Surai Kasih Tiga Lives
Episodes 123. Understands.
Behind every darkness, there must be hope of light approaching.
Like a night that harbors a longing for the stars in its dark sky.
Like a heart niche that buries suffering, it will leave a memory, even if it is only a wound.
Because not always black is a bad thing, nor is pain and hurt always a torture.
Sometimes it is darkness that leads us to find light, even if it is just a point.
And in fact, because of a wound and pain, we are able to appreciate the little things that seemed ordinary before.
Perhaps only with darkness in life will we appreciate the light that greets us, perhaps with pain of injury, we become wise and alert.
Everything is how we respond to circumstances, because they are all the colors of life-forming colors.
Without darkness, there would be no difference between day and night, nor without hurt and suffering, how we understand the meaning of sadness and happiness.
Emperor Murongxu began to understand that, he began to understand the pain he had inflicted on others.
He, with his strength, power, wealth and extraordinary abilities, always does whatever he wants.
Even if he never thought about the feelings of others, at least never crossed concern about the thoughts about his actions, from those around him.
For him, everything about himself, his heart, and his happiness.
In fact, considering everything he had done for Ziaruo the empress, he now understood.
Although everything was for her beloved woman, but was that what the woman wanted?, was everything in accordance with the empress' heart.
In confusion and early understanding, things start to feel wrong.
''I am not wrong, everything is for him, I do everything to protect him, from people with thoughts and intentions ko*r it." Mumbled wailing.
His lips launched a certainty, but he understood his heart that was beginning to understand, to deny everything.
There was a crush there that grew.
In his anger he muttered again. ''Ruoer.is you tormented with me all this time.''
Murongxu got up from his sleep, and sat down on the edge of the bed.
He recalled every action he had taken to guard the empress.
From the beginning until, ending up receiving punishment from Baixio, he began to worry.
His every action was indeed for Ziaruo, even he was willing to do anything for the woman, but why in fact it hurt the empress.
He remembered every action taken by the empress, be it just apologizing to others silently (unbeknownst to him, although in the end Murongxu knew, from the shadow guard), to feel sorrow and be punished by the Master.
Everything due to her being too selfish, forcing her personal thoughts, taking decisions without consideration from the empress, sometimes even without knowing the truth of the concerned (Ziaruo).
''It turns out that everything hurt you, and I who always say this sincerity, it is precisely I who hurt you the most.'' Furthermore, this time there was clearly a voice full of regret from his lips.
Murongxu, in the midst of his downturn, realized every mistake he made.
In the midst of the lowest point of his life in the mortal world, he found the ladder of connecting his heart and self-understanding about his woman.
Amidst the darkness of his destiny now, Murongxu found a bright spot, which broke through the deepest recesses of the heart.
He realized that everything was not always about him and Ziaruo alone, there were still many hearts, and feelings other than theirs.
And in the heart it is not just about love, and the love of women and men alone.
Murongxu began to understand the meaning of affection with various meanings.
Love Wangde with obedience and care, without expecting the same reply.
The affection of the Wenxing store waiter, began as an honor and thanks for the help given.
Everyone has their own reasons and ways, but one thing is certain, none of them will refuse, if asked to sacrifice for his queen.
Recalling that, Murongxu felt that something was now pressing down on his heart, he recalled, I don't know how much his hands had taken the lives of people like them.
With the personality of the empress, whose light hands help others, and full of sincerity, of course, there will be many people who care for the woman.
Didn't he love Ziaruo also for his kindness and frustration.
A feeling of hatred for himself began to show a leaf bud in his heart. It takes root slowly with every memory it has done in a previous life.
By pressing his chest firmly, he muttered again. ''Ruoer...are you ashamed and tormented with me first?.''
There was a clear picture of regret in the eyes of the man, with eyes that began to look glass, he again said softly. ''I really don't realize everything, I really don't understand everything.''
''Did you choose him (Jiang jing wei) because of my stupidity?, do you not want to come back with me again Ruoer?.'' Murong continued in a pitiful voice.
The more he remembers each of his actions, the less confidence he has.
His heart felt a sense of grief, regret, and fear.
For the great Murongxu, this was his first time feeling that way, he would probably choose to be injured on his body with thousands of blades of sword blades, compared to feeling the feeling he was now.
A feeling of guilt, regret, and shame mixed, with the fear of losing the empress forever.
It was as if it was shedding all its arrogance, as well as arrogance all this time.
However, who would be able to injure him, up to thousands of sword wounds on the Cloud emperor's body, that would be impossible.
He was one of the emperors with incomparable abilities, the man with healing on his wounds with a divine miracle.
Even Baixio, the Master who had the title of a great god drop, was not necessarily able to do so.
Murongxu was a figure that was feared, by the entire fourth inhabitant of the Cloud empire.
Because of this, no one ever rebukes or expresses dissatisfaction, for any of his actions.
And that, made him the figure he is now.
Without notice, her tears melted down her cheeks.
''I didn't expect, that everything would be like this, I just wanted to make you happy, look after and protect you Ruoer, I didn't know that everything was this bad.'' Murongxu said with a cry that he could no longer bear.
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Meanwhile, inside a carriage, which was now moving further and further away, the eastern border of the Xili empire.
A woman with glassy eyes, feeling the pain in her heart, there was a bitterness on the beautiful face that was now standing together, with a man there.
Ziaruo heard every bit of heartache from the Cloud emperor, he also understood what was going on in Nancang.
To be honest, he wanted to go and see the man. But he immediately abandoned his intentions.
Ziaruo understood and knew very well, that in this life, there was no union between the two.
Destiny is not on her and Murongxu's side.
And now she is also the wife of the man who is now asleep while putting his head, on his lap.
With a clear grain on his cheek, he looked up at the sky of the carriage, and muttered inwardly. ''Why are you aware of it for so long?, why wait until it stretches a long distance between us?.''