The False Lover the Culun
Chapter 40. Conveying taste

# GIBRAN POV #

The silent man said it was gold. But I have enough material and no more need to collect gold.

The longer the silence, which feels precisely the feeling of tightness because too much to keep longing in the chest.

The longer I stay, the more I don't understand this feeling, the more I think about it with logic, the more this feeling confuses me between staying still or moving even if the stakes are my heart ever broken.

Yes, my heart was broken. It was broken because I was once left without giving any sign of separation.

A separation that is never certain, because the heart can never hate, can only love without being able to express.

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I could see that Sherina was very uncomfortable being near the mother and Soraya's family who were endlessly proud of her daughter.

I finally decided to take Sherina away on the pretext of a walk.

Lucky Dad understood and supported my efforts, because since the incident of a very unfriendly welcome by Mother to him, Sherina became more silent.

It turns out that Dad agrees with me, too,

according to Dad, tonight he didn't see Sherina who was always curious, which is why Dad let us go after dinner, ignoring the mother who disagreed with him.

The car has been driven, trailing around the Seminyak area.

Many cafes and shops are lined up along the way.

I need to talk to him right away, my inner self.

It's hard enough to find a quiet street so I can pull the car over and talk to him.

Until after a while, I stopped my car in the parking lot of a closed shop.

Sherina only glanced for a moment, when I looked at her.

“Sherina ..”

“Excuse my mother,” my door.

Sherina's still not budging.

“Until when will you inhabit me?” ask again.

The situation returned silent for a while.

My grip on the steering wheel is getting tighter. I shouldn't have to take Sherina away, tomorrow things will get better on their own, I thought.

Gibran, you have to survive. Hold your emotions and anger, my mind.

“I'm not silent to you, I'm just thinking.”

Finally .... he finally wanted to answer my question, even if it was short.

“Na, once again I apologize for Mom's attitude. I had expected that Mom would refuse, but I never thought that she would do it in front of so many people,”.

“I've been honest with you, one of my goals is to cancel the matchmaking plan arranged by Mother.”

“You certainly know who my mother is, and how she always tries to keep her image.” Gibran.

“Gibran ..”

Sherina said my name in a sad tone.

“It feels like I regret leaving myself as Nana the geeky,” he said.

“It seems like I used to be stronger, I was more receptive when I was humiliated."

Sherina sighed. “You saw that?”

“Sherina who I consider great is in fact very weak. She was just silent as your mother continued to corner her,” she said in a tone full of anger.

“And I hate the fact that Sherina is me now. It feels very sick.”

I closed my net when I saw Sherina cupping her face in tears, her shoulders shaking.

I can't believe .. She's not disappointed in me.

He didn't blame or curse my mother, but he regretted himself, my inner self.

I brought Sherina in my arms, it was a little difficult for me to move because it was blocked by the seat belt.

I gently caress the top of her head, “Hei .. You are wrong if you think Sherina is weak.”

“I'm proud because you are so great at keeping your authority and your pride,”.

“Originally you know, everyone there praises you. Praising how calm you are in the face of Mom's attitude" I said.

It seems my words are quite comforting to him. The crying was no longer as sad as before.

“Silence does not mean losing Sherina. Silence doesn't mean you can't fight or you're afraid. Often silence can be a way to achieve victory elegantly.”

I could hear little by little Sherina's sobbing sound starting to weaken.

“Is that so? I thought they were all booing me,” he said.

“Yes indeed, at first. Didn't I tell you, silence is an elegant way to win. Without having to bother to dirty your hands, people so know exactly who they can trust,” continued.

This beautiful face was crying again. Although I am not the one who made you cry, but I am still the reason, my inner self.

“Gibran ...”

When I turned around I didn't expect Sherina's face to be very close to me.

So close I could feel a warm puff of breath.

Deg Deg Deg Deg, my heart beats faster.

“Do you think I can beat Soraya?” tanyakanya.

“Soraya?” my forehead frowned.

“Isn't she the woman you want to be paired with?”

I nodded in response to ‘Iya’ for his question.

“You have beaten him. Even since then you have won. You won because what I chose was you,”.

Oh, my God, what did I just say? Did I just express my feelings? My inner.

My heart that initially beat faster, now faster until I doubt if after this my heart condition will be fine.

Sherina returned to her sitting position.

He leaned his head and took a deep breath.

I vaguely heard that Sherina was clucking.

“Ck .. if that's what you mean win, then my win is fake. Because our relationship from the past until now is just a fake.”

“It is important for you to win from Soraya?”

Sherina flicked her shoulders, “Entah.”

“I just feel like my life never goes forward if Soraya is still involved there,”.

There was sadness on the pretty face that only applied thin makeup.

It turned out that all the bullying Sherina had experienced since childhood had not completely healed.

Immediately I became more and more annoyed with Soraya.

What the woman was after me. Didn't he get it all from Barra.

Sherina, please hold on until I keep all my promises to you.

“Sher-"

“Gib-“

Our words were simultaneously followed by laughter that managed to drive away the excitement.

Then the laughter suddenly disappeared the moment we met.

Sherina first averted her eyes, but I who was not ready to stop staring at the beauty finally ventured to hold her face that was about to turn away.

Sherina seemed surprised, but I could no longer hold it all.

I close my face until we can both feel each other's breath.

Cup.

I managed to kiss Sherina's lips.

Just daring to kiss 'cause I don't want Sherina to end up angry and hating me, again.

Sherina ... closed her eyes?

I realized that after our link was released.

I finally found myself throwing away an opportunity.

Especially after I saw Sherina acting timidly by looking down and avoiding my gaze.

Don't let me regret, don't let tonight I can't sleep for thinking about my stupidity that wasted this moment.

“Sherina ..”

“Ya ..”

I looked at her again before our lips met again.

Different from the previous one, this time not only Sherina but I also closed my eyes to feel how Sherina accepts everything that is happening right now without coercion.

I held his nape with one hand, and the other was trying to remove the seatbelt that was really disturbing.

Please .. I don't want this to end quickly, my mind.

Different because it is no longer a kiss, but a demanding kiss.

Demanding to find out more about each other. Hopefully after this he knows, if we will never succeed even though as hard as we have tried to refuse, lie, or hide from the feelings of love.

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