My Little Gwen's
Missed Gwen

The night continues to rise. Almost early in the morning. Zafier was still in the bar room in his father's mansion. Although he drank as much as Arsen drank, there was no sign that Zafier had lost consciousness. He looked concerned at Arsen's body that had been buried on the bar's marble table.

He then grabbed his phone to contact someone. A few moments later the door of the room opened. Carlos and another bodyguard were seen rushing to get close to Zafier and Arsen. Zafier then nodded his head. Upon receiving the command code from Zafier, Carlos and the bodyguard carry Arsen's body. They walked out of the room, carrying Arsen's body towards the guest room.

Zafier himself then walked gontai to his own room. Slowly Zafier opened the door to his room. Once inside the room, he continued walking towards the balcony of his room. He sat there enjoying the night breeze. Suddenly the door to Zafier's room was knocked on by someone. The door opened, followed by Adolf who entered with a tray in his hand.

"Young master sorry to interrupt, I brought soup, juice, ginger tea and some snacks for you, to relieve the effects of alcohol you drink" Adolf politely said.

Zafier turned his eyes to Adolf.

"Thank you uncle, just put it on that table" said Zafier, looking indifferent.

Adolf put all the dishes on the table. Then he stood beside the table as if waiting for something.

Slowly Zafier got up from the balcony chair. He walked into his room. He stared at all the food and drink Adolf had brought.

"Please young master. Is there still anything that young master needs?", asked Adolf politely. Zafier looked at the fifties-year-old man, who was still faithfully working at his father's mansion. Zafier knew that Adolf just wanted to make sure that he drank or ate the dish.

"No uncle, please uncle rest" replied Zafier. Adolf resigned, before bowing to Zafier.

Zafier did not like other servants entering his room. Even from her childhood only Adolf or the mommy is allowed to enter her room. None of the other servants could enter his room freely.

Zafier does not like to interact and get close to others freely, only certain people who can be close to Zafier.

Zafier looked back at the dish in front of him. He smiled, all these scenes reminded him of his mother. She remembered that her mother would not leave the room before she confirmed that Zafier had finished all the dishes he had brought. Zafier took the juice. He sat down on the couch and started drinking. His mind began to glare.

Arsen's problem took up a little of his mind. Somehow he felt jealous of Arsen's feelings for Sheza. Though he realized Sheza himself was also something that was very difficult to achieve. If the competition happens with others then certainly Zafier will never back down even one inch. But currently the rival is his own father, especially his current condition is also not certain to be stable. That was why he was so afraid to build that feeling even deeper towards Sheza. He is trying to shake.

Zafier is still beset by doubts. Whether the feeling or heartbeat he felt when adjacent to Sheza. Whether it was purely her feelings for Sheza or just a shadow of Sheza's netra hazel that reminded her of Gwen's netra hazel.

Looking at netra hazel Sheza seems to make him confined to a feeling and longing that has been for years. Zafier could not describe what that feeling was like, but it was a feeling that made him feel comfortable as if he was able to treat his longing all along. And certainly when he was near Sheza, he did not feel disgust at all, as did a sufferer of OCPD (see chapter 25 for an explanation).

Zafier does have a hard time being able to feel comfortable when it comes to being close to a woman. That was why he was so cold when dealing with a woman. But strangely it did not feel against Sheza. He felt very comfortable when he was close to Sheza. There was no rejection in him at all. There was no disgust when she got close to Sheza. Because on several occasions, Zafier had collided with Sheza, even in direct contact with Sheza, and his body did not give a rejection reaction to that closeness.

Zafier once thought that whoever was the woman who could make him comfortable, close to him, he would marry her. But his condition is currently very difficult. Sheza is his father's future wife. Zafier massaged his head, he felt dizzy with the condition he was facing at the moment. Moreover, he realized that his age was soon past the head of three.

"Oh my God, am I not meant to be a couple" Zafier grimaced.

Actually Zafier also did not want to be in this condition. He himself has tried to make a close relationship with some women. In fact, he once told Gavin, his assistant and best friend in the Netherlands to look for a truly pure woman to do a trial, whether he could be in close contact with them but again was unsuccessful even before they attempted to tease Zafier. Just as they were about to approach Zafier, a feeling of disgust made him expel the women from before him. His little sister really did not react at all.

Zafier was frustrated. He has also consulted with several specialists in the Netherlands, but there are no problems with his reproductive organs.

He tried to forget all these things by working. He really devoted all his mind and physical attention to work and develop his business to the extent it is today.

The situation is much busier now than it is in the Netherlands. The daddy's business work that is very much and penetrates various aspects makes Zafier's mind more focused there, not to mention the condition of the father who has not been stable, but the condition of the father, as well as his plan to destroy the person who had made the daddy become what he is now completely seized his entire attention.

Zafier walked to the small table beside his bed and took a picture of him there. He looked at the little girl in the photo.

"I miss you" she whispered. It gently stroked the face of the beautiful little girl with a loving setting.

He put the picture frame back in its original place, then lay down on the bed. He closed his eyes to go to his dreamland and hoped to meet his little girl and also his first love in the dreamland.