The Atrocious Duke'S Wife
Chapter 59: Her Heart Voice (End)

...I Become the Wife of the Atrocious Duke...

...Her Heart Voice's...

The two bodyguards beside me faithfully grabbed my arms so hard that I could feel my bones as if they were about to crumble.

I could see many nobles looking at me with fearful, disgusted, incredulous looks, and even scornful looks.

Actually, I don't care about anyone but one person. When I think about it, that's when our eyes meet.

What's wrong with her? He kept shouting and looked like he was on a rampage, even when our eyes met he was getting crazy.

Is he crazy because of me? If so, I don't know why I feel guilty. But. I also did this for him.

I'm doing this for our good. Because I no longer want to lie to myself by pretending to be Cassandra la Devoline and continuing to accept her love.

That's a very taboo thing. But I have enjoyed it lately. Maybe this is my destiny in this world.

Maybe this is my way back to my home world. Have I made the right decision? Are these all things that I should have done?

I don't know, but somehow my heart says that. That's why I did it.

I put a smile on him. I don't know what my smile looks like right now, but I still want to paint it.

He screamed again, which made me feel claustrophobic. But I tried to shake it all off, and the two bodyguards beside me dragged me back forcibly to the dungeon.

Before long, I was thrown into a cold, dark cell. Like a moment later, there were some people approaching me.

I don't know who they are, but they suddenly came and asked me if I killed His Majesty or not.

"Say, did you kill His Majesty the King of Erosphire, Duchess?"

He asked, and I just kept quiet. Because I didn't know I had to answer, because my mind was always on the figure of a madman like that.

I don't even know if I should answer honestly or not and end up being quiet.

"Akh!"

I couldn't help but scream when a dearest whip hit my skin. A sense of heat and pain attacked, and some incisions were made again until I felt weak.

My tears can't stand, this pain is so painful. The cold wind caressed my skin, but instead of feeling comfortable, the pain became more and more I felt.

They asked me a few more words, but I could not hear them clearly. My vision was blurry, obstructed and choked by the crazed pain.

Before long, now it was their screams that I finally heard. Although vague, but I can still hear his screams.

"What did you guys do to him?!"

And that's when I saw a tall, fixed figure who seemed to be kicking people who had just questioned me.

"Mir...!" With a clenched voice, I managed to mention a name as well. It turns out that the figure is him.

"Go."

That was the word I could hear, and with my blurry eyes, I could see some people running away.

"Arlen... What are you doing here...?" ask her. Didn't know if he heard it because my voice was running out.

The cell door that was originally tightly closed is now forced open and dropped, causing a fairly loud noise.

My body was instantly buried with his warm, broad chest, the necklace of his hands on my body like a wing that was giving me warmth and protection.

"I'm so worried about you." she whispered to me. I can feel my shoulders wet. Is she crying?

What is your water for? Does that matter to me? Hey, please.don't cry.

Please.my heart is getting slashed. When reality befalls, that your tears are not falling for me.

"You take it easy. I'm fine..," I told him. I must try to calm him down, so that my tears do not fall.

I rubbed his smooth cheek. Her cheeks. Makes me seem like I can't stop touching it and dig for fame out of it.

But the pain came back I couldn't stand. So the moans came back from my lips.

"I'm sorry, it's just that my whole body hurts...."

I can feel him slowly moving away, and his hold is loose. I hugged her back tightly, reluctant to let go. Even though these wounds continue to be an obstacle.

"No. Let it be like this. I want to stay like this. please. He did, making me a little happy.

"What really happened to you?" tanyakanya.

What am I supposed to answer? Do I have to answer that I am being tortured? Then, when he heard it.. Will he go back crazy?

I don't want that to happen. So I just kept quiet. But shortly after that, a lie came back from my lips.

"I'm fine. You take it easy...."

The smile was painted again, not knowing if he could see it or not.

He looked at me deeply, making me a little confused. So I looked up to return his sight.

What is he thinking?

"Arlen...?" ask me when he doesn't talk. His palm came down and went through my skin. I couldn't hold my ring, because this wound was so painful.

His tears fell again a drop down his cheek, until shortly after that his hand turned to my nape.

Her fingers were stuck in my hair, then pressed and brought my face closer to her.

Her lips pressed against mine, so I could not resist and could only hold my hand on her neck high enough.

"Don't feel your pain, just feel my lips" he ordered. I can only nod.

But not long after that, my breath gasps. It is very difficult for me to breathe a lot in this situation.

"That's enough... Arlen..," I see. He put his lips away and said.

"Let's go home" he said. How do I respond to that? I bowed, and I could feel him touching my hair.

"A-arlen. l-better you go home alone...."

"Whatchu mean? You can't possibly leave me here alone!" the sergeant couldn't believe it.

It makes me more worried and willing. "Please...! Arlen.. please leave me here...." I couldn't help but cry, and she just kept quiet.

"You love me, don't you?" I tried to convince him.

"Yes, I love you." Even though I knew that word wasn't for me, I was so happy that I couldn't help but smile.

"Then you trust me.... Don't you?"

"Yes." Yeah."

