The 40 Days of the Natiphas
The refer?

I was shocked when Adam took my hand, the change that happened so quickly left me still in shock. I know, Adam tried to regain my heart, I secretly smiled obliquely. Not long ago he said talaq, but his attitude seemed as if there was no problem, I quickly pulled my hand and took a little distance. 

Adam took my hand again but I quickly hid it, I was not a stupid woman who did not understand what happened next. 

"Sorry to me." I lowered my gaze so as not to see the look on his face, afraid that the love would still remain and grow. 

"I know how you're feeling right now, let alone our son being unwell."

"Just get to the point." 

"Hem, look .. After I've considered everything and it's for the best, I'd like to refer you back. I am not a bad husband nor am I a bad father, I will accept Kanaya with all my heart." 

I looked at the face of Adam who apologized to me, so arrogant and haughty. Is he trying to avoid the fact about Kanaya who is indeed his biological child. Inevitably he had to accept Kanaya, as it was his biological child. 

"Refer Mas?" I frowned not understanding his way of thinking, maybe that's why the breakup happened. One word that has meaning, everyone would agree to it but I can't trust him nor his love, all the promises he makes are nonsense. Enough and do not want to repeat the same mistake again. 

"Yes, I only said the word prohibition once, but there is still a chance for me to refer with you." 

I was again surprised, Adam took my hand forcibly and even I tried to get away from him, but my day was not worth it. "Mas ... take off Mas!" my door raised the voice a little, the more rebellious the more he grumbled strongly.

"I didn't let go before you answered." 

"Account what? There's nothing I need to answer anymore, it's all clear." 

"Actually I don't want to say that, but you and mom are forcing me."

"Because I still have my pride." Of course I was against his wishes which were against mine.

"Come on Lun, don't be like that to me. Don't you feel sorry for Kanaya? Are you not thinking about how his future will be? Everyone must be asking where his father is and why his father and mother are separated, aren't you ashamed?" 

"Kanaya is still very small, I can play a double role to raise her. I don't close access if Mas wants to see him, and about people asking him questions later, I don't care. I uphold my pride, whatever the hell people say." 

I laughed, and then the grip slowly stretched. I don't think about his sweet words, think about Kanaya's future? Where was he when I needed him? Even my son went into the hospital and said I was a no-no. 

"Why are you laughing?"

"You're funny Mas, back when I needed you as Kanaya's father, where were you then?" 

"I .. I."

Adam started to get nervous about the question. "Rather than worrying about Kanaya, you're accusing me of not-no, saying I'm having an affair."

"Thank God that Mas already knew the truth without needing me to explain, but it won't work, Mas, I stick to my stance." 

"You're selfish Luna, not thinking about Kanaya's feelings." 

Some people who happened to look at us, I immediately pulled Adam's hand away from there. I looked at his face that looked upset and disappointed with my decision, but what could be said if all happened because of his mistake. The motto that I hold firmly is, will not come back or look back, let alone the case of betrayal.

"Enough, don't argue anymore." I put my hands together and gestured for him to leave immediately, my head feeling very dizzy when faced with him. 

"You kicked me out Luna?"

"Yes, I can say that." 

Adam's laugh scared me, what made him so eager to talk? Is there not still a Rose that is pregnant and they are eager to say that the fetus is a male gender. 

"It's so arrogant of you. Though my good intentions wanted to give you and Kanaya a living, but you became a big head." 

"Mas no longer needs to support me, I am no longer your burden. But you are guilty of not giving your own flesh and blood a living." 

"God, the day still speaks of sin, your pompous ass." 

I shook my head. "Indeed sin is invisible but it is real." 

"Ck, stop lecturing me. Hah, actually I've been good with taking you to this hospital and giving you a ride, but seeing your arrogance is disgusting to me. I'm leaving, you take care of Kanaya's treatment costs." 

I stroked my chest and thickened my patience, just offending a little bit already made Adam mad and even threatened not to finance the hospital fees, he said, I know for a fact that he deliberately did that to make me hard and wanted to see me begging him.

"I'll wait outside, you can look for me after changing your mind and you only have fifteen minutes." 

I stared at the departure of Adam who left his threat, I was determined not to return to that house again. Didn't he say he changed? Just because I rejected his referral so quickly his words immediately changed. It's getting weird, even though I've been living with Adam for over five years, but I still don't understand his true character and nature.

"Even Adam was reluctant to spend a penny on hospital costs." I let out a heavy sigh and returned to the place earlier, peering behind the translucent glass wall looking at my daughter. My tears were dripping, why my story path had suddenly changed. Quite a lot of dreams when I was married to Adam, now gone like in the swallow of the earth. I feel so sorry for my son, who is innocent. 

"How's this? Do I have to ask Blue for help?" my thinking. I ran out of the hospital, back to my employer's house to borrow some money for Kanaya's treatment. My steps stopped when I saw Adam smiling while folding his hands in front of his chest, his arrogant face like humbling me.

"Hem, you finally changed your mind as well." 

Adam smiled at me, he thought I was asking for his help. "If you want to help then go ahead, but if you want me to beg? That's not gonna happen." I ran to leave him, went to ask for help from Blue mas. 

"Damn it!" Adam cussed in annoyance, his hand hitting the air when he saw the departure of Luna who was already away.