My face is not as pretty as my heart
EPS 13'S
Pov twilight
I can't continue reading this, I
gotta find out where mom…. ? I don't blame you for everything. If destiny
it is okay to be cruel to me, if I may beg.
begging is not born by you if it will end like this. What ahrus I told my father ma'am
if I met you again, would I hate you, Mom, would I be angry…. Or
I did the same thing as you leaving him…? Give me all
mom's answer…..
Off Pov twilight
Even in the morning greeted with a soft drizzle and
sing quietly and wet the recesses in the heart. Without a smile of the sun,
but today I tried to compromise for my past. I wouldn't
blaming my father or my mother, I'll thank him that I
it is permitted to be born in this world.
I do my runtinitas like the beginning of me
initiating everything. I worked this morning with a heart that was carefree and small
tertreat. When I'm gonna get in the elevator and turn around to
looking at the closed door, I saw a lot of arkana at the door
the elevator will be closed.
Maybe I'm just hallucinating, there's no way arkana exists
there is no way to arkana here. I finally arrived at
the floor I'm on, I'm back in the operating room. Every morning I will
clean all the units inside. When I finish, I usually
make a warm drink that is requested by a doctor who has a schedule
operation.
One of the nurses was talking in the pantry area while
drink warmly and discuss about the new director appointed by the official
largest shares. And will introduce the ranks of shareholders who are indeed home
this pain is standing by one person who is indeed penetrating into a person and
protected by SOEs to become international hospitals.
“later in the afternoon we were told to gather in the hall to
welcome all directors and directors along with largest shareholders.” Bang wok
told his interlocutor, which is bang tok.
“iya, he said his stockman was american.”
“and he said again the director was a doctor from the psychology department” bang tok
the word bang wok. And I smile and listen to that and
give their coffee orders. I chimed in the words of both of them “ right
it's good that Americans can see Caucasians, and most importantly
for dusk it dusk dapet salary
hehehehe”
Bang tok and bang wok only geleng geleng only, we
also agreed to come together consisting of 22 people to the hall, because
indeed, in the full version it is possible because the schedule is not in the afternoon
day.
We also take turns in our respective revisions
both outpatient hospitalization and surgical revision and PO (post operation) revision.
Because I was in the back row next to the group
other cleaning services.
I was called by the surgical team to join me
be with them and introduce yourself to the directors and shareholders.
The gadang gateng not kelulungan. I also lined up next to
kabul, he is a friend of the shift between cleaning service.
When I got to the side of the kabul I raised
my head and I greeted the new director.
DEG….. DEG…..
“arkana....” I spontaneously said that word.
to the new director where I work. I also trembling with shake
her hands, and she just smiled knowing my surprise in my eyes
expressing all of it.
“It's good to work together mba dusk..” while replying to my hand post. I knew
his sly smile and eyes that harbored all the pain he wanted to overflow
now it's. To the point where the shareholder introduces himself on the podium
those.
When the father's name was on my debut
given my father's name in my mother's book, he's MR.MARDIAN SMITH,
I immediately cried and was angry and hated asking why this was all.
To where I was pulled by arkana to enter
the room that people do not realize because they are too focused to see
MR.smith it. I was pulled so hard and threw my body in
mini break room in the room. I felt his anger on me.
“what are you satisfied... see I destroyed twilight…. Answer
i'm twilight..” By shouting in front of me who can no longer hold water
my eye.
“what do you know, I feel crazy without you I'm crazy looking for you after day
that, I don't mind everything, I want us to live in three
with aiko. But what …. You didn't give me a chance to fight with
that's all, I can live without my family's money twilight, I can twilight…. I
angry with you, I hate you, you hurt us both twilight.”
While pointing at me, I knew he was now angry and
he expressed his love and hatred for me. But I don't want to be selfish
separate and make a son disobey his mother.
I sat down in front of him, and began to speak
gently and withstanding the crying.
“forgive me.. I can't go back to sir .. I have that excuse.
thinking of all that, I'm the son that was dumped by my father, I was made fun of
actor, I was bullied for not being canti, which can be very seen from the direction
any and any angle that we don't fit sir is like the sky and
earth, I don't want it to ruin your reputation as a man
look,” I explained with a breath in between my words. She sat
in front of me and shaking my shoulders tight and in front of me, and
said “ to hell with the twilight caste. I don't care what people see about.
we, who know our relationship is you and I, don't have to think of a way
which we can't do. You understand...”
“sorry sir I still can't..” Untie
his hand on my shoulder. And I stood up and wanted to grab the doorknob of the room.
“well... if you can't I have well
fine, then I will do something rude and you will not be able to escape from me.
That impregnates you.” As he continued to walk closer to me.
“ you don't go crazy arkana, we're not mahrom and we're not a halal couple.
So please don't do this”
.
“why can't I do this, if this road can make me
has you”
.
“you fucked arkana”
.
“ya... I am a jerk because you”.
