My face is not as pretty as my heart
EPS 10'S
POV TWILIGHT
Why did they find my identity
actually, I've been too messing with their lives. Though I only
a nanny only, I don't want to pull and get into the puta's heart gap
they, I want to go and remove myself from the face of arkana
and baby Aiko I don't want them to be ashamed of all that and get
a reproach for all this. Let me go back to my dark past.
I looked at Mr. arkana and smiled for the last time I met him and let him do it all for baby aiko.
I stood up and left the room and turned around and faced Mr. Arkana who was behind me I looked at him
and said.
“tuan ….. “
“i lost this time and I succumbed again to fate toying with me,
I told you I lost destiny and I can't fight it
for you and your son. Taking you off is my choice and loving baby Aiko's eyes
for the first time, it was destiny. If indeed one day we mate maybe this is a delayed destiny from God so that we better fix this all and have come here I lost and let you and Aiko off…. Tusset
greetings to aiko that I always bundanya aiko”
Mr. arkana held my hand tightly and looked at me with reddened eyes that held back his cries. And she shook her head to signal me not to leave her life or
leaving baby aiko.
“I don't care about your past and I will always be with you even though your past is always haunting and scarred
which is deep, then I will scrape it with my heart and my love for
ye. If you don't want me to know then I'll be willing to close
my eyes for that. So please stay with me and baby blue mu”
I just smiled and shook my head
release the grip of his hand to me. “forgive me sir...”.
I left him who was sitting on
behind me who stepped away from him, I was selfish about this I was less sensitive
it will be this but I try to keep all the hearts that will be hurt to
my greatest cause is my disgrace.
I also got a call number from an online taxi
who was waiting for me at the gate of ruan rarkana house , “with mba twilight ...?” While
holding the phone to see the application listed there. I just answered
by nodding my head and I am unable to hold back my tears, I
told the ojol to stop at the public cemetery where my real mother was
imbued. I entered the cemetery and walked to the cemetery
the place where my mother who had long for him lived peacefully and eternally in it. I sat down in front of him and I cried out in front of his vortex, I exposed all my feelings to him, anger, disappointment, selfishness and hatred too deep.
“why do you go with a mystery like this, I want clarity on
my life, about who I am, about who my father is, I want to ask how I am
it can exist in this world. If you don't want me here then don't
born of me in this world I am tired of the gap in slander in the banter not to
there was my father or my face that impressed them disgusted to look at me, I wanted to
angry at you and him, but I can what I can only see this and be quiet
in silence and restraint and do not know whom I should pour.”
“answer me don't just shut up.......!!!!” I cried roaring in front of his vortex. I was confused to say all this
to whom and begging to believe that I still have the same rights
like other women and girls.
“was I wrong to love lord arkana. And hoping that she would accept my flaws from my past, I wanted to be loved sincerely
by a man and I don't want to be grandiose to beg the creator
these. I just want to be like everyone else and have the same rights as everyone else
the other. Am I wrong to ask that ma'am..?”
Author Pov …
Dusk is an orphan whose mother lives
when she was born her mother died more precisely her mother left
at night he could see the world. Twilight was nurtured by her mother's older sister, but that was
not denying that dusk still had a father, his father had once come to him but it was
when she was a red baby. And his father only brought his older brother to separate from him, until that moment twilight could not see his father or his brother.
Dusk babysitting start baby red by mother aci
love him like his own son. Achi mother always treats twilight like her own child, do anything to dusk like other children, even aci mother willing to be the second wife of koko china that can indeed be
helping to support 5 children who at that time aci mother did it alone. Possibly
from the view of others aci mother is not thinking about the Chinese cocoa family but aci mother was forced to do that. Because their children lack to attend school. Naturally mother will do reckless things for her baby.
But it's all a disgrace that haunts their lives so much, even the son of the mother's son to the vilified steal, the woman of the night, and the
most extreme when dusk was 7 years old he was in the banter in front of his house by the mother of the village mother and said that dusk was an illegitimate child and a pesky carrier kareena after she was born her biological mother died and the mother of aci became a mistress. That's until now dusk keep a secret that never will
she opens up in front of her aci mother and the one who loves her.
Father dusk went somewhere, but obviously the father of twilight from a very respected circles in the city of B. he was a man
who has a mixture of Balinese Javanese and latin american chinese. Dusk is more like his mother who is in vain thick with a white Asian color that dominates the brown thick eyes of Latin America.
Maybe if he met or accidentally
meet his father he will instantly recognize his father and without having to do
DNA tests to know it from the eyes only he knows and people will
thought that he was his father's son.
Dusk can't even access everything about his father. Dusk must fend for himself and do his own to heal
his heart will be an insult directed at him and hold it all to itself. When
he could not stand it, so he complained to his creator and begged
to strengthen his heart to face tomorrow.
THE AUTHOR POV OFF
“xn …. Is that you..?”
aci's mother heard a bitter twilight cry in front of her sister's vortex.
