Sequel My Ustadz My Husband - Prospective Master
The Part 38
Mary said Faraz to recognize who she was then she would know who her God was. I don't know why it's like pulling his heart. Maria already knew who she was and what she was like, but after hearing Faraz's words, she seemed to lose her confidence and no longer recognize herself.
And right now, he was in the library looking for something he might be able to use as a clue. But the results are nil.
Mary soon left the library and went to church.
At church, Mary seemed hesitant to enter because after her mother's death she never went to church.
There, he sat pensively, all this time Mary never cared about her identity or any spiritual affairs, for him she just needed the sense to survive. But meeting Sarfaraz and her people, as if to shake the heart of Mary.
"What's up, son?" Mary was surprised by a priest there.
"It's okay" replied Maria softly.
"It looks like you're confused" continued the priest.
"I never came to church for eleven years. So I'm a little confused as to why I'm here" Maria said.
"So, after eleven years, you've missed your God?"
"God? No, why do I miss her"
"Why? You don't seem to like my question"
"My mother always said, God is loving, but she didn't show me her love, why is she so?"
"He was loving to every servant of His. What makes you think he doesn't pity you"
"Because a lot of sad things have happened to me since I was a kid"
"Even Our Lady herself also suffered and lived her life full of twists and turns"
Maria was silent for a moment. He had heard the story long ago when he was in Sunday school. But he only remembered some of it.
"What's wrong? Why are you daydreaming?" ask the priest again.
"It's okay, thanks. I think I should go" and after saying that, Maria left immediately.
This time he had to go back to campus because there was an afternoon course.
"Sarfaraz confused me, made me waste my time" he grumbled as he searched for a taxi to take him to campus.
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"What does it mean to know who you are?" ask Mary to Mary.
Ah what a coincidence that he met Maryam at his college and they're currently enjoying a bowl of meatballs in the campus cafeteria "Because I think I recognize who I am. I'm Maria, I love literature, I love reading, I'm hardworking and as her, I already know what I'm like" she continued.
"Not your name or hobby in question, Maria. Except your humanity. Why are you born into this world, for what, and after death where are you going. Ask yourself that"
Maria fell silent again, if asked like that, then she would have no answer.
"If I ask you that, what's your answer?" Mary asked Mary.
"My life is to worship Allah, for Allah has said that He did not create man and jinn except to worship Him. So in this life we only need to do two things, the first run His command and the second, stay away from His prohibition. And after death, of course we will all return to who created us, and we will account for what we have done in the world. Because the real life is life after death"
Okey, Mary even still doubts God, and Maryam has explained to that extent that actually it could make Mary confused. But apparently Maria is a smart girl, the girl caught what Maryam was trying to do. Like hell and heaven, an atheist certainly does not believe in both. But Maria was getting curious as to why there should be both.
"Why should there be accountability after death? Is not someone who is dead, is dead, the story is over"
"Not yet, we live by two laws, the first law of this world, the example of the law of the country, if stealing, must be the law, right?" and Mary nods in agreement "And also we live by the law of God, if someone lies, fornicates, or commits any other sin to God, then he must remain in the law, he said, and God will punish him later, that's why we live need the right religion, to guide us not to sin"
"But every human being has sinned, no human being is holy"
"Therefore, God has a forgiving nature, and gives us the opportunity to repent, He also has the almighty nature of Hidayah. Mary, your question itself is the Hidayah of God"
Mary looked at Maryam fixedly, and she bit her finger because she was still trying to digest what Maryam had explained. He understood, but it was difficult to accept it because he was already disappointed with his life destiny.
"Maryam, if something bad happens to you, do you still stick to your belief that God is loving"
"Of course, Maria. Everything that happens to us, whether it is bad or good, there must be wisdom behind it. And if bad things happen, God is just testing us, our patience and sincerity will be tested. And the Lord has promised, He will not test His servant beyond the limits of his abilities, the Lord has also promised, after hardship there must be ease, after difficulty there must be ease, and exams will make our lives much better because there will be many lessons we can take and make provision for a better life"
"There's an end to it, Maria. But of course with effort and prayer. Have you ever prayed that your test would end or that you would just get angry and leave Him?"
Mary could only shake her head weakly, she never really prayed. At that time he was a child, he only hoped God would help him but he remained alone and that had made him give up.
"Try praying, Maria. Maybe God will not give you a way out but surely you will feel something different in your heart, a calmness and peace. And if you have both, then you will be able to see, in fact God has provided a way out for you"
Maryam frowned because suddenly Maria laughed a little.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to speak" said Maryam but Mary shook her head and said.
"You are exactly like your sister" said Mary "Are you taught to lead others like that?" Mary laughed at Mary's question.
"That's just part of our knowledge, and we just want our science to be useful. That's it"
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In her office, Cindy tells Amar that Dilara wants to see her, but she resolutely refuses. Dilara had made her very angry many times but the girl like her had no veins of shame.
"But he said it was work, sir" Cindy said, which made Amar sigh heavily.
"Take my meeting with her tomorrow, not today. Granny's sick again so I'll be home soon" said Amar who was directly obeyed Cindy.
After finishing some of his work, Amar immediately went home.
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Meanwhile, after the campus Maryam stopped by her restaurant and she saw Lily who was working. Actually Maryam felt sorry for Lily who was 16 years old but had to work.
"Ly, how's the job? Hard lnga?" maryam asked as she approached Lily who looked tired.
"What a hell, Brother. Easy, just serving guests, asking what message, delivering orders, cleaning the table, easy"
"Have you never worked before?" ask Mary again.
"Yet, Lily never even finished Lily's own room. But how else, the wheel of life spins. Even now Lily is grateful to be able to work, so Lily knows it's hard to find money"
"You're so smart, Lily" said Maryam, wiping Lily's head off the hijab. And Lily wore a short skirt over her knees in a long-sleeved white shirt "Ly, no offense, but if you can tomorrow don't wear a short skirt again huh" great-granddaughter Maryam hopes Lily does not take offense "Because by closing the aurat, we can also help the view of men so as not to sin. Aren't you?"
Lily was embarrassed.
"Actually, because Sister Angel said to be a restaurant waitress so Lily dressed like this, because as far as Lily knows her usual restaurant waitress is like this" said Lily who responded to a smile by Maryam.
"Yes, some of them do. But it's not allowed here. Let's keep each other together"
"Yes, Lily understands"
"Thank you, Ly"
"Well, why does my sister Angel thank you? Kan Lily who is helped, so Lily who is grateful" said Lily with a big smile showing the arrangement of her teeth that are not so neat.
"Why do you call me Sister Angel? My name is Maryam"
"Sister's sister is an angel. I heard from big brother who works here, sister and mother sister help them a lot. So what's his name if it's not an angel"
Maryam laughs amusedly at Lily's words.
"Man should help, Ly" replied "Yes, you continue the work, I have to go home. Oh yes, do not forget to eat yes, employees can eat here, free really"
"Thank you, sister" Lily said with a happy smile and wide eyes.
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Tbc...