Retaliation of Persecuted Wife
Chapter 3 Not Knowing Yourself

Chapter 3

Not Knowing Yourself

A hotel was my choice of berth tonight. Shedding all my heart's sorrow alone. Crying, roaring sobbing does not also relieve the pain that increasingly afflicts the heart.

My husband married again without my permission. Betraying our love that has been built for 3 years.

We have memories of when we were not married. I'm just an ordinary woman who works at a private company. Meet Mas Heru by chance in a restaurant at the same break. Because we often meet accidentally, we begin to fall in love with each eye.

It started with his courage to greet me and ask permission to sit at my desk. Slowly we got closer and got to know each other. Until one day the proposal came to me. How happy I will be to be the wife of a lover who has been with me for almost 6 months.

Mas Heru works as a PNS in a government agency. And therefore my parents immediately accepted his proposal at that time. Impressed that matre was right, but for me it was not Mas Heru's job that made me fall in love with him. But from the way he treated me with care and affection, made me lulled in the love he had.

I heard Adzan echoing through the sky to break my daydream. It turns out that the time has shown at 18:55 indicates that the Isya prayer has entered'. Soon I rose up to cleanse myself and to rest on the Divine.

Again these tears flowed like a river when prayers began to chant. Surrender to God's best decision of my life after this.

The ringing of my gauntlet from earlier did not stop ringing, dozens of missed calls and rows of messages from Mas Heru filled my screen, as I reached for the flat object finished fulfilling my obligations.

[Where are you?]

Why is he trying to call me back?

I read one by one the contents of Mas Heru's message without intending to reply to him.

[Excuse me for not being honest with you. Mas wrong, mas so because do not want to lose you Beautiful]

Even if you are honest you will still lose me. I don't want to be combined, my mind is disappointed.

[Beautiful where dear, Mas promise after persuading Vienna, Mas will go home for 2 weeks to our home]

Wasn't my word clear, that I was waiting for our divorce papers. Why did he return home after incising a million wounds in the heart.

I immediately turned off my laughter. Can no longer read the message that continues to say sorry but does not dare to be assertive.

I plan to go straight to Borneo tomorrow morning. Let tonight this silent and desolate room accompany the wounded heart.

I don't feel like time keeps rolling. My head felt heavy when I looked at the dawn prayer. Not a second can these eyes be closed thinking about Mas Heru betrayal to me.

Again these tears flowed down the river in my morning prayer. To Allah alone I have poured out all the tights on this breast. Can't bear to say what happened to my household to Father and Mother in the village. Let this wound I try to heal myself by leaning on the Almighty.

My head getting heavier and dizzy did not stop my steps. I forced myself to go home that morning.

My suitcase pulled back from the hotel to the airport. Until at the airport my head was getting heavy and kept spinning until finally the view began to darken and I collapsed unconscious.

***

A white paint-colored space swept over me as these eyes opened. "Where am I?" My muttering.

"Well, are you conscious?"

Mas Heru! And where is this? Inner wondering.

Somehow he got here, I'm still confused. Last thing I remember was I was at the airport and getting ready to check in.

"Ough...!"

I held my head which still felt heavy and dizzy.

How can I swallow Mas's food, if my heart is broken to pieces by your deeds.

"Don't touch me, Mum!"

My command when Mas Heru wanted to hold my hand and I brushed it off.

"You're still my lovely wife, and you're sick. It's only natural that I'm worried."

Oh my God, I just came to my senses and he asked me to argue. Was I not clear what I said yesterday?!

I tried to gather my heart and energy to fight words with Mas Heru.

"Why don't you worry about getting married again? Isn't it certain something like this will happen?" The sarcasm.

"I'm sorry I'm beautiful, I think you're a strong woman. Even if I stay a few months you can still hold back."

Very easy to answer. Does she think I'm a super woman?! I also have limitations even though I try to remain a tough woman in the eyes of people.

"Hold what? You don't assume for yourself when you don't know what I'm feeling." I said, looking at Mas Heru with disappointment.

"I know I was wrong Beautiful, but understand me, this has all happened. What's wrong with us trying to live together? I promise you, I'll be fair to you and Vienna."

Mas Heru's face looked confident and clear.

"It is easy for you to speak, because only you feel pleasure and happiness. But me, I hurt Mas! This heartache and suffer for your happiness! From here you've been unfair to me, let alone beyond."

I let out my heart that was disappointed in Mas Heru's behavior.

Mas Heru looked to sigh.

"I'm sorry I'm beautiful, I have a reason to get married again."

Mas Heru said an apology from his mouth. But I'm sick of listening to it. Maybe because this heart is too sick to begin to erode the love that used to exist for Mas Heru.

"Whatever reason you are not allowed to marry again without your wife's permission first. Never mind, leave me. Didn't I ask for a divorce from you? Prepare from now!" Speak a little loudly because I want to end this conversation.

I want him to leave this room immediately, because my heart hurts every time I see his face.

"It is not easy to live a life as a beautiful widow, you should think again."

"It's not easy if life rests with others. It is not easy if you do not maintain the behavior and attitude in social life. But not for me, Mom. Far away from you I kept my attitude and behavior. I have a job too. Then what is the difference when we LDR and when we split later. Only status distinguishes, right?"

"Hard-headed!" The sarcasm.

"Yes I'm stubborn, and it's because of you! I've been following what you said all along. But not anymore, because I'm disappointed in you!"

I tried to hold back the tears from spilling because it had dewed in the eye pelupuk.

The more I talk the more harsh words I say to her.

This heart is too sick to forgive what Mas Heru did. I would at least accept betrayal and also the KDRT if that happens.

Seriate...

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