Stain (Mirror Cracked)
Fear
“Rani, I'm home now yes,” saying goodbye to Jihan after breakfast.
Rani is immediately shocked to hear the words of Jihan who wants to go home while it is still morning.
“Ngapain quick time home Jihan. It will be a little later. I'm not at home with my friends.”
Jihan was silent listening to Rani. Jihan who felt sad and disappointed wanted to express her sadness in her own room. Rani who knew that Jihan was sad immediately approached her.
“We talked here first yes, briefly if you are calmer then you go home. If so so that you do not get bored accompany me to clean the flowers yes.”
Rani has an orchid garden next to her house and every holiday she is tasked to take care of the orchid flowers. Usually he will be accompanied by his mother but because his mother is going out of town so Rani wants to clean up her own orchid garden.
Then Rani invites Jihan to go to the orchid garden next to her house with her equipment. Once in the orchid garden, Rani immediately cut out the flower stems that are no longer flowering while Jihan goes around looking at the flowers of orchids that are flowering. Everything looks beautiful making Jihan feel happy.
His heart had already begun to be entertained by seeing such a beautiful orchid flower. Jihan looks so happy. Then Rani approached him and said.
“You have a hobby of planting Jihan flowers, let me love you. Choose which one I'll get later,” bargain Rani.
“Lain times aja Rani. For now I am still lazy to do anything,” obviously Jihan is not excited.
“You don't like that Jihan. You have to comfort your own heart. Create an atmosphere that makes you happy. You should never look back because our lives are for the future and you should always be optimistic. Never give up. Trust in the power of God. God will not give trials beyond the limits of our ability as his people.”
Hearing Rani's advice, without feeling tears Jihan immediately dripped.
“But my future is ruined Rani..”.
“Who said. You still have a future.”
“But which guy wants to be with me because I'm no longer a girl.”
Smiling, Rani tries to strengthen Jihan.
“Every human has a soul mate including you. One day you'll find your soul mate, Jihan. You should never be pessimistic because you feel you are no longer a girl. There are plenty of guys out there who want to be with you. The important thing is that you must sincerely accept this ordeal, Jihan,”, Rani said.
“But there's still something I'm afraid of Rani..”
“Otherwhat are you afraid of Jihan?” ask Rani curiously.
“I'm afraid that later I'm pregnant Rani.”
Rani immediately fell silent at Jihan's words. While thinking a while later Rani found a new idea.
“Jihan, how about we go to the obstetrician aja.”
“Ngapain we go to the obstetrician?” ask Jihan in wonder.
“We ask the obstetrician so you don't get pregnant. It could be later the obstetrician will give you a drug that makes you not pregnant.”
“But I'm afraid of Rani..”
“What are you afraid of again Jihan?”
“You know where?” is from
“I once listened to my mother tell me about it with my aunt. He said there was a friend of his son, my mother, who was like that. Because you do not want to get pregnant, ask for medicine from a doctor. Turns out her efforts failed because she remained pregnant and her child after birth was disabled,” explains Jihan.
“I'm so confused Jihan heard your story.”
“Ya is Rani. If I were really pregnant then I would raise my own child.”
“If it is your decision, I will always appreciate it. You should never hesitate to ask for my help because I will always be ready to help you. But I hope you are not pregnant,” said Rani.
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Arriving at home the atmosphere of the house is very quiet. Jihan who had just returned from Rani's house immediately went inside and called her mother. But her mother didn't hear her voice so she went to her mother's room. It turns out that in the room he didn't see his mother either.
After not finding his mother either in the house or in the yard of his house then Jihan sent a message through wa asking where her mother was. It turned out that her mother was going to the house of Nisa's mother who was a close neighbor.
‘What's the matter at Nisa's bu's house. Why mom and dad go there,’ Inner Jihan is curious.
Then Jihan went into her room and fell on the bed while playing her phone. Not long after, Jihan who was cool playing mobile phone then felt sleepy and finally she fell asleep.
When the dzuhur adhan rang in the Jihan mosque woke up. Then Jihan directly performed the dzuhur prayer. The completion of the Jihan prayer directly offers prayers to God to be given ease in dealing with this problem. Crying, Jihan prostrated herself to God so that her fear would not occur. Jehan also asked God for forgiveness and felt very sorry for what happened to him.
Having satisfied his heart to God, Jihan immediately folded her face. His feelings were calmer now than before. Although she was worried that later she would get pregnant but after performing the dzuhur prayer, her feelings were calmer because everything had been handed over to Allah.
Not long after Jihan finished praying dzuhur, her mother and father came home from Nisa's house.
“Tok. Jihan ...” call her mother from outside the room.
“Shortly Bu...” Jihan opened the door to her room.
“You've been home a long time Jihan?” ask mother.
“Udah Mom. Ten o'clock Jihan has arrived home,” replied Jihan.
“What events are there at home bu Nisa, Bu?” ask Jihan curiously.
“Dinda's wedding ceremony,” Jihan's mother replied as she walked into the living room.
Jihan directly walked behind her mother towards the living room. Her father was watching tv. The three immediately chatted in the living room while watching tv.
“Dinda married Bu?” jihan asked in disbelief.
“Iya Jihan and this morning ma'am Nisa came here to tell father and mother to attend Dinda's wedding,” explained her mother Jihan.
Seeing Jihan who was like she could not believe her mother immediately said. “Dinda is already pregnant hence by her parents directly married to cover up the shame.”
Hearing her mother's words Jihan's heart immediately hurt and her chest felt tight to withstand the pain very deep. Cold sweat immediately flushed all over his body for fear that later he was pregnant with a juda like Dinda. If Dinda is pregnant but there is a man in charge, while if Jihan is pregnant who will be responsible because Jihan does not know who has desecrated her.