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chapter 6's

After the ceremony ended, I rushed towards the entrance of the hall, and it was there that I waited for Sumi to pass by. Of course, I haven't checked in as a whole to make sure she actually got into the same college as in my first life. If there are indeed different scenarios, maybe that's why Sumi and I can't be together, of course there is a possibility that she attended a different campus. Perhaps even, Sumi had long since found a job. Fortunately, there is only one exit at this campus. So if she did attend this college, I would definitely see her when the time comes to come home. Plus, I've honed my sensors to distinguish between Sumi and everyone else. I'm not kidding. If you were in love with someone when you were young, then you know what I mean. In the early days of going to college like this, new students (including me) will be looking for people they know, he would then scream in joy when he found out that one of his friends was accepted to the same campus.

It seemed ridiculous to me, and maybe someone else too. But I doubt they care, they're having too much fun. Honestly, I'm envious. Unfortunately, there was nothing I knew, nor did I bother greeting others. So, I don't have to do any of that. But, if I find Sumi and call out to her, then she screams with excitement when she meets me again, just like the other girls did, it will definitely make me happy. That fantasy is what has kept me going for the last half year. At this moment, I became very frugal. Because my life is less happy, every time I find happiness, I will enjoy it until it runs out, like for example licking ice cream until the last drop. My hair was neatly cut, I wore a tie, and I relaxed my facial muscles to show my best facial expression when I met Sumi later. Then the time came. I only saw a little bit of the back of his head among the crowd, but I'm sure it was Sumi. I wasn't sure what to say to her, so I started walking. There was a strange pain in my chest. My breath became irregular. A few feet felt like hundreds of meters. When I got close enough, I felt sure she could hear me, I was just about to call her name, "Sumi!" - But no sound came out of my mouth that was already open. I felt my body temperature drop.

My ex-boyfriend is walking, clinging to each other, to a man I don't know. And if that's all, maybe I can still take it. I mean, we've been apart for three years. And others would definitely not leave such a charming girl alone. I didn't really expect this to happen, but I thought I was ready for it. Sumi must be lonely. So, had he found someone to replace me, I couldn't blame him. But when the man walking beside Sumi looked so similar to me from my previous life…. That's another story. The person who walked with Sumi, her height, her actions, her voice, her speech, her expression, were all identical to my first self. As I've said before, the memories of my first life aren't concrete, but she really likes characteristics like "friendly smile" and "melodic voice." "Doppelganger" came into my mind.

But there's some problem with thinking of that guy as my doppelganger. That is, my first and second selves have become very different in many ways. Surprisingly, if you compare me to the man who walks with Sumi who seems to imitate my first life. If there's a doppelganger, it feels more reasonable to assume it's me, not him. I know I've failed. If I could recreate my first life, I would definitely be the man before my eyes. Now it's no wonder why I haven't been able to date Sumi. Because in my second life, there was already someone who took my place.

I can't do that. Now, I am a worthless man, I know very well of that fact because this is the second repetition of my life.The most vengeful feeling I have is the faint bitterness I feel towards Sumi.But this time, the most grudge I have ever felt against Sumi, I was filled with anger. I could only stand dumbfounded, shouting in my heart, "Hey, that's not true! That's MY ROLE!" What can I say?

If Sumi just got a boyfriend, I have to accept that fact. Just be right! I might even think "i'll take it back," and tell myself "I'm much better than him!" Now I'm really mad. The fight to reclaim my predestined partner.But, who snatched Sumi from me, is none other than ... Okay, well, maybe that's not the right way to say it. Basically, the one who snatched away my position in his previous life was Sumi's girlfriend who looked so similar to me. So he's already chosen her as "the more perfect person." So now I have to ask you something. "Can I beat myself?" Had I competed with a different type of man, I could have put out positive things for myself to surpass him. And I'm sure Sumi will fall in love with me, because Sumi's taste is a man like me in her previous life. When you like someone, actually the type of guy/girl your dream is not easy to change.But compete with the exact same guy as me? I don't know how to beat him. Because I have to admit, he is superior to me

Then I lost again too. The next few months were full of surprises. Because my other self perfectly recreated my college experiences, one after another. Normally I would go into more detail about all that, but this time I would shorten it. Because I was quite depressed when I told her everything from beginning to end. In a short time, he was a central figure in his faculty, he was respected by many, he was friendly with many girls. Oh, as an observer, I can't bear to comment on how happy I was in my first life. However, he is liked by many people because he is good to anyone. I hate to admit it, but if she and Sumi walk together, they seem so harmonious. You could say that they are like the perfect couple as they are often told in fairy tales. They were so blinding to my eyes, I felt like I didn't deserve to be with them. Of course, they were a friendly couple, and if I showed any desire to make friends with them, they would easily accept it. But that's not what I want. However, it felt unbelievable that such a perfect man could turn into a pitiful man like me just because of a slight misstep. If given the same opportunity to repeat his life, it is not impossible that he will mess things up as I do today. If it may be concluded, it seems that in this world there are no good or bad people, because the good and bad of a person are only the impact of the environment in which they live. At least, heredity has not had much of an impact on me.