Quarter Century Duda
February Grey

Which husband does not feel panic and worry at the same time when he finds out his wife is now in a critical condition. Clasping Desy's hand there, as well as continuing to whisper encouraging words, Tendean really hoped that his wife could get through this critical period.

"Please do your best for my wife" Tendean asked.

Even Tendean who incidentally is a Doctor now speaks in a tone that seems to be compassionate. Ask his fellow doctors who are now dealing with Desy to be able to save his unconscious wife on the bed in pain. Tears continued to drip by themselves from both Tendean eyes.

"Patients have high blood pressure, Doctor Tendean," said the doctor there.

It's not that Tendean doesn't know, but he knows very well about the risks of giving birth with high blood pressure. In addition, blood pressure can also surge so violently before labor. Not infrequently, mothers have to die when giving birth to their babies.

Can Tendean see the medical gloves that were originally worn by the doctor who was originally white, now red there. In addition, the direction of view of Tendean also observes the vital signs monitor. Yes, from this tool at least Tendean can monitor the physiological condition of his wife regularly and ensure its stability. This monitor contains information on the patient's vital signs that can change in seconds.

"The patient's heart rate is decreasing" said a doctor there.

Yes, visible in the heart rate displayed at the top of this monitor feels down. Adults have a heart rate between 60-100 beats per minute (bpm). However, Desy's heart rate is only about 50 bpm.

"The patient's oxygen saturation is also weakened" another doctor replied.

The oxygen saturation parameters listed with the SpO2 sign there also appear to be weakening. So that began to be given respiratory aids to patients. The situation inside the room felt so precarious. Not only did Desy's oxygen saturation weaken, but Tendean felt his chest tightening.

Desy's condition is increasingly unstable, and also the Heart Rate which now only indicates a straight line.

Tiiittt ....

The sound of the monitor in the ICU room. As a sign that the heart rate has stopped, and oxygen saturation is weakened. The three doctors who were there lowered their faces. Followed by a faint head bobble.

"Pardon us, Doctor Tendean."

Just an apology said. There were no more words that the Doctor could speak there. While the Tendean world in a second as if stopped spinning. His heart feels pain. He could even feel that there was no pulse on his wife's hand.

The tears just ran by themselves. On the day that his daughter was born, Desy had to face the Creator. The bitter day of Tendean life. The month of his wife's birth became the month in which she returned to her birthday. Leaving Tendean alone with her baby who can't even see the world yet.

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The next day ....

Tendean with his extended family finally buried Desy's body in one of Memorial Park on the outskirts of Jakarta. Although not willing, but Tendean is now in a position to be willing, to be sincere.

"The strong and patient, Dean," said his father, Ali Soedono.

The young man could only nod his head faintly. "Weight, sir," Tendean replied.

Until finally, Tendean also to go down to the burrow and lay his beloved wife in his last bed. Not only that, Tendean also echoed the adhan in the ear of a wife who had been stiffened. In his heart, the man muttered slowly. "Rest in peace, Desy, my wife .. I will look after and care for our baby, Anaya. My love for you forever."

Until finally Tendean came out of the burrow and began to put the soil into the burrow, and also buried Desy's body there. Those from the ground will return to the ground. Creation will return to its creator.

Now, Tendean prostrated in front of the tomb with a headstone printed the name Desy Febyanti there. Her tears were dry and she could not stand. However, can Tendean feel his chest that feels tight. The world he saw was no longer in color.

The earth stopped rotating, there was no more daylight. All that remains is night. It is thick and dark too.

"We both promised to love each other. Raising our hearts. But you went ahead of me, Desy. February has always been grey in my life. With the sun sinking in my heart."

Under the headstone, her lover's soul is in bed for eternity. While in front of the navel, Tendean closed his eyes. It feels so bad in the chest.

But this is the reality that he has to accept. He was a young man when the baby was young, and he was so young. Start the day with the status of a widower.