Psychopath 2's
Chapter 43 I want to be happy
"When Dad can come in "
I who was staring out the window saw my father who had his head bent at the door I just nodded my head he was carrying his briefcase.
"How are you doing "
"I'm good Dad "
"Dad has prepared a house for you. Are you sure you live alone in that house. Do I need to find someone to accompany you there"
"Don't thank me, because you've accepted my decision and thank you for giving me a place to live"
"Actually I don't want you out of the house, but since you don't seem to want to stay with your family anymore, it's okay. Dad has prepared all this. Inside this bag is something you should keep and no one will ever know. Even Dad came here too without the knowledge of your mother, brother and sister you should keep this well and not give it to anyone including Lucas "
Ayu frowned and received the bag that Dad gave me so heavy. "What is this Dad "
"This is your treasure, you must keep it well. I'm sorry that I was wrong to make you stay with Lisa, I should have separated you two I know what Lisa did to Dimas and Chelsea. I know everything about Lisa that always hurt you. I'm just quiet and I'm not helping you"
I don't feel my tears flowing. I guess my dad didn't know about me being hurt by my mom all the time, but he did, but he kept quiet.
If this is the end why not from the beginning I talk to Dad anyway free anyway if talking will never be defended and will never be given justice also all free.
"Don't cry Daddy's sorry, I think Lisa's gonna be nice later, but in fact she keeps me from being nice to you Daddy's sorry"
I wiped my tears, trying to be okay in front of Dad.
"So it turns out Dad already knows, but yes it's just the past and don't need to be taken into consideration again. All that has happened and time cannot be played maybe it was my decision to just shut up and not help me. I knew I wasn't the child Dad wanted, I knew from the beginning Dad had chosen Lisa's mother and left me with mom I understood Dad's decision "
"It's not like that "
"It's my father who's grown up and I understand in this situation. I'm not a kid anymore I understand everything. Lisa's mom everything for Dad I understand Daddy loves Lisa's mom a lot, so I don't want to mess this up either "
"Dad is really sorry Kat, I'm so sorry "
My dad was quiet he didn't talk he sat next to me and rubbed my head, but this made me even more sick. When I'm in this condition, my dad is there.
Why when I used to be tortured, reviled, yelled at Daddy nothing, why I was never defended by him. I actually have a lot to say to her, but I don't want to go back to opening old wounds again.
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1 Week later I was at the house that Dad gave me, the house was minimalist but I really liked it to fit me to live alone.
I went around this house, after being satisfied to go back into the house. Take out all my things that were brought from my father's house and Lisa's mother's. The first thing I took out was a picture of my mother. I put a picture of my mother in the living room, then I arrange other photos when I used to be with my mother, grandfather, grandmother and the people closest to me.
I hugged a picture of my mother who was still left that I had not displayed, it felt like I was so eager to meet with my mother. All this time I missed my mom, but I couldn't do anything. I can only pray for him I pray to God that to meet mama in a dream is okay but all that does not happen there is no mama in my dream.
The loss of a mother is something that was very painful, when I was a child and needed Mama very much I was abandoned by her. I have to lose the person who loves me the most and the person I love the most. I never thought I could lose my mother that fast.
I was with him only two, my grandfather and grandmother also lived in their own house. We live together happily but God wills another. God loved my mother more and took her, but I feel lonely here and feel that the world is not fair.
Why should I lose the figure of Mama, why should I why not someone else. After living with Dad I thought he would give me love like my mom gave it to me, but it was just a dream.
I came to Dad's house. Lisa's mother was very kind to me at first, but after Dad left she started torturing me, punishing me for anything. No matter how small the problem is, but I always raise the problem. Especially with Dimas and also Brother Chelsea who used to be like that to me.
I only have a place to lean on my aunt, I have no one I lost my way to when Mama left me. It was as if I had no purpose in life.
I cannot live in this world but life cannot stop and cannot follow the path I want. Will I get happiness. Will I be as happy as when I live with my mom ?
Will I ever have a husband who loves me, loves me like a mother. I didn't know I was afraid that my husband would do what my father did to me like my mother.
Maybe all this time Mama never talked about her heartache, but every time I asked her where Dad, where she always cried. At that time I understood that maybe my mother was hurt by my father but my mother never spoke that she was hurt by my father, she tried to stand up in front of me.
Mom is the one who can make me strong. Why did God take my loved ones, why was my grandmother, Mom, grandfather all taken away. Sometimes I like to ask what the reason is, until God takes all my family quickly and simultaneously. I have to live without them and be treated like this.