My Love From The Sea
Suicide

"We apologize. We've done everything possible. But..."

" but..." Belva is impatient. The woman's back was rubbed by Maya.

" but... God wants something else. We apologize" the doctor continued. His face looked so sorry.

" Dok... What does that mean?" Belva shook the body of the bespectacled man, demanding clarity as clearly as possible, even though he already knew the meaning. But no answer came out of there. Until he saw the bangkar pushed out by several people, where on the bangkar there was something covered with white cloth. Belva's view immediately followed where it was being carried. Tight chest. His whole body is shivering. Especially when those people turn towards that morgue. The place that Belva had lyrics when walking to get here.

Belva's body is slumping. Sitting on the floor with Maya still holding her. While his two older brothers sat in the waiting chair while shaking in disbelief. They were all overwhelmed with sadness in their own way.

" Dok.. Please Papa me, Doc!" Belva still doesn't take it. He hugged the doctor's leg while crying loudly. I hope the doctor can do something that changes everything. Caring for her Papa and giving her any medicines to bring her Papa back to life.

Belva really has no self-esteem anymore. He was born into a wealthy family who never knelt down on anyone. But this time, Belva did. He even prostrated himself so that the Doctor could do something that could help his Papa.

Belva hysterical.

Belva doesn't want to lose anymore. I lost my mother when I was fifteen. And now, he doesn't want to lose Papa. He did not want to lose the remaining parents. If it's exchangeable, Belva will risk himself. He was willing to replace his father.

" Sir..." The doctor crouched down. Trying to take off Belva's hand that was coiled on her leg.

" Dok. please... Papa..." muttered Belva intermittently. His voice was vague and vibrating violently. Saka like his body that also followed vibrated.

The doctor grabbed Belva's back hesitating. He rubbed his back gently, "Mom, I'm just a doctor. I can't change the destiny of man."

Hearing that, Belva seemed to be conscious. That's right the doctor said. Although it can heal the sick, the Doctor is only the mediator of God. He was still a man who could not bring the dead back to life.

Belva's cries slowly subsided. I agree with what the doctor said. But still, Belva did not accept the death of his father. The woman lifted her head and let her teary eyes collide with the doctor's dark blue bead.

" You stand up, yes" the doctor said softly as he held Belva's arm to help the woman stand up.

Belva according. He stood up, then walked limply to the waiting chair. The woman sat with an empty look. Leaning your back on a hard chair back for long enough. Belva ignores her brother's invitation to go home.

Belva is tired. I don't know how many tears have come out all day. He also could not measure how much his heart ache experienced this most unwanted thing. Really, Belva can't think straight. He just felt he could not live any longer.

Belva is desperate. Even his brain can't think as normal as humans. Belva was just thinking about ending her life.

Belva screamed while hitting the steering wheel. There was nothing he could think of but suicide. What he experienced all day really made his psychic fall into the deepest abyss. Belva wants to give up. Life is meaningless without parents. Without Arman.

Belva drove his car across the dark streets of Jakarta. He entered the most famous tourist beach area in Jakarta. A place she and her father visited as a child. Paying for the entrance ticket, Belva immediately looked for a parking space.

The woman glanced at her phone before actually getting out of the car. There's a call from Arman the jerk. The phone is on top of the dashboard and receives a call from Arman.

" Arman, we're breaking up!" belva said, then immediately turned off the call unilaterally even before Arman replied to him.

Belva gets out of the car. The breeze of the night penetrates the pores of his skin that is sapodilla mature. Her hair is flying. Likewise with the knee-length A line model skirt that she wears.

The night atmosphere on the beach is not too crowded. The waves were calm even though the wind was blowing so hard. Belva stands in front of an adult chest-high barrier made of wood, facing the sea. He closed his eyes. Letting those intangible gusts pierce his red face from crying. Before long, he opened his eyes and his feet climbed onto the wooden barrier in front of him. He smiled and thoughtlessly jumped up too long.

Belva closed her eyes again. Feeling the gravity pull his body down, feeling a chill run down his skin. Belva imagined everything he was going through today. Starting from the news of his Papa's accident, Arman and Febi's affair to the death of his Papa. For Belva, it's better if he dies. Isn't it better?

" Bell, you want to marry me?" The question is like echoing down here. Arman was in front of her, carrying a bouquet of flowers and kneeling down. Just like he did when he was going to propose to Belva six months ago.

" Bell, congratulations! Finally, Arman pleaded with you too. As my closest friend, I'm happy!" Febi hugged him so tightly. At that time, Belva was very happy because of the endless luck approaching him. Forgetting that everything created is in pairs. Misadventures are a pair of luck. Belva should have known from the beginning that he wouldn't be lucky forever. The proof, Today. The endless misadventures snatched everything from Belva. In less than twelve hours.

The gravity pulls the Belva deeper and deeper until the woman is unable to breathe properly. It gasps. Eyes open. I wanted to ask for help, but no. Belva wants to die.

Now, water has entered his nose and throat, filling his lungs and it is time. Belva felt nothing. However, he felt something alive pull his hand. A split second before his consciousness was completely depleted, Belva thought it was a shark. Surely the shark had eaten his hand and Belva had completely lost consciousness.

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