
Velo was silent looking at his mother's navel, this was the first time for him to come to his mother's grave after eleven years of leaving the village. Of course his mother's grave remained well preserved because Velo specifically paid people to tidy it up. Actually to get to the fund is not an easy thing, not the thing that he can do most children in general.
Mother........
The warm hand could not hold her, the shady eyes could no longer look at her, her beautiful smile could no longer be seen. While sleeping, he always hugged his mother's body, listening to the sound of a heartbeat that so calmed his heart. Although in the end, he could only briefly embrace his mother's cold body, unable to do anything, having no life.
Velo bit his lower lip, he was holding something that was like piling up on his chest.
" hurt! It hurts! It hurts! It hurts!, It hurts so much! " Say Velo involuntarily shed a tear while beating his chest. She did not look at her mother's name written there, remember her mother was so young at that time, she was still very beautiful to make the neighbors, not least the village chief liked her mother.
Noticing the presence of water falling onto his cheek, Velo frowned for a bit, wiped the tears and looked at him.
" It's cloudy, but it hasn't rained yet, has it? " Velo muttered but she realized again that water had fallen back from her eyes. It's warm, and it's definitely not rain.
Velo was speechless, he was crying?
Velo laughed in disbelief. Goddamnit! Even those tears could just fall? Though all this time he did not know how to cry even though he wanted to try it several times in the hope that after crying his heart would feel relieved.
" Mom, did you do this? Do you want me to cry for you? Wh-wh-what for? So I can look like I love Mom? Heh! Just dream! I, not loving Mom, I hate a stupid mother like you. I don't like you being my mother, because you, me, me, me, "
Velo could no longer speak, Velo continued to beat his aching chest. He screamed, cried, and at that moment the rain was pouring down on the earth.
" Huh......... " Velo was crying stronger.
" Why?! Why do all the misfortunes have to be experienced by me? Why did the one I loved leave me, and throw me away? I am human, just like you! I'm tired, I'm so tired of hating, I hate those of you who can laugh out loud when I'm crying without a sound! Can't you guys understand?! I hate myself because of you! Ah......! "
Velo still continued to cry, finally, after eleven years he could not cry, he was able to cry again, venting the feeling of sadness that had been held back all this time. Hatred, anger, disappointment, all of that could finally be expressed through the cries of the alley once it broke, along with the torrential rain that drenched its body.
" I, I, now I want to die! I want to be in a dark place, no man, no Mother, no Father, no all! If I could repeat the time before birth, I really wanted to be a stone. No need to feel sad, no need to feel pain, no need to feel anything! Whyyy?! Why did you have to make me born?! Why don't you let me be a rock, huh?! "
Velo let his cry break out in the midst of the huge rain, even the stomach also sounded jarring.
" I miss you, Mother. I miss Mom, I want Mom, I want to be able to see Mom. " Velo said softly after being satisfied to shout since Meksi's cry was still there.
" I'm sorry, I blame Mom too much, I hate Mom when she doesn't want me to be like this either, right? But, I'm so tired Mom, I'm so tired of living. Why did God give me such a long life? Please pick me up, Mother. I no longer want to be in this sickening place. "
Velo raised his face to see who what was on it so that he was no longer exposed to rainwater. An umbrella? Velo turned his head back, and fell silent as he looked at a man he knew so well.
" Rigo's? "
Velo got up with an angry look.
" Why are you here? "
" fetch you. " Answer Rigo.
" I'm not going back to you, go. I don't want to waste time on a stupid man like you. "
Rigo let out his breath.
" But I still want to be here, with you! "
Velo hit Rigo's chest continuously with his regret.
" Foolish man! You don't know what I mean, do you?! Or are you starting to not understand human language?! If I say go, then leave as soon as possible! I don't want you, I don't like you much less love you! I'm sick of it, I'm really sick of it! Go there! "
Grep's!
Rigo threw away his umbrella, hugging Velo tightly.
Velo, he is now beating Rigo's back because he really wants Rigo to leave from there. He no longer wanted to hurt the man, he did not want to be a thorn in the man's life. He was also tired, he was tired of living a life of sadness. He wanted to go, go to the place where his mother was. But, Rigo's embrace really made her feel something as if she felt like she had a friend to live with. He stopped beating Rigo, slowly crying softly, because he could not stand it anymore, finally he returned to crying so badly.
Rigo, he's been around Velo for a long time, at least he heard almost everything Velo said. He looked right at Velo's trembling back, his trembling voice holding back the tears, his voice that sounded so angry to his mother, as well as his whining tone missed his mother. Now that he knew very well how much suffering Velo was going through, he did not need to know anymore the details of the incident, the point was that he knew that all he had to do was accompany the strong but fragile woman.
" I'm tired..... "
" I know, that's why you need to rest, not end it. I'll accompany you, you can tell me everything. I'm not much help, but trust me I'll do what I can. "
Rigo further tightened his embrace because Velo's body was really limp as if he wanted to fall. After a while, Rigo carried Velo, then looked at her mother-in-law's headstone.
Mother-in-law, thank you for giving birth to Velo. What he said earlier seems to hate you, then it means the opposite. He loves you so much, he misses you all the time. Once again, thank you, and please bless us so that we can be together until death do us part.
Rigo carried Velo who now looked so tired, his eyes were crying too much until swollen and swollen. But, she also felt relieved that Velo could cry.
Seriate.