darling...My alika.." Bilmar plots to approach Alika's body and kisses her.
"I miss you, baby." Again. Making Alika not pleasing to Mr. Adit.
"You guys from the nightclub?" asked Alika with courage.
"Bil answer! Where are you from?" Alika turned to look at her husband who was still clutching his chest. That position made Alika's body like wanting to fall because it was holding weight.
"Sorry Mom, we're not from the Nightclub. There was a dinner invitation with the client, but we were served with alcoholic beverages. And you chose to drink it."
Alika's face was flushed with anger. The tears that had been shed have now subsided.
"Makasi Pak has delivered Bilmar, Mr. Adit can go home now." Alika reflexively drove Mr. Adit away forcefully and subtly. His heart is already overwhelmed with emotional responsibility. He wouldn't have expected Bilmar to be able to do something like this.
Coincidence at the same time. Binara came out of the room to take the cold drinking water to the kitchen. He looked up when he heard a noise from the living room.
"It's midnight, what's that noise? Does anyone have a storm?" whispered Binara, at first she was afraid. But still he forced to step closer to the voice.
"Oh my God, Brother!" yelled Binar while covering both his mouth. He could not believe that Alika was dragging the drunken body of Bilmar into the bathroom.
"What's this about? What happened to Brother Bilmar?" Binara kept asking.
Alika did not answer, she continued dragging her husband's body on the floor to enter the bathroom. Bilmar who is not aware only mumbled indistinctly, sometimes he sighed, sad, angry and laughing.
Alika kept putting her husband in the bathroom. Alika grabbed the handle of the shower to be directed to her husband's body. Bilmar was still sitting leaning against the bathroom wall, he was still fussing.
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Brrr
Cold water just hit Bilmar's work shirt. Making the man shake because of the cold and wet water into one wrestling his body.
"Buck you, Bil! I'll wait for you until midnight. And you're DRUNK!!"
"Who taught you how to believe!"
"Even if we've just lost a child, you've still had a chance like this!"
"Your path, Bil!"
"Come now you take a shower! Let the alcoholic drink disappear from your body!"
Alika's anger continued to linger for her husband. Bilmar continued to pity Alika, in half his consciousness.
"Sister..Sis.." Call Binara from outside the bathroom door that was deliberately locked by Alika.
"Which wife will not be angry, if she sees her husband coming home drunk like this, Bilmar!" alika's voice was getting higher. She kept rebuking her husband.
"You're beautiful baby when you're angry.." Bilmar laughed a little. Makes Alika's emotions go up.
At midnight like this. Alika kept flushing her husband with cold water. Bathe the man to quickly wake up. Alika crying. The woman continued to cry until where the shower handle she threw into the bath up. He regretted why his household became like this after losing the twins.
Bilmar frustrated. He misses Bilka and Abrar, why his departure is so felt today. Plus he longed to touch his wife, but he realized, he learned from experience. If he would not force his desire that could make his wife hurt.
Bilmar is not that strong.
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Since the incident that night, Alika no longer speaks warmly with her husband. Every time Bilmar approached, Alika refused. There seems to be a distance between them. Even when Bilmar decided to return to Papa Bayu's house, Alika agreed. It does not prohibit at all.
One week they separated. They no longer shared a bed or hugged each other as usual. These two married couples actually miss each other, but the selfish in both of them are still rounded.
"Papa.." cried Maura when she saw Bilmar had just come from the doorway. The man hugged and kissed his son whom he missed so much.
"Why bring flowers as brown?" ask Maura.
"Chocolate for Maura, if flowers for Mama. What's your mom, son?"
Maura just silently looked at her Papa. He prefers to take the chocolate and go back to playing.
"Just come, Bil? It's a really big night." Rendi approached Bilmar on the sofa. The man rolled his eyes to see the clock that had been pointing at eight o'clock in the night.
"Yes Ren, it just so happened that the road was jammed."
During this one week Bilmar let Alika with Maura and Ammar at Papa Luky's house. While he still went home to Papa Bayu's house. This he did, because he did not want to make Bilka and Abrar lose himself.
