My face is not as pretty as my heart
THE EPS 8
I now know more of an arkana from the beginning
cold with all behavior but he is warmer with people who are
make it more comfortable and meaningful. I am so grateful to have arkana inside
this complicated issue.
“I brought baby blue to you, and she's on her way
he was very enthusiastic and always smiled when he was in the car.
And also I want to thank you for opening my blind eyes so I can
receiving the son of an angel who all this time I have been in vain. And give me hope that my son is a good thing and
there are always happy and happy people around him “
ARKANA OFF POV
“tuan Arkana....?”.
“you where... baby blue should eat first, this I uda make mam for iko....”.
though I've called out loud but why didn't he respond. I step
my feet went towards the back garden, and they were already sleeping
cuddle the baby blue position is above the chest of Mr. arkana. I approached them and
take the baby blue, but when I want to take the baby blue, mister arkana and
baby blue opens its eyes and smiles with the same blue eyes.
DEG…. DEG….
Why am I like this my heart why it always beats so much
it was tight when this father and son looked me in the eye. “Is my heart troubled or
abnormality..?”, I murmured in my heart .
“x..... dusk……. “
“haloooo twilight..... you heard me....?”
as her hand continued to hold my hand, and shook it so that I could come to my senses
in daydreaming.
“ehhmm.
“sorry sir arkana, I failed to focus when I saw your blue eyes and your son.”.
“until I feel my heart seems to work faster.”
I said while blushing my cheeks holding in shame because I spontaneously said
that .why can I be that stupid, he just smiled in front of me and stroked
my hair. And she gave baby iko to me, saying …
“I want you to make me always
it is in your view and always the first choice in choosing all your decisions. And
I started to change myself since I knew you I started to improve my behavior
starting from my attitude to iko, my behavior to others, I have also
trying to make peace with my past problems, and most importantly me
correcting my behavior towards God and improving my initial worship
for your sake has now become my desire and trust in God
and request to him”
And he held my hand that was holding baby iko,
he came closer to me and eroded the distance that I currently could not
breathe well, and what started again was my heart that kept beating
very hard and like it's going to fall off.
I held her hand and said “ stop ... don't get too close sir, my heart.
not good and my heart also impressed faster my heart rate!!”
“do you know why your heart beats ..?” while raising
his eyebrows he asked like that.
“why...?” I asked back to him .
“that's because you're already interested in me, and comfortable with
i, it alarms your heart to I mauk in the gap of your heart” while continuing to pull my hand
to be in his heart.
“do you also listen to my heart.?” I also nodded my head
after my hand felt her heartbeat that was almost the same as work
“do you want to be part of my heart, my life, part of baby aiko, where we can share all well it's sad, fun, hard, to always be together. ?” he said as
that while glazed over wishing me
answer all the questions.
I turned my back and cried even shaken shoulders to hold my tears out, I don't know
I have to answer what, because my heart has closed to the one whose name is
relationship about love.
“tuan,…. I was honestly confused as to what to answer, because I
never know with a man's attention, a man's attention
brother, the attention of a friend, the attention of a lover. I didn't
getting it out of a relationship, I've never been in love, sorry if
I can't give you the answer you really want, sir I don't
once given a sense of being dependent on others, my mother was single
parent. Even I started small already disconnected by destiny not to Marasa right
a man's attention and should have received first from my father. But god
give this destiny to me. Then what do I have to answer for the question
you..?”
I said that with tears flowing, maybe I was selfish because
afraid to open my heart because I'm afraid my father's status is less clear and can humiliate him for me
because of my past. I kept looking at him, and he just smiled and
come closer and wipe my tears.
“ I know you will have a hard time answering that, but I
sure your eyes don't lie, like when I knew your eyes from my son,
and I'm sure my son didn't vote wrong and my heart is also convinced that this isn't
wrong and will continue to choose you only you.”
my tears kept flowing and I strengthened my heart and my sanity not to
get in this bucin circle.
“well maybe you are less sure for my heart, and you
also less sure of my son's choice of heart because we're just a man
which makes you less sure, but are you still willing to accept this relationship
with a friendship..?” ……
I hesitantly nodded my head in agreement, I agree,
POV twilight…
God, once I wanted to be selfish and feel a sense of
love the attention of this man. I want him to be the first person when
I choose anything, when I open my eyes and I think he's the first
in my brain, I want him, even though my heart and my feelings will have to be
banging with all things and life he who is seen as like the sky and
earth with him.
Just once god….
for me to try to open my heart even though it's still a thin glass veil
easy to break would be a vibration but I'll try it's god….
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THIS OATH I WRITE THIS IN TEARS BECAUSE IT OPENS MY ACHING HEART BACK….
BUT THIS QUIET IS ALL JUST A STORY OF DISAPPOINTMENT…..
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