The Delayed Soul
Chapter 64

Adel walked quickly to the hospital courtyard. Although he had thought about this carefully, where he must be ready to let the man he loves still marry another woman. However, still the pain in his chest exceeded his shadow. He thought he was ready to release Varel with legowo, but in reality it hurt so much.

"Sorry," said Adel who accidentally hit another pedestrian in the hospital. He continued walking and stopped a taxi that had just dropped off passengers in front of the hospital.

Not immediately return home, Adel asked the taxi driver to drive him to the lake the other day he came with Varel.

Up there, she sat herself, blowing all the flavors on her chest. Adel did not want to bring his wounds to the house where Syafira and Lidya were.

"I thought I was being sincere, but why is this so painful?" he murmured while staring at the water that looks calm but so washed in front of him.

For a while, Adel just silently stared blankly ahead with his hands occasionally wiping the tears that dripped without he could prevent it.

Adel stood up and approached the tree where it was written the hope and prayer of Varel. He touched the book and again he read it. His heart seemed to be sliced open while reading the writing.

Adel took out the same pen that Varel had used the other day from his bag, he started moving it on the other side of the tree.

Dear hearts....

I know, you are now hurt and disappointed by the circumstances.

You must also ask why I immediately choose silence and let go.

Not for fear of getting hurt any deeper, no.

You know the answer better.

Thank you, heart, for enduring the pain so far. Next, let us share this wound with the accompaniment of prayer and hope for him that I know is also trying to accept reality.

Help me to let go without feeling disappointed, angry and hurt . Especially full of question marks why and why, because I know you are strong...

Tears continued to flow wet Adel's face as she wrote. He could no longer continue it and chose to end his ink scratches on the tree trunk. He continued to suggest his own heart if he could, himself strong.

For a while Adel pondered there before he finally decided to go home.

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Varel looked at Andini who was now sleeping in front of him after he had fed and then took medicine. The woman still looks calm in her sleep even though she knows for sure Andini is enduring tremendous pain.

He recalled the first time they met, the woman kept stealing glances at him. It was not that Varel was unaware of it, but he ignored it because he knew, serving it would be the same as giving false hope to the woman.

But, uh, it turns out that fate brought him to the point where he made a promise to marry her as his guilt because the woman who had recently lost her father figure also had to lose her mother who gave up her life to help her.

"I'm sorry for making you suffer all this time because of my attitude, I should have been able to account for what I decided at that time, but I ignored you instead. Sorry," he said in his heart.

"Mas.." apparently Andini woke up, he called Varel, but the man did not reply because it dissolved in his daydream.

"Mas.." once again Andini called out to him, his hand attached to the infusion needle moved weakly touching Varel's hand until the man was conscious of his daydream.

"Eh yes, Del.." said Varel unconsciously, and he immediately felt guilty for mispronouncing the name. However, Andini did not look disappointed at all, or rather did not show it. I don't know....

"Em, sorry. I mean, Ndin. What do you want? Drink?" ralat Varel was quick.

Andini shook her head, "Mas go home first, rest. From morning mas take care of me continue here, mas must be tired," he said.

Varel looked at his watch, apparently the day had started late in the afternoon.

"I'm okay, not tired at all" said Varel.

"But I also need a change of clothes, go home, I'm okay,"

Ah yes, Varel just realized, he was still wearing the same clothes as last night when he had an accident. Andini's right, she had to change her clothes.

"Well, later if grandma comes, I'll go home for a while to shower and change clothes" Varel said later.

Andini smiled and nodded.

Not long after, grandma came with om and Aunt Andini. They told Varel to go home because they were going to wait for Andini.

"I'm going home for a second, huh? Later that night I'll be here again" Varel told Andini later.

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With a tired face, Varel entered his house.

"How's Andini doing, Rail?" ms. Lidya who was reading a magazine immediately put down her magazine to welcome the arrival of the son.

Varel shook his head, from there Lidya knew how severe Andini's disease was.

" The day after tomorrow, I'll marry her" Varel said, and of course Lidya was shocked.

"Have you thought about it, baby?" she asked because she knew exactly what her son wanted. And mother Lidya as her mother did not want the son to suffer.

"Varel is confident in Varel's decision, ma" Varel said. His gaze suddenly shifted to the figure of the woman he loved. Adel went down the stairs with a suitcase in his hand. It's not that Varel doesn't know what that means, it's just that he wants to confirm it straight away.

Their views met, Adel continued to walk accompanied by Syafira who was seen once if the woman had just cried. Many times he asked Adel not to go, but it seems his brother's decision was already unanimous.

Varel walked closer and stopped just below the stairs as Adel's feet also set his feet there.

"Where are you going?" ask Varel.

"I shouldn't have been here in the first place, o'm" Adel said, smiling.

Varel looked at Syafira and Lidya maam alternately, "Can you please leave us both? I want to talk to him with four eyes" he said, now staring back at Adel.

Syafira and Lidya ma'am complied with Varel's request. They left the two behind, giving them a chance to talk together.

"Om has made the right decision" Adel said after Syafira and Bu Lidya disappeared somewhere. Maybe they're peeking from somewhere else, nobody cares.

"Sorry," that's all Varel can say.

Adel smiled, "Om not wrong. What is wrong is the circumstances" he said.

"I know asking you to stay by my side is selfish, but can I keep asking for it?" ask Varel.

