The 40 Days of the Natiphas
Growing vibration of love

"Where are you going, Luna?" 

I was stunned to hear Blue's voice asking, I immediately looked back. Sure enough, I saw clearly that handsome figure standing in the doorway while looking at me probing. I broke out in a cold sweat when he came over, is this my next failure? I wonder why I bonded with him, is it because he loves me? 

"Where are you going to take your suitcase?" 

"Emm anu Mas .. Anu, I want to go to__." The look of the Blue mas was incredible, especially after looking at the suitcase. 

"You want to go again, what's the reason this time?" 

"It's nothing. Just want__."

"Just what do you want?" 

I have not had time to answer it, the Blue mas first pushed my body which is now cornered on the wall. I swallowed the saliva because there was no distance between us, I tried to escape from its confinement. 

"Mas, what are you doing? Let go of me." My request begged him. 

We looked at each other, Blue's gaze so deep that it made me immediately turn my eyes to the side. 

"Why do you like to run away?" 

"Huh?" 

"You want to run away again, right?" 

"Not run away, but I want to be independent." 

"Reports? Aren't you thinking about how Kanaya's fate is?" 

True also what was said by the Blue mas, but still. How can I stay where my own master doesn't like me? I was again faced with a prolonged dilemma. The steps forward and backward that I choose still affect my misfortune, but it is in my mind to find the right reason.

"You're silent for the right reasons, aren't you?" 

"Why did you decide to leave?" 

I breathe heavily. "I heard your talk, sorry I was so presumptuous." 

Immediately Blue gasped in shock, but immediately recovered his facial expression as before. I lowered my head, feeling that I was just someone else's burden and would never be the same. 

"So you heard it?" 

I'm nodding. "Yes, my lady doesn't like me. 

"Give me time to get to know you, that's all." 

"But Mas, I don't want to be the reason this family is separated." 

The worried me was very different from the expression shown by Blue mas, the man smiled to fascinate me. Slowly the two hands that locked my body slipped away, got a chance to make me rush away from him. 

"Mother is a very good person, just don't know you from the inside." 

I don't know why the treatment shown by Blue made my cheeks meet red. How not? The sweet smile inside was filled with love. I just interrupted without saying a word, of course controlling my heart beating faster. 

"Do you still want to go?"

"What if Madam Kejora doesn't like me? Even though I've been clean trying so hard to get her heart."

Instead of answering Mas Biru smiling makes me confused, why he gave a different response. "Why are you staring at me like that?"

"It's nothing." He replied as he left me very curious. 

I let out a heavy sigh, because I always made a quick decision without a second thought making me have to go back to tidying up all the clothes and other necessities from inside the suitcase. Yes, I was not consistent and also quickly made a decision since the divorce from Adam, the memories we had made both still remain in the heart. I tried to forget all those memories, but they still remained in my brain.