Still Wishing He Back?
36. When the Heart Is Tied to Feelings

He said, when the hearts are already tied to each other, it will be easier to connect, even if it is in a considerable distance though. But, can it be like that?

The same question also wants Airin to ask himself and also on his feelings that are currently so hurt against people he likes. He seems to be still hoping, with very great hope, that the existence of the majesty for him can be reunited with the person he has been waiting for. However, his heart is now hurt by the same person. Until the hope to be back with the person he loves, it looks difficult.

"Mama, Arka is really happy with her new shoes." Excited Arka who looks happy to get new shoes.

"Oh yeah? Then, mommy was happy to hear that too."

Airin gently stroked the top of the head of the child who was tightly hugging his two new shoes. He suddenly fell silent when he saw the face of the child who was happy.The expression showed his sadness and guilt to the child.

"Arka, if..." Airin suddenly stopped his sentence, as if unable to continue the word he wanted to say to the child about his biological father.

"If..." Arka is seen waiting for the continuation of the sentence Airin.

"It's nothing, really. Mama just wanted to say that Arka wanted something to just say the same to mama." Airin also undoes his intention to talk about his biological father.

"Ok, Arka will say to mom later." Arka's smile returned her mother's words.

Ma'afin mama Arka, mama seems to have not been able to tell you about your biological father.

Airin's feelings become more raging and get a strong enough inner upheaval on the problem he is experiencing right now. He still looks confused about how to deal with the situation now, especially his own feelings are currently injured, so he does not know where to start if he wants to tell a story. Remembering for almost 5 years he did not see the figure he had been waiting for his presence, so the great hope to meet him was always there for him.

However, that hope seemed lost, because he who had to face the harsh reality of the man he had been waiting for so long did not recognize himself. He became angry, upset and harbored a much more hurt feeling than at their first meeting after a long separation.

Back then, I thought maybe he just didn't recognize me? However, it turns out that he really doesn't know me.

Because of the condition that is not possible when the two meet with Darren, Airin can not ask further or just try to invite him to talk to find out the reason of Darren who suddenly disappeared and left him.

"Once again I can't talk to him." He said a little regretful.

Airin was quite surprised to see Darren's face for the second time after all this time. It made him fixated for a moment, until finally giving an angry expression when he heard Darren who turned out to really do not recognize him. All he thought about at that moment was to get away from his sight.

Airin, who was contemplating after returning from delivering a flower order and buying shoes for Arka, looked back at the face of his son who was playing with his toy. Feeling a considerable inner upheaval towards the child, because it has not been able to tell the truth about his biological father.

They were that close, but..

Airin again remembered the meeting he had with Darren earlier. Although already in the same location and a fairly close distance, but still feels quite far for himself and also the child. When I remember it back, I don't know why it makes me feel sad.

Should I tell this to aunts and uncles, huh?

He turned to his aunt and mother whom he had not told about the news of his meeting with Darren. Since his first meeting, he has not dared to tell his aunt and mother, but now he tries to consider speaking honestly to his aunt and mother about their meeting with Darren.

His long breath, as if to calm his frustration.

......................

...If the heart has indeed been bound by feelings, hopefully those feelings can be conveyed well to the owner of the heart, which has now been far from sight....

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"Why?" Lucas who came to Darren's room caught Darren's expression looking confused by holding his ear.

"I don't know, it's like someone's talking about me." Reply Darren who also felt confused himself.

Lucas slightly scrunched his forehead, feeling strange.

"Oh yes, tonight you will have a meeting with a client. He's a pretty important client, so you should come, ok." Lucas said later, trying to tell him what his goal was coming to Darren's room.

"What time?"

"She said she wanted to meet at 8 tonight."

"Just set it up."

"Ok, ready."

Lucas, who had said his goal, was about to return to his room, but suddenly he remembered something and stopped his steps, which then made him turn around and walk back towards Darren.

"Eh, today I slept in your apartment, huh?"

"Well! Whynot? What happened to your apartment?" Darren looked up at Lucas who was standing in front of him with a surprised look on his face.

"Suddenly there's been a problem with the waterways, so there's been a little renovation."

"So, you mean that, you're gonna live in my apartment?" Kernyit Darren begins to understand the direction of Lucas' conversation.

"Absolutely. Yes, you can, because it is very lazy if you have to stay in a hotel. Just a few days, okay." Pinta Lucas to Darren.

"Ogah, sono lives in a hotel, after all my room is only one."

"Damn you, watch out if you need something like me." Gerrutu Lucas looked annoyed at Darren. He forgot to speak formally to Darren who was his own superior.

"One day, I'll give you a break to live in my apartment." Said Darren who finally gave a break for his friend.

"One day doang! yasudah, rather than sleeping on the street." Despite the protests, Lucas finally resigned and accepted an offer from Darren, considering he also has not found a place to stay for his sleep tonight.

"It's good to understand." Tinmpal Darren with his calm demeanor.

"Thank you my friend, yes." Lucas gave his smile to his best friend.

"You're gone, back to where you were." Expel Darren.

"Ok, ok, this is going, too." While forcing his smile, Lucas left Darren's room after saying about his meeting report later and his goal of staying at Darren's house.

As soon as Lucas came out of his room, the atmosphere of his room became quiet again. Darren suddenly paused for a moment his work, and was seen pondering something with his serious expression.