Sharing Love: Red Stain of Marriage
Chapters 11.Is Patience the Limit

Zeya hugs Aunt Angel before saying goodbye. Taxis were waiting for him.

"If you have a problem, don't hesitate to call aunt. But don't go to this place again. We can meet somewhere"

"Thank you, Auntie."

"Remember, only a fool would fall into the same hole."

"Tante, I'll never forget all Auntie's kindness."

"Don't embarrass me. I have plunged you. You shouldn't be thanking me. I wouldn't be angry if you hated me. But never come back just because you're disappointed in someone. I do not deserve to advise you, but remember this place is only a place of sin. You have studied religion. Surely you know better, if this is the place to go to his hell."

"I've always prayed for kindness for Auntie. Hopefully one day Aunt will come out of this circle."

"Go away, the longer you're here I'm afraid you'll be affected again."

Zeya hugged her aunt Angel and cried sobbing. He can feel the heartfelt love of Aunt Angel. Even though it was the woman who had made him fall into the black valley, it was also this woman who had helped him.

The taxi Zeya was riding in left the place for a boarding school.

Zeya got off the taxi and stood for a long time in front of a house next to the boarding house.

With a doubtful step Zeya knocked on the door of the house. Before long came out a middle-aged woman, with a smile she welcomed Zeya.

"Zeya, why are the nights here."

"May I enter the ustadzah."

"Of course, come in."

The Ustadzah lived alone in his house. She is the widow of the owner of the boarding school. His children take care of the boarding school. They have their own homes that are in the boarding house complex.

"There's something Umi can help you with."

Ustadzah where Zeya studied religion is commonly called umi. He approached Zeya who was still silent with his head bowed.

"Umi, I almost made a mistake. I almost went back to that black valley again."

"May Umi know why you made that decision."

Zeya told me everything that happened in the restaurant until he came to where he used to work.

Umi raised Zeya's chin to look at her.

"Zeya, look at Umi," said Umi.

Zeya looked at Umi's face with a cry that still continued to wet her cheeks.

"Now you answer Umi's question, do you want to change just because your husband Albirru is not because you want to get ridho from God"

"Sorry Umi, I was almost khilaf."

"Pregnancy belongs to man, and so does your husband today. You have to be patient. If it's going to make you hurt yourself, you can leave. From Umar, he said that the Prophet said: "Something that Allah hates is divorce."

"Umi, isn't patience the limit."

"It is not patience if you still have limits. And it is not sincerity if you still feel pain," said Umi

Zeya took a deep breath, she wiped away her tears.

"Listen to what Umi said, Sayyidina Ali once said:

I've felt all the bitterness in life and the bitter thing is to hope in people.” (Ali bin Abi Talib)

Imam Shafi’i said:

When you expect too much of someone, Allah will inflict on you the pain of empty hopes. Allah does not like it when anyone wishes on other than His Thing, Allah hinders his ideals so that he returns to hope only to Allah SWT. So don't ever put too much hope on a human, you'll feel disappointment."

"Why apologize to Umi. You didn't make a mistake with Umi. Try to hold on while you're not being cruel to yourself. Consider this a field of reward for you.

The Prophet said 'If a wife performs five prayers, fasts in Ramadan, keeps ********* (keeping her honor), and obeys her husband, he will enter Heaven from whichever door he wills."

"Alright, Umi. I'll try to be sincere and be patient."

After a long time they talked, Umi asked Zeya to take a bath and take ablution. Before going to bed he invited Zeya to pray at night and read the Quran.

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The next morning after speaking with Abi and his umminya, Albirru returned home.

He searches for Zeya's whereabouts, but he can't find her. He tries to call Zeya's phone but is inactive.

Where did Zeya go, the lights are all still alive, did Zeya not come home from yesterday. I was wrong, and again I left him. Why do I hurt her so much. The more I tried to keep his heart the more I hurt him. Zeya where you go.

Albirru remembered Angel's aunt, she tried to contact him. Aunty Angel said Zeya had stopped by, but he came home again.

"Zeya, where are you going. Forgive me," muttered Albirru.

Albirru paced back and forth in the house, not knowing where to look for Zeya.

Albirru bathed and laid her body on the bed. Not long after he fell asleep.

Zeya who had just returned from Umi's house saw Albirru lying down.

Was mas Al last night home and slept at home. I will try once again to endure and be patient, until patience itself is tired of my patience.

Zey entered the bathroom and cleaned herself up. He went to the kitchen and cooked for lunch.

After all the food is ready to cook, he serves it on the table. Zeya entered the room and woke Albirru up.

"Mas .. mas, wake up."

Albirru opened her eyes slowly. Zeya gave her smile. Albirru woke up from sleep and hugged Zeya tightly.

"I'm sorry, mas. This time it might be hard to forgive."

"Already mas. I don't want to bring it up. It will only add to my heart's wounds. We better forget it" said Zeya and let go of Albirru's embrace

"Abi and Ummi mas want to see you tonight."

"Is this the reason I came home. Just wanted to take me to meet abi and ummi, mas!"

"It's not because of that, Zeya. I feel guilty leaving you alone in the restaurant."

"If I just indulged my emotions, right now I might not be here. But after I spoke to Umi, I realized that every human being is just the wrong place and is a khilaf. I assume mas may have been khilaf yesterday. So I've forgotten and forgiven."

"Sorry, Zeya. Once again I forgot about you."

"I am always forgotten" murmured Zeya

"Don't say that. No one will forget you."

"We'd better just eat, ma'am. Soon it's time for zuhur. I've been cooking for our meal."

I will do all my duty just to expect ridho from Him. And I'll never hope for more with our relationship. Let everything flow like water. Where will our household be brought to the dock.

Seriate

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