The Another Soul
Ch. 38

CLAKKS..

I went into the room. After no one answered my question, I felt like I needed some alone time.

I walked towards the bed, then I sat on the edge. I stared out, gazed towards the window and saw the blue sky and soft white clouds.

What are you doing, Sergio.

I think I'm a fool. Find out what they are like, but I'm not who they are. I was just a man who happened to have a face similar to Ilka.

That'sallthatis.

'Is that really all?'

Eh?

'Hey, why do you look confused.'

"Eh? I think I've experienced this."

'of course! Don't you have forgotten!'

"Ehmm.no, it's just that I'm too surprised."

I didn't lie. I was really surprised.

'Why don't you come here.'

"here? Where the hell?"

'To that place. I feel nauseous when you think like that. Now you need guidance.'

"Eh?"

I became confused.

'Come on, follow my words. Close your eyes, then call my name. We speak in your soul.'

It could be like that as well.

I followed his words. I closed my eyes, and then I said my name.

"Kaeiru."

I felt like my consciousness was being pulled. I suddenly felt dizzy, but it wasn't long. Just for a second.

"good. For the first experiment to succeed."

I opened my eyes. And all I saw was a man with white hair and blue eyes looking at me while crossing his arms.

"Oh, I met you in the form of an adult. I actually kind of miss your child-like form."

"Boy, this is my true form. You look like a pedophile, if I wear a child."

"Hey!"

I protest. What the fuck does that mean.

"Forget about it. Now, look around you. What are you looking at?"

"Heh. Okay..."

I look around. Then I realized something was strange.

I was in the meadow, I should have. But all I saw was withered grass. The color of the grass that should be green, now brownish yellow, withered.

There were also some trees, all of them withered. Even I saw one tree that turned gray, then disappeared into dust.

What's.... Whatisthis?

"Now, you've seen it, haven't."

"What... I don't get it."

"Well, shouldn't you know where we are now."

"Inside, my soul"

I answered doubtfully. Doesn't that mean.

"You're right. Now we are in your soul. It's really dry here, I just have to endure this drought."

"That's why you feel nauseous."

"Yes, so tell me. About your anxiety all along."

"...."

"Come on, I don't want to live in a place like this. You know, before this place was a beautiful place. Green clumps grow here, shady trees, and small flowers are colorful. Now, there's only drought, as far as the eye can see."

"That's the true state of your soul."

"I don't know, all this time I had something beautiful inside me."

Kaeiru laughed a little. "Well, you're just a human being. Do you know it's inside of you? Of course not."

He's correct. All this time I never knew myself.

Kaeiru walked over, she stood beside me. Then sit with one leg bent. Both of his hands were behind, holding his body.

"Now, let's talk. How about a cup of tea?"

I smile. Then followed him, sitting and staring at the dried grass.

"I don't want a fake tea. I want real tea."

"Just go to the real world. Here is only the soul, we will not feel hungry or thirsty. I just made tea to start a conversation."

After that came two cups of tea and one small teapot. He poured it out and then gave it to me. I took it, then drank a little.

"So?"

Kaeiru asked about my problem. The thing is, I don't know what my problem is.

"I don't know where to come from."

Kaeiru laughed hearing that. "Of course you don't know. Because all the problems that happen you always ignore."

"...."

I'm speechless.

"I say this because I'm always with you. I think you're a very good liar."

"Huh?"

"You must be confused, right?"

"of course. I never lie."

I saw Kaeiru smiling a little. He drank his tea, then looked at me seriously.

"Sergio, you unconsciously lied to yourself."

"....!"

"First, when you say it's okay. Actually you have a problem, and when you want to go to Egolas. You want to reject it, your rope lies. When you're on Orga's back, you feel like you don't deserve it. And lastly, when you lost Mira."

"Enough."

"Enough! Stop that!"

"What's? Wh why? I said something right. Mira left, and your grandfather left you. Alone, no one's accompanying."

"ENOUGH!"

I pulled Kaeiru's collar. Right now I feel angry and sad at the same time. Without a doubt my tears flowed. Kaeiru looked at me casually, as if it didn't matter with my attitude.

"See. You're lying to yourself. You must want to know how you lied to yourself, right? Answer's easy. You always say 'I'm fine' or 'he's done'."

Kaeiru patted my head slowly, then rubbed it slowly.

"Sergio. What I want to say is. Be honest with yourself. You're too tired, not to mention your three guards. They don't mean bad. They just want to protect you."

"Protect? Aren't they just forcing me! They all forced me to always be in their protection! They're hiding something from me! What protects!"

"Sergio. But why are you so happy."

"...."

Yep. Why I feel happy. I feel happy when they come. I'm happy when Rakka cooks me food, I'm happy when Fahrez talks stupidly in front of me, I'm happy when Orga feels worried about me.

I let go of my quarrel. Let Kaeiru sit as before. I looked down, thinking about everything.

"That's how you all feel. Sergio, just accept all your feelings. Don't lie to yourself."

Kaeiru shook my head left and right. I heard him laugh.

"Now, it feels like I'm the one giving out an outpouring of heart."

"It's not fair."

"Eh?"

I raised my head, then looked at Kaeiru. "You didn't tell me about yourself."

"Umm.it...."

"Why? Don't want to tell?"

I saw Kaeiru seemed to be panicking. He looked in all directions, then refocused on me.

"Well, I'll give you one clue about me."

I don't know why I feel excited.

"I was..bzzt..."

"Eh?"

"You understand."

"Wait, I didn't hear that. There seems to be wind."

"It's time to go home."

"Hey! Wait a minute, eh? Whoaahh! Why did I disappear like this. Oi! Kaeiru!"

From my feet, it slowly turned into particles of light. I panicked to see him.

"Qc..! I told you about myself."

"I didn't hear it!"

"Nothing's the second time."

My body began to disappear in my stomach.

"Hey! Kaeiru.!"

"Tidaak.deengaarr..."

Kaeiru turned to look at me. He even covered his ears. Fucking kaeiru!

It has finally reached my neck, just waiting for the time I will disappear from this world.

"Kaei-!"

I disappeared, completely.

The last thing I saw was Kaeiru who was on her back and I seemed to see red hair?

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