Quit crying. Why am I always so easy to cry? It turns out that feelings and emotions are the most special things of a human being.

Even he also took part in lowering his tears, making me unable to stay still to wipe his flowing tears gracefully.

"If so, Arlen.... Trust me, I will definitely come back to you. Leave me here. Wait for me."

A lie accompanied by a kiss full of feelings, what is it including fun?

"alright. I trust you, therefore soon return to me."

I nodded, I could no longer tell her the lies that gave me sincerity.

I smile, hoping that it can repay the sincerity that he lays.

...🥀...

Back at the initial issue, it was said that I was guilty. I've been branded as the mastermind of the assassination of His Majesty the King.

Well. I guess. It will happen, I don't care anymore. If I die or not, I don't care.

My arm was again forcibly pulled, and my body was dragged towards where the execution would take place.

There was a pole right in front of me, which made me slightly shudder in horror.

But that fear was instantly defeated by a deep sense of despair.

Before long, there was suddenly a man barging in. And he came straight to me and cut off the hand that was blocking my arm.

I was a little surprised, and the bodyguards started to surround and brandish swords towards him. But strangely he did not look so afraid, instead he knelt down and asked my situation.

Where did your courage come from?

"Arlen... What are you doing here...? Didn't I tell you to wait for me?"

"Waiting?! You mean waiting for you to die beheaded here?!" his screams jolted me.

Do you care about me that much? The me who can't do anything, the me who doesn't have the courage like you, the selfish me.

"Arlen..," I rubbed his cheek again. I have to how do you not care about me anymore?

"No, you should go home with you. I'm not gonna let you go again, I'm gonna lock you up. I'll protect you, because I know you're completely innocent" he said.

He then stood up and turned around, hiding my body behind it.

"Mr Duke...! Unhand her! He is the murderer of His Majesty the King! Traitors should be punished! He deserved to die!"

"will die? Don't talk to you too much, Bangs*t."

Jem!

Brukh!

The advancing bodyguards fell just like that when their bodies were pierced by the sword.

"Arlenin...."

"I'll protect you."

"Fuck!" my cry was trying to make him at once self-conscious. My tears came back down, so I lowered my head in an attempt to hide them.

"You.. believe me, don't you?"

"Yes. I trust you so much, and you have to trust me right now."

I looked up, looking at his face for the last time.

"You love me, don't you?" Your palm rubbed his cheek one last time.

She smiles. "Yes, I love you so much. So that I can destroy the world."

"That means... You'll accept my entire request, won't you?"

"Yes, if it makes you happy."

"Then I'm sorry... Arlen." Finally, the time is right. I can finally say this.

"Ap-"

Kurampas sword then pushed his body with all his remaining energy until he fell down, and put the tip of this sword on my neck.

"A. what are you doing... Cassandra...?"

My crying is getting louder, the sobbing I've been holding out of my lips. That's enough.. I have to end all this right now...!

I don't want to be selfish by accepting your love for another soul...!

"I'm sorry... Arlen. But I did it for your own good.I don't want to be selfish...."

Please forgive me...

"One more time.I'm sorry.... But. I really should...."

I'm sorry.... I'm not strong anymore. Thanks..for everything.

"Thank you.... I love you, Arlen de Floniouse."

Your name will always be remembered.

"Guard, take him!"

This sword remains faithful in front of my neck, lest he rebel. Right now, I'm threatening him.

The other bodyguards began to forcefully pull me over and then forced me down.

My head was in the middle of the wood that was given a bolt, with a sharp iron that was directly above me.

Just wait for the time it falls and separates my body.

"Do the execution."

"Don't! Please don't... Cassandra!"

I'm sorry. but I have to.

"BABYDRA!!"

Goodbye goodbye....

Without a sound.wish these moving lips could convey a message from my heart to her.

"I love you."

...🥀...

"Why is your fate so tragic? Why is fate so cruel to you two?"

That voice again. Where am I? What the hell happened to me? Oh. I just remembered. I just died decapitated.

Where is this? Is this heaven? Or hell?

I don't know, but I can still hear that voice ringing in my mind.

"Real, without memory this remains impossible. It's my fault, I should have also restored your memory back then."

Whoareyou? Where is this actually? What memory do you mean? Whose destiny do you mean?

"Therefore, know all the truth. Incidentally, the truth is already in front of your eyes. Dig up that truth, then...."

The voice hung up his words, I could only listen and be quiet.

"I'll give you another chance. Because your love is so sweet, and so bitter."

The deg!

"Huh.huh...."

In... where am I...? Akhs! Immediately I held my head which was very painful, what just happened to me?

This spot...

I tried to recall it with a very blurry mind. But before long, the mistrust hit me.

Isn't this my room?! I-I mean, my real room. Yeah, no wrong anymore. This bed, is really mine.

What exactly is going on?! Then all those events...Is it all a dream?!

Even though my head wanted to break, I still forced myself to stand up. I quickly ran to the bathroom and saw my reflection in the mirror.

I opened my mouth and saw what was inside. Missing.my molar teeth are not there.

That means it's not all a dream! Then... What happened?! He... does he really exist?

Is that all just a dream?

