My True Derit
Episode 23 # Upset
" so now you want me how?
" you are like telling me to step back slowly sha!
" you are selfish!! Try to think, now we are back!! If your position was on me, what would you do??
" remember sha, I'll never divorce you unless you sue me.
" i'm also confused by myself a!
" i also don't know what if I live without aa!
" i also do not want to burden mama, if I part with aa!
" now the decision is on you sha, remember ya
" i'll never, ever, end what I started
" unless you end it. Understand up here, right?
" i'm waiting for your answer tomorrow
I also got out of bed half-naked, then rushed to bathe, worship and perform my obligatory prayers.
My stomach feels hungry, want to eat at home hot conditions rich gini will not be good! Then I decided to eat rice outside.
I walked through the shops that night, occasionally kicking things in front of me. At the rice padang restaurant, I ordered kikil with an additional one of rice. My emotions were drained from Tresha's behavior, so I vented my anger eating rice padang.
After eating rice padang, I want to cool my head and feelings, I decided to go to the Great Mosque which is not far from the rice house padang.
Upon arrival at the grand mosque, I worship and perform Isha prayers. Then I went on to recite, I recited with the apostolate of the prophet Jonah " laa illaaha illa anta subhanaka inni kuntu minadzolimin "I chant this dhikr, this, because I believe that the problems that have happened to me are the result of my mistakes and sins.
Laa illaaha illa anta subhanaka inni kuntu minadzolimin, I read it over and over again as I fulfilled the meaning and meaning of this dhikr, did not feel my tears fall soaking the earth, felt my body tremble, felt my body tremble, my blood flow was hot, but my heart and mind were calm and peaceful. I don't know what all this means. Rabb I leave everything to you.
When Tresha called me, she asked me where I was. She was worried about me, and she asked me to come home. But I refused, I would rather go home to my mother.
When I arrived at my mother's house, I complained to her.
" so what do you want now??
" sick mom heard a
" what makes aa keep it all?? Everything is clear, he did not love aa from the beginning, until now he still does not love aa"
" a conscious a, aa must be aware!
" a don't self-destruct, aa,
" as the saying goes, aa who drinks poison, but wishes Tresha dead.. It all won't happen a
Hearing mom talk like that, doesn't make me less love and love for Tresha. Yes Allaah must be in some way, so that I can be aware of all these nightmares. It's obvious all this pain, but what my day is, Allaah, what I really expect from Tresha.
" now I want to ask you again!!
" what do you want now??
" mom, I know you're upset, you're sick, you're disappointed, you feel the same way"
" a told Tresha she was going to sue him in court
" what's the difference a, a mentalak and aa are sued, anyway in the future is the same.
" maybe for some people, including my mother
" but not without reason
" The thing Allaah hated the most was divorce
" If aa is mentalak, aa does not want to look wrong in people's perceptions
" the point is this, ma'am! Aa is willing to separate, if tresha who sues, aa have said, aa will not end what aa began, like gini , aa will not come home from the meeting, aa will not come home from the meeting, before the house person tells or drives away aa to leave.
Hearing me say something like that, my mother called me. Want to scream as loud as possible, let all the burden in the heart and mind is plong.
" it shouldn't be like this, all this happened because I didn't agree with my mother's wishes
" i am reminded of the hadith of Rosul, your mother, your mother
" i'm sorry mom, but I don't regret it
" everything that happens is God's will, and this must all be good for aa.
" yaudah tomorrow I'll meet your in-laws to talk about this.
" mom hope your in-laws understand, so does your wife!
" you rest first. Gihh, don't forget to eat.
Then I went to my room. I lay staring at the sky of my room, occasionally I laughed and smiled like a madman. I did not expect MY SINCERE reply to be MY SUFFERING.
I took the guitar, I sat down and I sang a song from Naff that was titled "when everything has to end", I sang with a heartfelt animator, I sang like auditioning for X-Factor Indonesia, I don't feel my tears dripping
" cie cie there is another upset
" oah, my brother
" sing time while Mewek
" silence you STEALTH CLOSE THERMOS
" there arrived nongol ngagetin, I throw it into food frog loe.
" If I'm a stealth lid flask, it means that aa is also the same dong stealth lid flask, we are sister brother
Hearing my youngest brother like that, I was also quite amused. Then I kept my old guitar, covered my whole body and I was getting ready for bed, I had to be really fit tomorrow, because I was going to travel quite a long way on my first day working as a service bureau courier.
The sound of the dawn adhan rumbles, I get up and go to the bathroom, wudhu and hasten the congregational prayer at the mosque near the mother's house, I walked in the darkness of dawn with an erratic feeling like a nano candy. Seen on the day of ablution in the pond of the mosque, I walked up to him.
" tumben loe pray in mesjdi ri!! Usually at home too
" heheheh... It's sand, just got guided
" wissss talk loe salahh tuh, not only can you please ri!! Hide it at the pick up, please,. Just like we work.
" he was it... Sorry I don't know, sir. Ngustad ahahaba
" let's get in the sand, it's starting
We both immediately entered the mosque and prayed together. I looked at all the mummies of most people who were old, there was only one child the age of Ghiffar anaku, his teenage son somewhere. Unlike my time, every day the mosque was a five-time rame tial.
After returning from the mosque, I rushed to take a shower and was ready to go to work on my first day as a courier for the Bureau of New Vehicle Services.
" mom I'm leaving first yaaa!
" ooh he I nitip money for Ghiffar ya ma'am
" i don't have any balance at the ATM,
" it's a, I'll love you all to go to the market
" brentar.. Is your wife not going to open a stall??
" don't know mom.
" try mom chat her
" i'm leaving first ya buuu
" Asalamualaikum's...
" salam waalaikum.. Heart of a
I kissed my mother's hand, and I set off on my matic bike...