It is like believing that before the forty days are over, the spirits of their children are still faithful at home. And he fished so that Alika would come with him, in fact the wife remained in his stance. He wants to stay at Papa Luky's house.
From inside the room.
"Give Ammar to Bilmar, I know he misses his son, Bin.." Alika handed Ammar over to Binara.
"But, Brother. During this week you guys never met, I know you miss your dad the kids."
"Here, I don't want Bilmar coming to my room!"
"Look at your acne, it's jade. Still want to not see the kids?" Binara rubbed off on Alika's face, which had a pimple on her chin. Alika's face flushed red from enduring the embarrassment.
"There go!" Alika clucked in annoyance.
"Yes, yes alright---" Binara relented not to argue. He knew once there was a light of longing that hit the face of the Brother. But he knew Alika was still angry with her sister-in-law.
Bilmar's forehead creased, when he saw Binara carrying Ammar alone in her arms.
"Where's the alika, Bin?"
"You know, brother. How is my brother." Binara gave Ammar to Bilmar. The boy looks like he's picking up his finger. Bilmar again showered Ammar's face with a longing kiss.
"Duh kangen very Papa same you, Nak-" Ammar as usual, he will laugh if Bilmar gave his clever.
"Wood Alika, Bill. Take your wife to the room." said Rendi.
"But my brother deserves to be angry! Because Brother Bilmar has gone too far to use all drunk, dear." said Binar to Rendi.
"Sorry, Bin. I was khilaf at the time. My mind is fucked."
"Make it not strong, we know exactly your heart still can not accept. That's why my brother wants you here first. He just wanted to gather his strength!"
"It's natural that under these circumstances he needs me, needs papa and needs his family to accompany him? Don't forget, Brother. You forced my sister, to get pregnant again!"
"Even the pain of giving birth to Ammar has not been dashed from his memory. Then pregnant with twins. He must share his affection with the still-too-little Ammar to your two twins!"
"Not only there, my sister also felt problems in the early days of her pregnancy, having to maintain a diet. Fight your best to keep your children!"
"Then now? Your children are gone, just leave you. You are sick, brother. Moreover, my brother, she is the one who is pregnant and she is also the one who gave birth! Even until now, he still likes to cry because he holds a little linu in the wound. Do you understand all that? Do you understand?"
In order to represent the brother, Binara issued the coins in Alika's heart to Bilmar. Making Bilmar speechless, dumbfounded and flabbergasted. The man was silent for a long time. Why is it only now he examines what the reason behind his wife's wishes. Bilmar's tears are dripping.
"I'm sorry, Binar. I'm wrong!" billmar's voice sounded vibrating.
"Please carry Ammar, Bin. I'm going to see my wife." Bilmar handed Ammar back to Binar.
Makes the baby cry. He misses his Papa. But now Bilmar wants to take back the word sorry from his wife's lips. He stepped quickly to catch up to Alika into the room.
"Darling..." Call Bilmar when he has managed to open the door of the room and found his wife still sitting in front of the bed.
Bilmar dropped his body with both knees propping himself up. He cupped his face over Alika's thigh. Hugged his wife's stomach and cried.
"I'm a lot wrong with you, Al. I'm sorry!" Bilmar cried sobbing.
Such is the wife, when seeing a beloved husband like this, of course her heart does not have the heart. Alika misses Bilmar very much, the same as Bilmar. He misses his wife.
"I know you're not this strong to let go of our children!"
"You've only been pretending this whole time, Bil. So I'm strong, right? So I can get a chest, right?"
"I know, the nights you always wake up and cry! You're always wiping our kid's picture!"
"And even in the office I know you like to cry! You don't have appetite, you like to daydream. I know, Bil!"
Bilmar raised his face. He looked at his wife with tears. "You know what, Al?"
"I always call Katherine to keep an eye on you. He reported all your activities to me. You think I'm willing to let you go that's all alone?"
Bilmar gawked in disbelief. It turned out that Alika's attention never disappeared from her.
"But I can't do anything, Bil. I can't pretend to lie to you, because I'm fragile too, Bil. I still can't accept their departure, even though I try to be sincere. But it's still hard!"