"Sorry, I need to calm down" Adel said.

"Don't go!" Varel knew asking Adel to stay would further hurt the woman, but he still hoped to be with her.

"Andini needs more om" said Adel.

"I need to heal this wound, I can't if I stay, um,"

"Well, if I just get out of this house, I'll. As long as I can see you, it's fine" Varel said.

Adel was silent.

"Dell...."

"What way should om let me go? Even with a good talk like this can't?" said Adel. As hard as he could, he endured the pain in her heart. He knew the man in front of him was as hurt as he was.

From there, Varel could deduce if Adel would go back away from his life and maybe this time would never come back.

" You know, if you leave again, this time I can't wait for you to come back like before?" Varel.

Adel nodded, "I know," he said.

"I love you, Del," Varel touched Adel's soft cheeks.

Again, Adel nodded, "I know, I love you too. Please let me go. This time I asked him carefully," he said with a trembling tone, his eyes already hot withstanding tears.

"When are you really going?" ask Varel.

"Lusa, tonight and tomorrow I will stay at the boutique" replied Adel.

This time it was Varel who nodded, "Go!" he said in a half-unwilling tone.

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Bu Lidya and Syafira were waiting for Varel who had not yet come out of his room. Today they are going to the hospital for Varel and Andini's marriage contract. Syafira did not bring her children because the marriage will be held in the hospital, so the quota that comes must also be limited. John and Bara will witness Varel's wedding as they head to the hospital as the plane will land fifteen minutes before the start of the event.

The two women look beautiful in a kebaya uniform. Even though they did it in the hospital, they wanted to provide the best support for Varel.

Syafira wanted to take Adel to the airport, but Adel prevented him. He wouldn't be able to leave if his brother dropped him off. Adel chooses to go alone and asks her brother to accompany Varel to the hospital.

"I won't be able if you take me to the airport, please let me go alone, brother," Adel said by phone.

"Make it don't go, deck. Let's just go back to Jakarta, start your new life there," Syafira said.

Adel shook his head, "I must have come back, brother, but now I need healing, healing wounds to be able to accept this fate sincerely, because honestly it is still difficult to stay here,"

Syafira could no longer prevent, he knew how deep the wound felt by his sister.

Syafira's daydreams were up when Varel came out, the man was already wearing a suit for a later date. There was no smile on his face. Everyone knows how that guy feels now. Bu Lidya rubbed his dripping tears as he watched the son come out of his room.

As much as possible Lidya ma'am held back so as not to look sad and cry for her son. He did not want to add to the burden of his poor son.

"Are you all ready? Come on!" varel tried to smile.

Bu Lidya and Syafira nodded.

On the way to the hospital, Varel was not at all calm. He continued to look at his watch in agitation. Not her marriage, but the time of Adelia's departure.

"There's still time, go meet him, Rel!" said Syafira who saw Varel's unease.

Varel looked at Lidya's mother, the woman nodded, "Go, let us take a taxi to the hospital" he said.

Varel stopped his car, he got down and found a taxi for Syafira and Lidya's mom, "You guys go to the hospital first, I'll catch up," he said after Syafira and Ms. Lidya got into the taxi.

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Meanwhile, Adel was sitting alone at the airport waiting for his departure. Time and again he took a deep breath in little by little alleviating the pain in his chest. He knew today was Varel and Andini's wedding.

Many times Adel also tried sincerely with his destiny. He wiped his tears and stood up, preparing to leave the country again.

Adel walked while dragging his suitcase, occasionally he looked back, "What else do you expect, it's Del," he murmured.

He resumed his steps. Suddenly, someone pulled his arm and held it very tightly.

Adel knew the man was Varel. He let the man hold her for a moment.

"Thank God I'm not too late" Varel said.

"I have to go" said Adel regretfully. He saw the man was very handsome with the suit.

Varel unraveled his embrace, "Do you really have to go, Del? Should it be this way?" tannya

Adel nodded.

"I'll find my own happiness, om. Om be happy with Andini, accept him well and airy, love him wholeheartedly. Om should be able to be happy with her, don't let my sacrifice go to waste,"

"I'm not sure I could have done it if it wasn't you,"

"Om Surely can. I will always pray for your happiness from where I am. Go, Andini must have waited. Thank you for meeting me here" said Adel.

Varel slipped Adel's hair, "I love you, Adelia. Just you" he said.

Adel touched Varel's hand, which now wiped his tears, "I've always known that, and om know that I love om, too,"

Varel nodded, "I know," he said.

"Why does our destiny have to be like this?"

"I also don't know, it's probably true that love doesn't have to have,"

"Can't we really be together?"

"Let's go, let time answer it. I must go now, release me sincerely and I sincerely accept and pray for the marriage of om and Andini,"

Varel nodded, "Go, I won't prevent you!" he said glaring, his eyes were already red and poignant.

Adel nodded, he dragged his suitcase and walked over without turning his head. However, in the middle of the road he turned his body and ran to hug Varel. The man replied tightly.

Varel cupped Adel's cheeks and kissed her lips. Adel. Some time they do. Varel banged his forehead with Adel's forehead, rubbing tears that flowed in Adel's face, "Go baby, chase your happiness even if it's not me. Let me marry Andini, okay?"

Adel nodded as he pleased, "I love om," the last sentence Adel said, he stepped back without a word until the link of their hands completely detached as Adel's body moved away from Varel's face.

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