The Heart that is Hurt
Simalakama

For several days before his birth Fairi had taken leave and he often thought of Kenan for no reason. Like at this time when the fairi examined her pregnancy that was approaching the heart of labor arrived - just suddenly Fairi thought of Kenan when she saw the results of her fetal ultrasound with 4 dimensions that could see the face of her fetus, she said, Fairi smiled and the doctor said that her son was male.

"Congratulations, Miss Fairi, it's close to the day of birth. If for the next 2 weeks there are still no signs - signs we should have to give birth to her surgically because the weight is also enough." The doctor explained to Fairi after conducting an examination on Fairi's pregnancy.

"Yes, okay doctor. I'll do what the doctor thinks is fine, because this is my first experience and also I don't have any knowledge of labor." Fairi said with a smile and an impatient face waiting for the birth of her baby.

"Alright, we try to be normal first in accordance with the wishes of Ms. Fairi, and this is a vitamin recipe that must be taken regularly to speed up her birth." The doctor gave Fairi a prescription.

"Okay, thank you doctor, I'll excuse you." Fairi pamit with doctor

"Yes, be careful Ms. Fairi." replied the doctor kindly to Fairi.

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"It's weird." muttered Fairi when she reached her house

"What's so weird?" tanya bi Mina who listened to mumbles Fairi while walking into the house by carrying groceries, because when from the hospital Fairi stopped by the supermarket for monthly shopping.

"Oh, not bi. I just feel weird myself, because these days I've been thinking about Kenan, the guy doesn't know himself." Fairi sat down and answered bi Mina.

"Oh, it's natural, son, because you're about to give birth and of course every woman wants her husband to be with her in every birth process of their child, and maybe that's what Fairi is thinking, because no matter how the baby in your stomach is Kenan's son too, no matter how bad he is, he's still the father of your child." Bi Mina said while arranging the groceries

Fairi smiled miris hearing the words of BI Mina, because Fairi was conscious even though she covered and denied it was still the child she contained was the son of Kenan, kenan's flesh and blood people he doesn't want to remember anymore. But it can never be thrown away because the small eyes and tiny hands that will stare and hold it later are valuable relics of Kenan.

Fairi sighed deeply and walked towards the bathroom to bathe and perform the dhuhur prayer, and because her already very large stomach made Fairi a little trouble doing the prayer movement. "O Allah, please give ease and smoothness in the time I go through the process of childbirth, and give health and goodness to my baby, amen." that is the prayer that is always asked by Fairi in every part of her prayer.

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"What is it true that Farid said that Kenan had separated from the woman****** that? Papa didn't hear wrong, did he?" Madam Tias who heard the story from her husband was shocked and also happy.

"Hem, we haven't met Kenan ma yet, we have to talk to him and tell him that he's not his real son so he doesn't bond with her forever." Mr. Bram said and Madame Tias agreed to her husband's suggestion.

"Okay pa, then let's go to Kenan's house now pa and don't let this matter drag on for too long." Madam Tias is very enthusiastic.

"Alright, we're leaving now, papa, prepare the file first." Mr. Bram got up and went into his study.

"Yes, I'm trying to call if Kenan's at home." Madam Tias excitedly contacted Kenan's house.

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"Yes, that's how Kenan is, the kindness of a mate depends on the good we do. And every living man has his line and his record which is spelled out as Qadha and Qadar which means that Qadha is the decree of Allah SWT since the days of Azali (the first time before the creation of the universe and its contents) according by His will, about everything related to his being, while Qadar itself is the embodiment of the qadha or decree of Allah SWT in a certain degree according to His will." obviously the old man called Kenan to teach him about the deepening of the religion that Kenan had long abandoned. And during that month Kenan had studied religion because he wanted to deepen religion and strengthen his knowledge of religion.

"So that means we as humans will not be able to do anything, Mr. Ustad" asked Kenan

"Cannot do anything Kenan, as I explained earlier that His Qadar Allah can also be called by the term destiny. The relationship between qadha and qadar is one that cannot be separated and is one. Why so? Because qadha is likened to 'plan', while qadar as 'existence or reality' that will happen to us his people, because everything has been written from before we were born into the world, what is our fate and way of life."

"That means we have to accept everything that happens to us and we won't be able to change the course of our fate in this world?" Kenan lethargicly asked again

Hearing Kenan's question and seeing the look on Kenan's sad face, he smiled "It's not irreversible. As stated in the holy book of Allah SWT that nothing can change the fate of a people except those who change it themselves. So it can be concluded that the qada is a decree that has happened (his decision) and that can change it is ourselves with the effort, effort, effort, rely earnestly in order to get results that match what we want."

Hearing the words of the ustad made Kenan smile and emanated an aura of happiness because in Kenan's heart he wanted to change his separation with Fairi into a meeting and good unity that is desired by Allah SWT.

Ustad who saw Kenan smiling also smiled, "So Kenan plans to change the Qadha that has happened into a hope that can be achieved in accordance with the wishes of Kenan mas huh? You can only pray that what is expected and desired by Kenan mas materialized, but if in the end it is not in accordance with expectations then Kenan mas must also be sincere and accept. So before the Kenan mas do something for yourself it would be nice for the Kenan Beriman mas first on Qadha and Qadar."

"What do you mean, ustad?" Kenan asked in confusion.

"It means that Kenan must believe with all his heart that Allah SWT has determined everything that will happen to his creatures. Every human being, has been created with provisions and has been set in fate since the time of Azali (the ancient times before the creation of the universe) as I said earlier. So even though later Kenan has tried but, however the result, still must be able to accept it with sincerity and airy chest, Because it is the destiny of Allah SWT." obviously, Mr. Ustad and Kenan nodded because he understood what Qadha and Qadar meant that had been explained by Mr. Ustad.