OHH, No!!!
21. Inner child
Day after day passed, the closeness of the relationship between the two people Kara and Kari became more intense even more they did not hire a permanent maid in this house, they only accept a cleaner every morning and then leave in the afternoon.
A bright morning with rays of sunshine burst in through the glass window. This morning Kana was grappling with a spatula in both hands, cooking soy sauce chicken as a simple menu.
"The smell makes you hungry" said a man with one hand who suddenly grabbed Kana's body from the side. "Mother tired huh?"
Kana didn't answer just a nod to Kari's question as an answer. Because Kana felt if her body temperature felt a little warm with one blocked nostril.
Kana poured the chicken into the dish after she felt all the spices used had been seeped, then the suit Kana brought the chicken to the dining table with followed by Kari who brought a glass of pregnant milk.
"In the company a lot of his duties, until his body's gini fever?"
"Yes, there are a lot of meetings at the hotel. Marriage season again." Kana replied with a joke and a little laugh.
"At RS too, again the pregnant season. My patient's responsibilities have increased there and it's likely to be a little later that night than before. Mommy want to go to work?"
"Well, if we don't work, what do we eat?"
"I have one gift from my father that I never used in college, we ate from that money for a while." Kari answered with a clear facial expression like an unemployed without effort.
"I also have two atms from different dibank fathers. It was only dad made one atm, but because I rarely use the money so up to 2m more in the card so that the excess money I moved to another bank, to be safe if something bad happens that is not desirable. Because the deposit guarantor institution is guaranteed only 2m so it can not be more if later the money is lost or the bank has a problem failure then my money will only be replaced 2m if there is more it will not be replaced."
"So, you don't have to work. Rest at home." Kari orders by hand to point the glass containing the bumil milk at Cana's mouth.
"I've even forgotten when the last time I enjoyed the money you gave me, it felt so empty and sad. Always given money but never walk together to buy things I like."
"Mother wants something?"
"No! I don't want anything." Strictly Kana replied however, accompanied by the roar of tears flowing down her cheeks.
Kari who was aware of the mood in Kana immediately pulled Kana in the chest deck of her field, followed by a stretched hand reaching over Kana's body to give a hug of warmth and a gentle swipe at Cana's back.
"I've been devastated since I was a child,"
"Mufi told me. I'll search and I'll put together the debris of your self-destruction until you're whole again, Kana."
"It has been my job to clean up that mess until it is neatly arranged back, Kana. Chaos of your mind will be resolved."
"I'm crazy,"
"You're not crazy, but it's your mind that drives you crazy. So, I will make your mind become calm to produce beautiful memories so that the negative thoughts in you are buried deep and you will no longer be able to remember them, because of the memory of happiness you will get."
"I'm bad,"
"It is my responsibility to beautify yourself Kana. If marriage makes you depressed, then I fail to make you happy. If getting married makes your life much worse than what you were living alone, then I failed to live you Cana. If by getting married I make you mentally depressed, then I do not deserve to be called a husband. Because my job is to replace your parents in maintaining and protecting you physically and mentally from the dangers that threaten and make you depressed."
"Dad... " Kari felt the headband of Kana who was in the chest deck of his field, his field,
"What mother?" Answer Kari by hand stroking the top of Kana's head. "Please talk your happiness to me. I promise I won't hurt, please don't keep your own wounds there I am Kana. I am your home forever until we reach the age limit, please take advantage of me because when you save, do, and overcome everything alone I feel like a useless husband. I failed," Kari continued.
Kana shook her head in response to Kari's disobedience, "I didn't mean it that way, it's just that I'm used to standing up. I feel sorry to ask for help if I can still do it alone,"
"So resolute is the way your father educated this little princess, until now the figure of an adult daughter who binds the soul of the little boy who is still lodged in you. I exist to give color in your life, it never hurts if you ask me for help for the slightest thing that I am ready to help."
"When I was a child, I was required to be able to do everything independently and was not allowed to call or ask for help from others even with a maid. I cannot cry, nor can I complain, nor can I show a feeble face full of sorrow. I am always required to be perfect by using a mask every day. I am broken but cannot show the fragment of my destruction. I must not complain because when I complain I will be scolded all the way to a punishment and after that I will be judged because they are all much more tired, tired and tired than me."
"Your inner child is wounded by Kana," Kari hugged Kana's body more tightly, only this time Kana showed the other side of her on Kari, the weak and scarred side of Kana's body in the soul.
"Inner's child?"
"Yes, we heal slowly." Warmly and tenderly Kari briefly dyed Kana's forehead followed by a hand that stroked and patted Kana's shoulder. "Thank you for holding out so far this strong woman. I know a little about you, about you who are always forced to be cheerful but keep a lot of wounds. About you who always carry wounds in the dark so as not to be seen by the surrounding and cry in silence. Now there I am you are free to express sadness, destruction, and self-restlessness to me. I'll be there for you until the end,"
"Dad please do not make our future generations feel the pain I feel and the sadness that father experienced. He should be full of happiness and support,"
"Mother, therefore I invite mothers to learn parenting together for the happiness of our children later." Kana held onto Kana's hard belly which protruded slightly. "Our child will get happiness without internal and external pressure. Beby will grow up with his own soul, mother and father will not demand later. Every night before going to bed we learn parenting ya mother."
Kana pulled the corner of her lips, when she saw Kari's interaction with the baby boy-to-be in her stomach, "Yes father."