Deg……
Dusk turned and widened his eyes when he saw
ma'am aci at the same funeral, and she cried bitterly in front of mom's feet
aci.
“bu…. Dusk is no longer strong if it should be like
this …. “
“xja want to be happy mom, without having to look at the past twilight…. Hix…..
while continuing to hug tightly the legs of the aci bu. And the cry of her against
it was Maslah who hit him.
“forgive mom twilight…. Because your mother must feel this humiliation. Egoist mother twilight
not to defend you when you don't know this is all happening to you. Mother only
can he and can not fight with mother circumstances like this.” Retaliating
a twilight hug and a tearful cry in front of his sister's whirlpool.
“mom dusk tired in banter will father twilight, the
asking for the status of twilight as an illegitimate child or a child discarded by the father
and family. Dusk just wants to know what dusk dad is like. Twilight only
want to know whose dusk father is, and want to know what reason he will give who left all this time
to dusk, dusk tired ma'am…. “
“senja want to know if dusk father does not want to accept twilight then dusk
will be gone from his life and will not be present in front of him forever ma'am. I'm gonna
live with my mother until I die. “
“mom will tell you son.
until you cut the story of mother and you have to know and accept with
your parents' second decision is”
I nodded and started listening to my mother's story
aci.
FLAHS BACK DADDY TWILIGHT….
Pov aci mom…
20 Years ago your mother was a widow with 4 people
son, she is a strong and tenacious woman, in search of life and
living for his son. She is a typical Asian woman with a fair skin color
white is clean and not too high. But that's his attraction to see
by a man, so that he does not look like a widow child 4 .
Once your grandmother did not want to finance the lives of your mother and your brother, so your mother and mother had to take each other to finance
4 Children who need love and live to eat. Because it is on
at that time your grandfather died and your grandmother had to work opening a rice stall
just enough to be eaten by himself and his 2 children.
But you need more money to be able to
school. Finally we decided to work, your mother worked out of town
precisely city B, and the mother works abroad as TKW in country M.
at first it went very quietly and enough until your brother brother
entering high school.
Your mother contacted me that she was going to marry you
a man who has origins in your mother's city works. Yeah, it was a man.
who gave your mother complete love and affection, but it lasted until she gave birth to a son for your father. Your father was a businessman, I don't know what he was. But when you were pregnant your mother came home with a big pregnancy of you and held your older brother. She looks alike
very with the face of your father who is more dominant in Latin America and China.
Your mother came with sweat soaking all over her face and in her arms your brother fell asleep. Mother is still
remember he came after telling mom that he's coming back and he's not coming back to your dad. Your mother got to the front of the house, she immediately sat down to rest in front of the door of our house now. She cried roaring and smacked her chest maybe she endured the heartache she felt back then, mother
he immediately calmed down and hugged his mother tightly and with a cry of grief
your mother told me that her heart was broken for the umpteenth time.
She was exactly the same as you when you cried bitterly like just now. He cried bitterly and said “mba…. I'm not already
hold on to this, I want to stop and I want to rest comfortably
at my own home, I don't want to go back with dian” mas.
The mother who did not know this matter only considered it just an overflow of problems she could no longer bear. But that is
his last two days in this world. Until I felt blood flowing
around her feet, your mother was surprised by your mother's condition at that time. Mother took him into the room and laid him in the room where you are now.
On that day it was Eid day and we were difficult
looking for midwives or shamans to have children because it is a big day and many are closed. Until our neighbor had a guest, she happened to be a midwife and helped your mother do the normal emergency. You were born when the dawn adhan was precisely born after 1 day of eid.
I was so sorry that, I couldn't
help your mother to take him to the hospital. He whined and complained
that he was in pain and was no longer strong.
“ mba I'm not strong…. Take me to the hospital, I'm not strong mba..”.
Mother could only wipe her sweat and answer by crying bitterly in front of her
“ mba not even money for you to treat,
moreover, my mom sold bracelets
giving the father for you to come home here, forgive mba ndu can not bring
you to hospital.”
Mother could only embrace him in death ready to embrace his fragile body. He just smiled and tried to talk
with difficulty he spoke
“mba my daughter is.. to.long, take care of her and keep her out of her father's reach. Take my son as far as possible. And take care of all
my daughter's son with your heart, greet my daughter when she grows up that her mother did not intend to leave her. And tell her that I will always be with her step and I will pray and beg in between my death I do not regret giving birth to her and I do not regret marrying her
his father until he and his brother, I pray that he will always be the twilight that initiates all good for everyone around him. Mba please when she asks her father, answer what is and readiness her heart and mind mba. Tell her I love her so much until my last breath”.
Your mother breathed her last with her calm and peaceful smile.
If you ask me how your father was when your mother was, the answer is in a small letter written by your mother
for you son.
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Note: I write this original from my heart and original from
my current life experience and if it was my recourse to meet my father at
in writing this novel, I am so grateful. Pray for my father
or his family reading this.
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