My face is not as pretty as my heart
THE EPS 9
POV twilight…
God, once I wanted to be selfish and feel a sense of
love the attention of this man. I want him to be the first person when
I choose anything, when I open my eyes and I think he's the first
in my brain, I want him, even though my heart and my feelings will have to be
banging with all things and life he who is seen as like the sky and
earth with him.
Just once god….
for me to try to open my heart even though it's still a thin glass veil
easy to break would be a vibration but I'll try it's god….
POV TWILIGHT OFF
After that incident, I and Mr. Arkana also have more
close and know each other and open to each other and equal attention
demanding to tell each other.
Baby Aiko has also been added and healthy, baby iko as well
always with me when I work afternoon shift, the morning I can take care of baby iko
and he is like understanding my relationship with his father. He's getting more and more
sticky and not to be out of my way.
When it coincides me and mas arkana the same as our holiday
deliberately take the day to invite baby Aiko to the road and
teach him new things so that he still has social things that he needs
do so.
We also walked to a very crowded park with groups
a group of families who accompany their children to play in the grassland. I did the same thing
special picnic tickets and arrange the dining basket to eat when baby aiko
thirsty and hungry. I looked around at the happy mother and father looking
his son played and did sports such as mini football, balloons, and balloons,
and balloon water that is blown.
Baby Aiko was no less happy when playing with
the bubble bubble that his father blew and formed a flying bubble,
he laughed with his happiness. And do all that with bahgia and his yearning for
anything when you see something new.
He ran towards me and spread his hands to me and
said with a lisp “ endaa her due,..” I also stretched my hand to
receiving hugs and the overflow of her tiny body.
he hugged me like I was his mother.
“sayang do not run...!!!” I screamed as he ran closer
to me. Mas arkana was silent and chuckled little as her son ran away and
hugged me until I was less than equal in catching his son.
“gak papa lah bun…. He is a man so must be strong and know
banting” while continuing to tickle baby
aikoo. Until I unknowingly she also called me mother.
“ehh …. Kok call it also mother.. later people can misunderstand loh mas..”.
With a snort I said my protest.
“mampil mas aja uda many misunderstand, justin aja people misunderstand and
no one has you except me arkana and my son aiko....!!!” while
he looked at me seriously and without any lies in his eyes.
My face immediately reddened and endured the embarrassment in front of all
the eyes looked, because the carana kissed my forehead with a friendly.
“mas I'm not pretty and I'm not as perfect as being together
next to you who's a child psychologist, I'm insecure next to you,. Gini time
I uda gerogi and embarrassed to be afraid of you in mockery because the road with me is just
with simple clothes and I will wear again in a few days
again, another with you who can change every day and maybe you have a mall
great, I don't know how rich you are and what looks.
honesty is how you feel about me, but I only order when you want to go
from me and choosing a woman who is more than me then talk to me and me
will leave quietly and without making a fuss. Because I'm tired of
arguing about my heart and wounds only I cover not to heal.”
He hugged me tightly and in the middle of us
there's a baby iko calling me with her lisp
“ the sign is due,,,…. No... no...etooppp angis..”
as her little hands rubbed my wet cheeks. Me too
peeping the cheeks of the kingpin that is getting fatter every day.
Mr. arkana stood up and took our hands to head over
a fish pond that contains koi fish that are funny and give the camera
mobile phone to me and baby iko while calling us and aiming the camera
with the style of accidentally that we look natural and look at each other
me and baby aiko.
We have arrived at the home of mr. arkana …
Baby Aiko's been sleeping on my lap after that we're down
from the car and entering the house. Until I enter the door of the house
there was a voice that made us look back.
“arkana did you forget about your parents and visit us
?”
“what do you want to be a disobedient child ha,,,…. ? answer kana.?”
the woman while glaring her eyes in a high tone, until her hands will
reaching for the smooth cheek of mas arkana, I who was around just screamed
with shock at the old woman's response I believed that it was
her mother's.
“ arkana, know what arkana will do and arkana sure
to do everything by yourself and arkana's choice, if you come here
to force arkana to marry the woman again arkana will not want and refuse
firmly, because kana can choose all by herself and without enough force
you used to force arakan in all things. But this time let's get it on its own
who chose themselves.”
While holding her mama's hand she explained and
warning me that this is his choice.
“what because of this woman you refused mama to mama mate
again with aiko's biological mother, who is needed by an aiko.?” With
holding my hand holding baby Aiko.
I also endured the pain so that baby Aiko did not fall in
my sling.
“iya she is indeed the birth mother of my son, but what a biological mother
shower her child with hot water.?”
“answer ma.....?””is that worth a mother saying.?”
While blushing with emotions overflowing and mutual
yelling . I tried to talk to this mother and son.
“can this debate be stopped first and I'm authorized to
put baby Aiko to rest, and change her clothes.?.
my mistress will leave here and won't see you again or your son
you again but let me finish my duties to babysit aiko
up to 4 days ahead. After that I will go from your life all.”
The old man who started early came only listening now
start to sound
“go do your job and meet us again in the middle of”
I nodded my head and put my feet in front of the old man
arkana's.
After I finished putting my baby Aiko to bed and changing clothes
went down and met them but when I came back there was already one
a very beautiful looking woman and like a very elegant and glamorous career woman.
I sat in front of Mr. Arkana's parents. And they
gave me a brown envelope and when I opened it I was so shocked and
I was shocked to unconsciously shed my tears unconsciously.
DEG…..
POV TWILIGHT
Why did they find my true identity,
have I disturbed their lives too much. I was just a nanny
only, I don't want to pull and enter the gap of their puta hearts, I want
it felt like going and eliminating myself from the face of arkana and baby aiko me
they don't want to be ashamed of it and get reproached for it.
Let me go back to my dark past.
I looked at lord arkana and smiled for the last time
the time I met him and let him do it all for
aiko baby.
I stood up and left the room and turned around
and facing the lord arkana who was behind me I looked at him and
said.
“tuan ….. “
“i lost this time and I succumbed again to fate toying with me,
I told you I lost destiny and I can't fight it
for you and your son. Letting you go is my choice and loving baby Aiko's eyes
for the first time, it was destiny. If one day we are fooled
maybe this is God's delayed destiny for us to better
this is all and it's been here that I lost and blew you and Aiko…. Salam
to aiko that I always bundanya aiko”