The 40 Days of the Natiphas
Regrets of a child

I saw Blue's panicked face, walking back and forth in front of the door of the ward where my two in-laws were handled. I know that his mind is now in a state of turmoil, especially the situation of my two in-laws is very severe. The accident left my husband unable to calm down until the doctor came out and told me everything was fine. 

I stood up from my seat, approached the Blue mas and held his shoulder. "Mas, sit down yuk!" ask me to look him in the eye, only prayer can be done at this time. "We pray for the health of father and mother." 

"You're right, Lun." 

I held my husband's hands gently, giving him comfort and peace, occasionally rubbing his shoulders. 

"I can't calm down Luna, it's all my fault. If only I had listened to your words and thought more calmly, maybe none of this would have happened." His words made me understand him. 

I saw clearly the look on his face full of regret Blue, rice has become porridge and regret always comes at the end. Going in anger is not always true, indeed that bitter fact makes the Star father and the Morning mother an accident. 

"There's nothing to be sorry about, it's all happened. We pray for father and mother!" 

"But I remain guilty, I .. I get angry too soon and forget everything." 

Mas Blue looked at me, her sad eyes harboring deep sadness. I was stunned when Blue hugged me, she was crying in my arms. Feeling guilty about what happened to her parents.

I replied with a hug as well, patting his back slowly like a child. 

"Prophey, we can definitely get through all this." 

Mas Blue is currently very fragile, I contacted White to inform him of this matter. I saw a lot of missed calls from him, immediately I called my brother-in-law.

Shortly after the phone disconnected, the doctor came out of the room and made us swarm her. I hope there is good news to be heard, because I can't bear it if the Blue mas blames him. 

"How are my parents doing, Doc?" 

My question, which has been answered by Blue mas, I saw the doctor sigh heavily while shaking his head. 

"What?" lirih mas Biru who had drowned to hear it. "What about you, Doc?" 

"I'm sorry, we couldn't save his life. He died on the way." 

I immediately caught Blue's body but unfortunately too late. I tried to resuscitate my husband who suddenly fainted after hearing the doctor's statement. 

The situation is getting chaotic, I cry knowing that the mother of the Kejora is gone, the father of the Star is paralyzed, while the Blue mas fainted unconscious. 

Luckily the doctor quickly helped me and awakened my husband, I hugged him very tightly and cried. 

"It's all my fault, I'm a son of a shit carrier." Lirih mas Biru continues to blame him. 

"This is destiny, Mas." 

"Mother .. Mother, I want to see you." 

I got permission from the doctor who was still there, I brought it according to the nurse's direction. 

"Don't force it." I said as I helped her walk, because shock made both legs of Blue drown helpless. 

In the morgue

Seen Blue mas walk alone because he does not want me to accompany him, I see from the door leaf while crying. A look full of regret and sadness as he opened the cloth that covered the body of the Morning Mother. 

"Mother …." Blue cried while hugging her mother, hoping for a miracle to come.