Oh yea...! The wound! I opened the clothes that wrapped my body then with great difficulty I saw the reflection of my back in the mirror.

There is... The incision is there! But strangely the former part of the neck was not there.

I asked again..What really happened?

When I stepped up and wanted to sit on the surface of my bed, I suddenly kicked something.

This book...!

This is the book that got me into that world! Impatiently, I opened the book and read through the word-by-sheet written in it.

No.. no way!

No way! This is all impossible! How did this happen?!

My tears came down with my mouth, which filled my mouth in disbelief.

Not likely...

How can... this book be my diary in that world...?!

No...! Arlen...! What have I done...! 

Please tell me this isn't real...! Hey..huh...! Tell me this is all a dream!

Please.this is all impossible....

Although my heart could not read the words in the book, my mind kept urging me to read them.

All my plans.my daily experiences are written right there. Makes me come back to tears.

So all this time... Cassandra La Devoline is myself? All this time...the woman he loves is still me...?

That means..the man who was crying and the helpless girl was Arlen who was crying when I fell into the abyss that day?

"Akh!"

My head wants to be broken, it hurts...! What else is this?

The whole memory, the whole incident, just suddenly attacked and continuously entered my mind.

This. is the memory before I fell into that abyss of time.

I was foolishly slandered by Anastasia, tortured by Arlen, then I became quiet.

And that day, where Anastasia said she wanted to take me for a walk. It turned out that he pushed me into a deep abyss.

The marriage of Arlen and Anastasia. Even my heart could now feel how painful I was at that time.

Why just now? Why is this memory coming back to me now?

My eyeballs moved back and forth reading the writing.

But on the last page, I was a little confused. What'sthis...? My feelings I never wrote these words.

...π...

...The first winter without you......

...It didn't feel like winter was saying hello. Hey, Love. Do you remember the first time we expressed feelings in the middle of winter?...

...Even though I gave up my life that day, it was not in vain. Because you returned my love and kissed me....

...At first, I thought winter was my lucky season, but who would have thought it was the season where I would lose you too....

...The snow around you becomes red, accompanied by your head rolling on the ground. It has been my nightmare for a year....

...My love... Can I hope that I can see you again?...

...I love you so much....

...π...

"I'm sorry...! Hiks... please.. forgive me...! What I've actually done...!"

Then...did I also hope to see you again?

...π...

...Second winter without you......

...Two years have passed. My love...do you have no intention to meet me in my dreams?...

...I miss you so much. But I also have to endure, there's something I have to do....

...Wait for me. I will definitely catch up with you. Feeling the warmth of your arms. Feel the sweetness of your lips, feel the sincere feeling you are pointing at me....

...But before that. Can you wait for me? I promise, I'll see you soon....

...I love you so much....

...π...

I want to meet you too. I also want to see you again...!

...π...

...Third winter without you......

...My goal has only been reached in half, and it doesn't feel like three years have passed without you by my side....

...Sorry, Love. Have you been waiting for me for a long time? Or have you forgotten me?...

...But it's okay, even if you don't remember me, I'll still remember you....

...I will still love you. Oh yes, did you reread the letter you sent while I was on the battlefield....

...Reading it makes me miss you even more. Ah... Can't you just visit a dream once? I'd really like to meet you....

...I love you so much....

...π...

I don't know how many of these tears have fallen, but it hasn't stopped.

Reading word for word you wrote to me, made my heart break into pieces.

I. I don't know how anymore.

...π...

...Fourth winter without you......

...Four years....

...Do you know what? When I had time to attend the meeting, many women approached me....

...Hows it? Are you jealous? Are you upset? I want to hear your opinion....

...But take it easy, my soul and body will always give you one. You don't have to worry....

...How'this? I can't wait to see you again, my love....

...If only I hadn't been weak then, maybe you'd have stayed with me all this time....

...So. I'm sorry....

...I love you so much....

...π...

"You're not wrong. All this is my fault.... I'm the one who's stupid, has caused all this...."

...π...

...Fifth winter without you......

...My love, do you still remember me? Do you remember our togetherness?...

...Winter without you is really painful for me, but I'm going to stick around, for something I have to do....

...Miss you. Do you remember the orange? It's your favorite fruit, and it always reminds me of you....

...Today is the end I've been waiting for. I'm gonna chop off the fucking King's head, like he did to you....

...Hey, why don't you ever show up in my dreams? If only you showed up, maybe with that miss this will be treated....

...I miss your voice, I miss your embrace, I miss everything about you....

...And today, I will finally go to see you....

...I will live this life, in order to meet you....

...Love, all at once......

......owner of my soul....

...π...

"Stupid...! You're really stupid... Cassandra...! You are really stupid...! Idiot... "

I hit my chest that felt tight as if I was going to choke me to death right then and there.

You gave up your soul, but all I gave you was pain.

If only I could go back to that world. If only I could meet you again.

Feeling the comfort of your body that holds me tight, enjoying the smile that you put on me.

Deepen the love you gave me, repay your loyalty to me.

I really want to repeat time. I really want to do it.

So I can see you again just once.

Arlen de Floniouse.

...The End of Season 1...

...Her Heart Voice's...

...01 January 2020...