Quarter Century Duda
Turbidity

Returning home, with no wife on the side becomes his own pressure for Tendean. The house he bought with his earnings as a Doctor, now looked different and felt lonely. In every corner of the house, he remembered the shadow of his beloved wife.

Usually in the living room, they always sit together to watch Chinese television broadcasts or dramas that tell of an ape searching for Scripture traveling to the West. There are times when they see Cheque and Ricek in the afternoon. Now, the big tube television went out, not on.

Usually in the kitchen there is Desy who likes to cook. Tendean remembered his late wife who always liked to cook his favorite vegetable, Spinach with Gambas made by Bening Vegetables, do not forget Fried Chicken and Sambal. Beautiful scenery when you can see the wife who is fighting in the kitchen. But now there is no more.

Or even with all the wedding photos and their memories hanging on the wall. Everything seemed to remind Tendean to the late wife he loved. Leaving a feeling of tightness in the chest.

"Three days ago, we both got out of this house together, Des. There's no you anymore. This house is full of memories. This house around every corner reminds me of you. Whether it is in the family room, in the dining room, in the kitchen, and maybe our room that we always spend in a beautiful and turbulent evening contest. Everything is a memory."

Tendean could only murmur in the heart. The man closed his eyes slowly. His chest was very tight, with bad events already happening. At the end, there were two pairs of palms patting his shoulders.

"Patience, Dean. All are described as the same God. We humans are only limited to living the destiny that God has outlined" said his mother named Mia.

"Everything's like a nightmare, ma'am," Tendean replied.

How not a nightmare, if his marriage with Desy only runs two years, after which his wife has returned to Rahmatullah. Meanwhile, there is still his little baby who really needs the presence of his mother.

"Don't slump too long huh, Dean. She needs you so much, she's sorry for losing her mother. But he still has his father, right?" ask the Mother.

What his mother had just said made Tendean nod his head slowly. "Yes, Mom .. Where is Dean's baby now?" tanyakanya.

Bu Mia finally took the baby son who was entrusted for a moment and handed over to Tendean. The tiny baby whose weight at birth was only 2.5 kilograms, and also the skin was still red there. In the cloth, the little baby seemed to be asleep.

"Look, Desy left .. but you can see Desy's figure on your daughter's face. The same eye brows, the same nose, and also the same beauty. Doesn't he look like Desy?"

Tendean stretched out his hand and held his little baby. When, the baby is already in his hands, Tendean can then return to shed tears. The taste of poignancy, haru, everything gathered together into one. He reminded her of Desy. What his mother told him was true that on the face of his little baby, there was the face of his beloved wife.

"Like Desy, right?" ask her mother again.

Tendean nodded his head slowly. "Yes, Ma'am .. There's Desy's face here," Tendean replied with tears in his eyes.

"What'd you name your little baby?" ask the Mother again.

"Anaya," he replied.

Yes, Tendean can remember that his little daughter will be named Anaya. As the message Desy had once told him. Anaya means a blessing from God. For a moment, Tendean recalled what Desy had said to him shortly before delivery yesterday.

Recalling his wife's words made Tendean close his eyes. Yes, her tears were still running, that there was a drop of her tears falling on her daughter's face.

"Anaya .. Her daughter's Dad. Accompany Daddy live the days Dad. I will always love you with full and complete love. Even if you don't have a Mother, but Dad will try to be a Father and Mother for you, son."

Heard what his son said. Ms. Mia again patted Tendean on the shoulder. So sorry for his only son. Just yesterday he said goodbye to go to the Hospital, asked for prayers for the smooth delivery of his wife, and now only his son is back, but not with his son-in-law.

"Patience to Dean ... God gave us that trial will not exceed our limits. However, because He knows that we are strong to live it. Getting closer to God, asking for His strength and help" said the Mother again.

Until finally his Father Tendean also nodded his head and spoke slowly. "What a strong one, Ean .. at least strong one for your little baby" she replied.

"Yes Father," Tendean replied with a nod of his head.

***

One day passed ....

A day had passed, and Tendean was still taking time off. All because indeed he needs to recover himself and mentally after losing his beloved wife. In addition, the baby she named Anaya also needs a hand that nurtures her.

"So, the little one is just named Anaya, Ean?" ask his father again.

Tendean nodded his head. "Yes, sir .. It feels like Tendean cannot think anymore. Don't think, to breathe is hard" he replied.

"Yes, the patient. Later let you manage the Birth Certificate for Anaya. You choose yourself first, Anaya needs you," he said.

Tendean also understood that Anaya needed him. Although he himself was in a slumped condition, but Tendean had to rise for his son.

"Anaya wants to find Susu or what, Ean?" ask his mother later.

"Former formula only, Mom ... is there for babies aged 0 to 6 months first," he replied.

Mia nodded her head. "If the content is not as good as ASI, but if Anaya can match with Formula Milk there is no harm, Ean. However Anaya can grow and develop well according to his age," replied the mother.

"Yes Ma'am .. If there is no lactose allergy and cow's milk, we give Anaya already formula is not a problem," he replied.

Actually in the heart of Tendean also not willing and want Anaya to get all the goodness of Mother's milk. However, if the baby can receive formula milk, then it is not wrong. After all, many babies survive and grow up with formula.