He kept coming closer and directly leaned me in
his shoulders, and throwing me on the bed where he rested, he was like
the loyalty to force his desire to have me I thrashed and pleaded
I'm stained, arkana as if to vaporize everything
this ingenuity is very passionate but gentle, he wants to show everyone that
I am his and I am his life down to sweat and exhaustion
the kebrapa arkana did.
I was just him and felt the pain in my heart, and
lamenting the eternal destiny of playing me. Arkana hugged me
tightly after everything he did, and slept there. Even he woke up
when I move gently though.
“mau where are you hemmm..?” while continuing to hold her embrace.
“I want to go .. I hate you arkana, I hate my breath long
in this world.” Crying all this.
“I don't care, tomorrow we're going to the penghulu and do the wedding and to
civil records to register our marriage, I don't care if you want
hate it or whatever it is. What is clear is that I have all of you is only mine
and no one will ever have you but me. We sleep yank,
and let malem later you come with me to the hospital dinner banquet huh.... ?”
I just kept quiet and felt tired and sick
my sensitivity section. I also fell asleep in his arms. Till afternoon
I stretched out the hand that stroked my pip and whispered in my ear to me
waking up. Arkana was in front of my eyes and kissed my forehead deeply
and old man.
He told me to take a shower and get ready because of him
I have already put my clothes and shoes on. He seems to have changed
with the same dress with me. I also prepared with a batik dress
be in tune with her. I walked over and he grabbed my hand to grab hold of and got out
to get to the standby car in front.
I got in the car and we headed
the venue of the event they welcomed their new director who had just been a few hours
which then turned into a cruel muster towards me. I've rounded up
the will to go from arkana's life, and not to return to him.
Until we were at the venue, he was holding
my hand is to enter the largest ballroom in any of these dcities. I entered
the ballroom door was greeted with a hand slap from Arkana's mother. Me too
hold that and stare intently at arkana's mother.
“do you forget your awareness and shame is not down when heading here ha..?”
all the guests stared at me and someone immediately sneered at me.
“this is a woman who is educated by her mother to be *****nyang thirsty will
the treasure of the man who already has a wife” everyone began to whisper whisper about
the words uttered by arkana's mother. Up in front of the podium there is
a big screen that shows me my true identity and who my real mother is,
what is my background like.
“well, I will make you aware in front of everyone here and
shows how bad you and your mom are.”
The guests just looked at me and
sneering at me by saying harsh words to me. I looked at arkana
who was beaten by his father's men.
“bu laksmi enough…. Stop that…. Stop don't hit
your own son like that, I will give up and leave his life
and all the people who are here. But before that I'll clean up
about your allegations about my mother, and I beg you and laksmi's father and mother
let me talk and not be cut off even refuted. It's a request
I was the last. My mother is indeed a person who is not economically high, some high,
and just an elementary school graduate, but he educated me with order
religion and education to the upper.
He's trying to make me the same as everyone else,
I I can be worth it with the others, he'll do all the things he does
we can eat and go to school. My mom's a sigle mom, what
wrong he hopes his son can eat and be educated…? My mother did
a marriage with a Chinese cocoa who was able to finance us all, even though
he must accept the insults that even small stalls do not want to accept money
we, who think our money is illegal from the sale of ourselves.
But what you see doesn't match reality, my mother got married
in words whisper and pledge in front of God without adultery
encircle them. Ask me where my dad is ,…? I'm a bastard like
the accusations are on that screen. No. I'm not an illegitimate child, I'm just a princess
from a woman named Arummi, she left about 20 years ago from home
her husband and return to my mother whom you despised here. Which should
you blame is your destiny and your god.
Why are we the ones you judge and you despise, while
we must forge our hearts so as not to crack with your word and
your insults. If I may choose I don't want to be born with things
like these. I want to choose to be born the same as you. Me too
humans, who can be sick and fragile.
Even my friends who work here never
regarding this status, I thank all of you friends
my friend, for everything you never know never count
when I need your help. Thank you friend.
And for mother laksmi, remember my word you too
born from a woman's womb, even your son was born from you
itself is a woman. If you insult the creation of a god
woman also means you identify yourself as the woman you mentioned
earlier.
I'll go from your son and taka will
come back again until death finds me then I choose death for it
all.”
I put my feet in front of a mother
waiting until such a bitter cry. I hugged him tightly and
vanish all the cries I have endured since. “ come on ma'am.
away from this place bring dusk go bu..” the old woman just embraces.
my shoulders tightly and nods his head a sign he's silk to
my request.
After we walked in front of everyone's mother aci
he turned around and walked towards Bu laksmi and slapped her hard.
PLAQUE…..
“what's your an ...?”
“laksmi you may have forgotten who I am standing here. I am ATIACI
SUKMA SUBEKTI sister of ARUMMI SUKMA SUSEKTI where the male whose wealth
you're proud of that, the man you took from my brother, you don't forget teak
the real you who shamelessly snatched away my sister's fiancee. Remember you
here thanks to my sister who relented to release the king to marry you who
pregnant with rajasa's child. Remember that back laksmi”
Achi's mother went away and stepped her feet
the hall door. Until a voice stopped his footsteps
“DIAMANA ARUMMI NOW ACI...?”
DEG…….
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