My husband is mentally ill
*Episode 41

Jesi also wiped the tears that spilled. Jona's call, which she is holding, keeps Jona busy calling her name from across the street.

"Jes!"

"Je you're not papa, are you? Can you hear me again?"

"Iron."

"Je, hello .... "

Jona also disconnected the call. Then, he called back Jesi's number via vidio. He was very anxious, and wanted to see how his woman was doing now.

The call is connected, but Jesi rejects it immediately. Of course because Jesi did not want to show her face that had just cried to Jona.

Because of the call that Jesi refused. This made Jona's heart feel anxious. He asked the driver to turn around immediately.

Meanwhile, Jesi who was now beside the bed was calming down.

Suddenly reminded of the recklessness of Jona who might be too late if you feel anxious, Jesi immediately took the phone to contact Jona immediately.

It's true what Jesi thinks. When she was contacted, Jona answered quickly. His voice sounded so anxious that it could not make Jesi explain.

"Joe. Jo I'm fine now. I don't know what," said Jesi with great difficulty convincing Jona.

Of course Jona doesn't believe that easily.

"I'm at a crossroads. I'll believe what you said when I see, Je. So .... "

"Jo, don't you trust me? You don't believe what I'm saying? How can you be like this to me, Jonathan? If you don't believe what I'm saying, how can I stay around you" Jesi said in a sad tone.

Instantly, it made Jona unable to speak anymore. His chest felt tight, because suddenly, fear came to mind and immediately controlled the heart.

"Joe .... "

"Don't say it again. I don't want to lose you, Jesika. Don't ever leave me. Not even!" Jona spoke quickly in a frightened tone.

'Oh my God .. What if Jona gets sick again after my departure? I don't want this to happen to her. Help me, Lord.' Jesi said in her heart while holding her chest that felt quite sore.

In the hearts of both are planted the tree of love that has now even grown lushly. How could they want to be far apart. Especially painful for each other. More is not possible anymore.

'Help me, Lord. Help me to get away with the deal that me and Mama Jona made. I don't want anyone to get sick between us all.' Again, Jesi said in her heart while biting her lips so that tears would not spill.

Meanwhile, Jesi's silence increasingly makes Jona feel scared. Jona spoke up straight back.

"Don't tell me that you intend to leave me, Jesi. If that's what you're doing, then I won't be able to live on top of this world anymore."

"One time I'm abandoned, I'm just gonna lose my sanity. But if for the second time I was abandoned love, then I can make sure. My life will be lost."

"Gona!" Reflek, Jesi immediately shouted loudly at the words that Jona said just now. Really, he was shocked not to get bummed by what his ears just heard.

Things made him even more afraid to leave Jona even though the agreement he had agreed.

"Never say those words again, Jonathan Wijaya. You can't do that just out of love." Jesi spoke again with a firm tone. After successfully mastering himself, he also tried to make Jona understand what he felt.

"I don't want to do it. But I really won't be able to stay alive in misery, Jesika. I hope you understand what I mean. Because everyone is different, right?"

"If leaving is the best thing to let go of misery. Why don't I do it?" jonathan said calmly as without burden.

"Don't be crazy, Jona!"

"I've been crazy, Jesika. The mental pain I'm experiencing is you're the cure. So, if I lose the cure, then ... how am I supposed to survive?"

When he heard that, Jesika immediately lost control. His tears poured down swiftly across the cheeks. The sobs of his crying were released by itself even though he had tried hard to hold back.

"Jesi don't cry." Jona spoke in a panicked tone.

But, of course Jesika was unable to stop her crying. He felt so fragile at this moment. To the extent that, there is no other way but to cry to build his heart that is now fragile.