Retaliation of Persecuted Wife
Chapter 60 is Not a Desire

Chapter 60

Not Desire

"I. beg Indaaah..."

Again Mbak Mira asked with a heart-wrenching voice groan. My heart that was powerless to see such pain was truly in a dilemma.

God, what do I answer?

Roy turned his gaze looking out the window. Maybe he's disappointed or it's just my feeling.

I closed my eyes for a moment. In this short time I was not allowed to think long because at any time Mira could have returned to Him.

"Ber. promise me... Indaaa... Ka. You will mourn my son if a.... Ber. promise to marry Mas... Fanndii..."

Oh my God, what do I have to answer? This is definitely not my wish to marry Mas Fandi. I don't love that guy. Roy...

I looked at Roy, calling the man in my heart but the man seemed resigned to my answer even though his face looked disappointed.

Roy did not budge at all, the man just exhaled his coarse breath.

"You'll be safe baby, I'll ask the best doctor to save you and our baby umm...."

Mas Fandi is still trying to divert Mira's request subtly. I know Mas Fandi doesn't want this either.

"Indaad...."

Back Mira called my name and this time her voice began to weaken.

How is this God?

My heart was pounding more and more. I was confused, upset, and sad all the feelings were mixed in my heart and mind.

In the eyes of Beautiful Ma'am I may be the person she trusts so much to nurture and care for her child and husband. But, on the other hand I also have dreams and desires that I want to achieve. Should I sacrifice?

Lord... I give all my destiny to You...

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"All right..." I answered by closing my eyes for a moment.

Roy might be surprised to hear my words so he immediately turned to me. Mas Fandi immediately disconnected the video call after hearing my answer.

Either this is a wrong or right decision, because I also do not know what fate awaits in the future. Really, it's not easy for me.

The female side of me that couldn't resist when my loved ones were moaning in pain and asking for help left me helpless. I dissolved into my own thoughts after saying my answer. I must have hurt the heart of Roy I know trying to get my heart.

"Brummm!!"

The car suddenly moved and broke my daydream. I was surprised Roy suddenly immediately slammed the steering wheel and drove at high speed.

This time my heart was pounding again. Not because Mira but because Roy who brought the car like a wild racer. The highway to the hospital was considered to be the Sentul International Circuit, making my sadness turn instantly into an overwhelming panic.

I held on to the handle above the car door. Every now and then I lyric Roy who stares sharply at the road with a serious face and silent a thousand languages.

Was Roy angry and venting his frustration on the road with this kind of speeding?

Roy, I'm sorry I hurt you...

I took this decision because it might have been Mira's last request. I was afraid that it would be a regret later on if I refused his request. There must be something that made Mbak Mira ask me even though he already knew that Roy was trying to get close to me. And I'm not in a relationship with Roy either.

The car continued to split the road, overtaking the vehicle that was blocking and honking like as if shouting 'Beyond you'. In just 10 minutes the car we were riding arrived at the parking lot of the nearest hospital that houses Mbak Mira and Mas Fandi. Roy quickly opened the car door and rushed to me who was still sitting limp collecting lives that almost escaped from my body.

"Come..." His words were soft but with a flat face that I saw for the first time.

I feel uncomfortable. What happened to Roy?

Mas Fandi seemed to wait with a sad face and covered to worry in a special bench to wait for patients. Roy and I went up to him and asked Mira how she was doing.

"How's Bro?" Roy asked Mas Fandi.

"Mira was in surgery for bleeding." Answer Mas Fandi weakly.

The man then looked at me with a sad face.

"I'm sorry Mira, it's beautiful..." Mas Fandi begged me again.

"Don't think about it. Later we will talk again after knowing the development of the situation Mbak Mira."

Mas Fandi nodded. Then his gaze returned to stare at the tightly shut door of the operating room.

"Allahu Akbar..., Allaaaahu Akbar!"

Kumandang adzan maghrib echoed through the overcast sky as if he knew Mas Fandi's sorrow for what befell his little family. The cold wind blows on the body as if knowing the heart is in need of conditioning. I decided to face the Khaliq and complain to Him.

"I'm sorry, I went to mushola first." I said to two men who might need some privacy to talk about my decision.

"Go away..." Said Roy softly but flat as before.

Mas Fandi looked at me and nodded his head. I passed from the front of the two men to the Hospital Mushola. Took ablution and to wear mukena that is easy to carry everywhere that is always in my bag, then fulfilled my obligations my three raka'at.

***

Mas Fandi and Roy sat side by side with both arms supporting the weight of the body above their thighs respectively. I approached them and wanted to know how they were going.

"Is the operation not finished yet?" I asked both of them.

Roy didn't flinch and looked at the hospital floor, which was probably more interesting than me. While Mas Fandi only shook his head weakly answering my question.

I sat down next to Roy, one empty seat between us. Since hearing my answer to Mira's request, the man's attitude has drastically changed for me. Whether it's just my feelings or I'm wrong, Roy's kind of like keeping his distance from me.

Until before we listened to Mbak Mira's request, Roy's attitude to me was still in the limelight and trying to strengthen myself. But now, he had turned into a cool man figure that made me feel like something was lacking.

I pondered while waiting for news from the Doctor who operated on Ms. Mira. No one spoke after I sat down for 20 minutes with them. We dissolve in each other's minds.

"The family of a patient named Mira Lestari?"

Mas Fandi, Roy and I all stood up as soon as the doctor came out calling the patient's family.

Mas Fandi quickly went to the doctor, and I and Roy followed him behind.

"I'm Fandi, Mira Lestari's husband, Doc."

"The baby can be saved even in a premature state. And the mother is still critical even though we're done operating on her. Just pray that your wife can get through her critical period. We'll move your wife to the ICU."

"Do your best for my wife Doc."

"We'll do it sir." Said the Doctor while patting Mas Fandi's shoulder which hinted as if giving strength to him.

"To be more complete about Mother Mira's situation, let's talk about it in my room."

"Good Doc. I'll be in your room after my wife's moved." Said Mas Fandi.

The doctor passed to go to his room, leaving us who were still covered in anxious feelings because of the condition of Mira who was still critical.

"Mas, it's better to be at the baby's first prayer." I said reminding.

Mas Fandi nodded, then immediately headed to the baby room to see his son.

Roy also seemed to want to see the baby by stepping his legs following Mas Fandi in the back.

Seeing Roy follow Mas Fandi, I chased after Roy and grabbed his hand, until the man stopped and he looked at me.

"Sorry....." I said lirih.

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