RUINED MY SELF "BY YVE"
PENT-UP DESIRE
The youth in Hoodie-covered High School uniform seemed to be standing casually under the tree while looking towards the school building.
He greedily watched a man standing on the sidewalk of the road, gazing into the play hall from behind the guardrail.
Handphone embroidery.
He casually received a call.
“Hya! You truant again?” the voice of a man on the other end of the phone.
“Mas, have our efforts so far failed?” his tone sounded lethargic.
“What happened?”
“I followed him from White Lotus to Elementary School. He doesn't seem to be letting go of that miss!”
The man in a white suit sat turning the chair while clenching his hands against the glass wall of his study.
“Mas?” call that high school boy when there's no reply from the guy on the phone. “Mas heard me?”
“At last, the grenade we have held for many years will soon explode too!” said the man still with his typical casual tone style.
“Mas! Don't tell me you want to just let it go?”
“That will happen let it happen.”
“No mas! Pokonya I'll keep trying to stop that explosion!”
Close your eyes, “Come back to school or I'll punish you!” firmly the man as if he did not want to listen to the frustration of the High School boy.
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As soon as he saw the picture of his daughter, Vee immediately pulled the picture book.
Take the black crayon from the Yve bag and immediately doodle the Yazza name there.
Vee was forced to use the name Yazza when he first set out to create Yve's birth certificate.
Yazza is his father.
He did write that name down in Yve's personal data. But he didn't use Yazza's full name.
Just one word ‘Yazza’ only, so that Yve can never find who his real father is.
The name Yazza Gionio will certainly be very easy to find on the internet.
Seeing the behavior of her protege's parents, Ms. Tania squinted in astonishment.
Realizing that he is not alone, Vee immediately sees the homeroom teacher Yve misbehaved, “Ahh, sorry bu!”
Sighs, “This is what I'm worried about!”
“Means mother?”
“I'm worried about Yve's psychological state being unstable at the moment.”
Vee listened with fear, “What?”
“She drew her father faceless and dyed black. I guess right away, she must have never seen her father.”
Ms. Tania stroked the picture on Vee's lap.
Smiling friendly, “Contrast that with a picture showing the joy of a whole family.”
“Yve crave the figure of his father.” Imbuh bu Tania's. Go to the park where parents and children play.
Meanwhile, Vee just silently looked down speechlessly staring at the picture of her daughter.
“He wrote his father's name but did not draw a face and smile like the others. You see, the sun and even flowers are also given a smiling face.”
Back staring at Vee, “Sorry before, do you have a problem with father Yve?”
Vee felt a hard blow on his chest.
He nodded in justification.
“Did you also forbid Yve from talking to his father?”
“Actually, I don't want to talk about his father.” Clenching fuming hands.
Looking up at homeroom Yve, “I mean mom?”
Looking at the picture, “That's the reason why she's coloring her father's figure black. Should not the child be the victim of parental disputes.”
Shaking slowly, “I don't understand. What does this have to do with this image?”
“Can't it be, her father is dead? Yve previously said, if he doesn't have a father. Doesn't that mean he never saw or knew who his real father was?”
“That's what I want. I don't want Yve to know! That's why all this time I never talked about that guy!”
Seeing Vee's deep hatred when talking about Yve's father, Tania's mother is sure that Yve is not okay.
“Have you also always been like this when Yve started questioning about his father?”
The question of Ms. Tania was certainly able to make Vee stunned.
He will always be upset and scold Yve when the boy begins to question his father.
“You should have started to understand it, right? Why did Yve not dare to draw a smiling face on the figure of the father in his picture.”
“There are two possibilities. First, he is afraid if you are sad and secondly, he is afraid you are angry.” Imbuh bu Tania concluded.
“But the man is truly an irresponsible person!” vee said so sad.
He didn't know if Yve had such feelings all along.
“Ya, though not said. Pictures of children like this, actually can explain the contents of his heart. I am sure Yve also did not dare to offend about his father to you.”
Seeing the other children busy playing with their father made Vee's heart even sadder.
“So this is the reason why Yve looked so strange this morning.” Down holding his forehead, “Even I was too selfish to give him no chance to say his heart!”
Vee sighed deeply at her daughter's homeroom teacher, “Then what should I do bu?”
“Finding with his father or not, it is your right.” The words that came out from Ms Tania's lips sounded very cautious.
“But by continuing to harbour his desire, Yve will be depressed and make it a hard priadi. Maybe at some point, he will turn against you. He will feel, there are things that never materialize from something that you have limited this!” continue in a calm style.
“Is there any other way, other than meeting her father?” obviously Vee would never agree in this way.
“At least, give him a little space to remember his father. Give him a pleasant memory. And don't break his wish. Most importantly, you do not get angry if he wants to talk about his father.”
“I'm afraid, I can't control my emotions.”
Vee looked down sad.
“Everytime he asks about his father, I always get upset myself and tell him to shut up. I did not expect, it makes Yve become like this.”
“It's not too late to save Yve mentally. You certainly do not want if Yve becomes a closed child, right?” back looking to the park, “Today Yve already pointed in that direction. He is aloof and avoids people.”
How could Vee miss about this important matter. He thought, everything seems normal and fine so far.
Tear drops, “This is my fault. Although I swear to make her happy, but it turns out, I actually limit her happiness.” Vee is very sad.
Slurping Vee's back, ”Sorry if I get too involved about your family problems.”
Menggeleng rubbed her tears, “In fact I thank you because my mother has been very attentive to the state of my son. I really don't deserve to be a good mother.”
“You don't say that. Yve is very characterful and looks mature at his age. Of course it is on the basis of your excellent upbringing. It's just, he feels different from the others because of his shortcomings.”
Vee realized his mistake. But he also didn't want Yve to know about his father.
She is very worried about her daughter's psychic health now.
Ms. Tania is right. At the very least, giving Yve a little memory of his father would help him get up.
The child must be depressed because he cannot tell or boast about the figure of his biological father.
He would always say to everyone if he didn't have a father. And that was the subject of ridicule from Yve's friends before.
Vee decided, it won't be too hard now!
Especially when Yve wanted to ask about her father.
Although, the decision to keep his biological father secret was already very unanimous. He could still answer faintly without having to explain clearly, who and how the real Yazza looked.
“Why didn't I lie from the beginning and say if his father was dead!” regret Vee while closing his eyes.
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