The Love Carved Way
19. Disillusioned
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The morning sunlight burst into a room through the blemishes of wide open windows. The pair of closed eyes slowly moved many times as if feeling the glare of the morning sun. Finally both eyes opened with a squint. Jevin woke up from his sleep more precisely forced to move from the fall because the morning sunlight had disturbed him.
"Early morning?" Jevin stared at the window where the earth was already bright. Then Jevin turned to stare at the small clock on the nightstand near his bed.
Suddenly, Jevin's eyes widened as if he could not believe that it was 08.48 in the morning. Jevin woke up late and today Jevin had a meeting right at 09:00 which means Jevin only has 12 minutes to shower and get ready.
With a quick step Jevin went straight into the bathroom. He came out again because he forgot to bring a towel.
Five minutes passed Jevin had finished his bath. This is the fastest time Jevin's taking a shower. During this time the fastest Jevin finished the bath was 15 minutes but for fear of being late finally Jevin took a shower as quickly as possible. The most important thing is that his body is flooded with clean water or Jevin does not want to think about it.
"Honey, baby where?" Although he was busy wearing a shirt that had been prepared on the bed, Jevin would not forget his wife who was not seen around their room. But Jevin does not look for the existence of Kasha again after finding a small paper that Kasha accidentally tucked under Jevin's suit.
"Mas I'm going to leave for Brother El's house"
Jevin also breathed a sigh of relief because his wife did not disappear but is currently in his brother's house and certainly is helping to take care of his family catering.
Jevin's car drove out of his yard. Kasha noticed her husband's car that had been sauntering at a fairly fast speed.
"Alhamdulillah if Jevin's already awake." Kasha said in her heart.
"Kasha?, what are you doing?"
Kasha was surprised not to play. Slowly he looked back. Niswah was watching him.
"Sister Niswah, I went in first, brother, the food is not finished I wrapped."
Niswah smiled as she invited Kasha to enter her house. Actually Niswah was curious about what Kasha was doing, but Niswah could not ask too much, what else Kasha did not answer it means that Kasha did not want to tell him.
Kasha is not impolite for not answering questions from Niswah, but Kasha is aware that her husband's disgrace should not be spread to anyone including Niswah. Already Kasha should cover her husband's disgrace because her husband's disgrace is his dress. So if Kasha spreads her husband's disgrace, it means that Kasha lets herself go undressed until she will finally bear the shame.
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"Assalaamu 'alaikum."
Kasha raises herself from inside her brother's house when she hears a greeting from Nufael who just arrived at his house after delivering catering at Alhusayn's company.
"Wa 'alaikumus salaam, you're home?"
"Kasha Abang is home."
"Oh, brother, is Mas Jevin in the office?"
Nufael. "Nothing, said Arfan Jevin was out, again meeting the same client, oh it's appropriate you did not follow Brother earlier, because already know that Jevin was out."
Kasha just smiled faintly. Kasha was deliberately not joining Nufael to deliver lunch to Jevin's office but Kasha did not know if Jevin was not in the office or was outside because of a meeting.
"Yes, I'll go in first."
Kasha nodded. He allowed Nufael to enter his house. From the look on his face, Nufael looked exhausted. His name is also hardworking. But Kasha was proud of her brother because all this time never complained about his tiredness that Kasha hoped to be a blessing because of lillah.
"Mas Jevin has dzuhur prayer has not ya?." Kasha thought about her husband. Kasha was afraid that Jevin would not rest before God as early as dawn.
Kasha wanted to call Jevin to ask if Jevin had prayed. But Kasha said because Jevin must be meeting and can not be disturbed. Finally Kasha kept her handphone out of her pocket, but not to call Jevin but to send a chat that reminded Jevin to pray dzuhur.
"Hopefully Mas Jevin read my chat, and hopefully also Mas Jevin has prayed dzuhur. Aamiin's."
Kasha put her phone back in her pocket. Then following Nufael into the small family home of the brother.
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The sweet sound of the adhan echoed about ten minutes ago. And the prayers of four rakaat Kasha have already reached the salutation. Do not forget Kasha reciting, remembering Allah and tucking in a prayer that is never absent after completion of prayer.
Kasha's gaze was fixed towards the gold-colored flat object lying on the nightstand next to her bedroom bed. Kasha grabbed the flat object. Look for the name "Mas Jevin" in the phone's number box. After that Kasha pressed the green button to call him.
The call was not immediately connected. Kasha waited long enough for him and repeated her call. But the call connection is not connected. Until finally Kasha gave up and put the flat object to its original place.
"Mas Jevin, why don't you pick up my phone?, is he still busy?." Ask Kasha to herself. Once again Kasha thought of her husband who seemed to be busy today until his chat had not been read and his call was not lifted.