Bilmar nodded. He understands and understands now. They are fragile and not strong.
"You don't have to lie to yourself to act like you're strong and accepting, just to please me, Bill."
"If you want to cry, you miss them. I'm ready to be horrified. I'm ready to hug you, I'm not your wife, where are you going to run but to me, Bil?"
Bilmar's chest is getting squeezed. His eyes were wide open and his heart would be a slap from every word of his wife. That he doesn't have to be someone else. Let go of everything as it is, let each other release sadness and turn into happiness.
"I'm sorry, Al. I was selfish. I don't think about your feelings, your situation that has sacrificed a lot."
"Yes, Bill. I'm sorry you--"
They also embrace each other in grief.
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Three months passed after the departure of their son and daughter. Alika fulfilled the promise to return home. His heart was stronger, he was strong enough to enter the room of their deceased children. It all needs process.
Alika seems to have destroyed Bilka and Abrar. The woman was cheerful and happy again. Like on this hot night. Bilmar, who had endured his passion for ninety days, finally paid off tonight.
"Let's go..eugh." Rinlihan Bilmar when he felt Alika's body move above his body. Tonight, Bilmar asked Alika to lead the game. He wanted to see his wife excited again.
"Get out your energy baby, I know you miss this." whispered Bilmar as he helped hold Alika's hips that were moving sensually to jerk the core in her body.
He smiled when he saw his wife moaning.
"You're beautiful, baby.." Bilmar continued to praise Alika, making his wife's desire even more burning. With a downward movement up, Alika's hair was shaking in disarray. Increasingly boil the gelora Bilmar to re-invade his wife's oral cavity.
Alika felt her hips tighten. Like there was an explosion coming out. His chest puffed into the air.
"Repile..." Alika Rintih.
Felt the wife will penetrate the peak, Bilmar quickly toppled Alika's body. He was leading the game again. Stomped on hers quickly. And they both finally broke through the base of the enjoyment.
The breaths of the two hunted each other. Panting and sweating.
But not how long Alika's face stiffened and reddened. She glanced straight at the two dense neutrals belonging to her husband. Bilmar is still loyal to be on his body has not been willing to let go of their unity.
"Bill?"
"Yes baby..."
"So you heard?" alika asked, afraid he heard wrong.
Bilmar nodded with a smile. "He heard me, Al.."
"Like the sound of a baby giggling, Bill..."
"Yes right, Al!" Bilmar confirmed Alika's estimate. Though it was a voice that was heard from within the empty Maura doll. I don't know why it always rings in the middle of the night.
"What's that--?" alika's voice sounded very slow. Instantly my hair was goosebumps.
"That's just a genie who is incarnating into Bilka and Abrar! No need to respond." Bilmar continues to tease Alika with his drama.
"That means you've been a lot?"
"Often bothered--" continued Bilmar.
"Especially I used to sleep alone without you, my legs like being licked. Sometimes my eyelids look like they're making fun of me. Hands are like someone likes to stroke." Bilmar keeps making it up.
Alika glared her eyes, she looked grimacing.
"Reg, Al. Don'tbeafraid. Tomorrow we go to the tomb, look at Bilka and Abrar..." Bilmar deliberately lied to Alika so that his wife would come to the tomb. To spread flowers and see the physicality of their children's homes. Because until now Alika is still not ready to visit their tomb. Alika still could not shake the heart from her heart leaving Bilka and Abrar alone in the ground.
Alika nodded. "Yes Bil, we'll be there..Pray for our children."
Bilmar lowered his head to whisper in Alika's ear.
"No, he's next to you."
"Who, Bil?"
"Tuyul!"
Bilmar continued to tease his wife. Alika with maximum fear, could only hug her husband tightly.
"Ahhhh..fear!" Alika screamed loudly, but immediately she fell silent when she heard the laughter of Bilmar echoing in the air.
"You lied to me, huh, Bil?"
"Ahh..sick baby." Bilmar instantly incubated when Alika pinched her stomach. Bilmar hugged Alika again and kissed her forehead.
"Till old yeah, same me..."
"....Yes, Bill."
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