Kasha is worried about Jevin who seems to be busy working but Kasha is more worried about Jevin who is afraid of being negligent in his prayers. Kasha kept a positive mind that her husband must have prayed dzuhur and ashar. But on the other hand Kasha was also afraid if the incident had happened again. Fear because it was hit by Jevin's busyness was forgotten about his obligation to establish prayer. But Kasha tries to remain calm and entrusts Jevin that Jevin will not forget to pray dzuhur and ashar.
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A small clock hand points towards the number 10 and a long clock hand points towards the number 5. That means it's 10pm past 25 minutes. Kasha was sitting on the sofa with her eyes fixed on the tightly shut door of her house. Kasha tried calling Jevin but Jevin's handpone was inactive. Kasha's mind was floating everywhere. She was worried about her husband who could not be contacted and had not yet returned home.
"You where Mas, when your handpone is dead, O Allah protect the husband of the servant, may he be well."
The sound of the car stopping was heard from outside the house. Kasha immediately got up from her seat and opened a little curtain on the window. Kasha recognized the car that stopped in front of her house. It's not wrong that it was Jevin's car, it means Jevin's gone home. Kasha's chest cavity is relieved to see Jevin just got out of his car.
"Alhamdulillah Mas Jevin has returned."
Kasha immediately opened the door to welcome the arrival of her husband who had just returned from work. But the door was already open and Jevin went into his house.
"Assalaamu 'alaikum."
"Wa 'alaikumus salaam Mas -"
Kasha was surprised. His body was already in the arms of Jevin who was holding him very tightly. Kasha neutralized the pounding of her heart that suddenly thumped. Between surprise and nervous immediately ambushed him because he immediately got a sudden hug from the husband.
"Mas miss heavy equally dear, all day did not meet dear, it feels like Mas's chest to the tightness of holding back longs just as dear."
Finally Jevin took off his arms without Kasha thrashing first. Because Jevin knew that his wife was suffocating in his arms because Jevin was holding her too tightly.
"Honey also miss the same Mas?" Jevin asks Kasha to give a confession that Kasha also misses him as much as she feels.
Kasha just smiled faintly. Kasha is not interested in discussing the issue of longing. Unless there's something more important than that. And Kasha has to talk about it right now to Jevin. But before that Kasha invites Jevin to sit down. In order for Kasha's heart to be calmer because it had worried about Jevin.
"For why was it difficult to contact this afternoon?, I had chat Mas, Mas phone but Mas did not reply and did not pick up my phone, even the handpone Mas was not active."
Jevin just o-ria. Contrary to the upside with Kasha who has a face of anxiety with a little annoyance tucked.
"Oh that, yes dear, Mas apologise yes, this afternoon until that afternoon Mas there was a meeting and handpone Mas left in the room. So Mas did not know that Darling chat and call Mas, and just now Mas just finished meeting again the same client, Mas deliberately turned off the handpone for fear that Mas's client will be disturbed."
"Yes I'm sorry, but next time I have to tell you, so that I don't worry about the same Mas who can not be contacted."
"Yes-yes dear, I'm not going to worry you anymore."
"Have you prayed Isya?"
Jevin was instantly choked. Just sitting quietly without a word coming out of his mouth. It's like Jevin doesn't have an answer to Kasha's question. Just answer enough or not. But Jevin still felt unable to answer it. Finally Jevin just shook his head slowly to respond to Kasha's question.
"Why haven't you prayed?." Kasha asked with a sigh.
"That's darling, emh..."
"Mas forgot." Reveal Jevin later.
Kasha who heard him fell silent for a moment. Resisting the resentment you want to shed right now. Kasha neutralized her breath that was immediately congested after hearing the confession of her husband who forgot to pray isya'.
"Then, what about the prayers of dzuhur, ashar and maghrib, did Mas also forget?." Ask Kasha with the emphasis of the word in every speech.
Jevin scratched his non-itchy temple. Honestly, the face of Kasha looks creepy in the eyes of Jevin to the point that Jevin does not dare to look at him.
"Mas already pray dzuhur, ashar and maghrib right Mas?." Kasha asked once again in the hope that her husband nodded his head as a sign that he had been doing dzuhur, ashar and maghrib prayers.
Slowly Jevin shook his head. He stared at the face of the wife who immediately changed and even immediately threw away his face from her. Guilt is now raging in Jevin's heart. He was wrong and admitted his mistake.
Jevin grabs Kasha's hand. Take it gently. "Honey Mas sorry, Mas admitted wrong, Mas-"
"I apologize to God." Said Kasha who did not want to look at her husband's face. It felt like Kasha's chest was tight to withstand the deep irritation and disappointment to Jevin. Her husband had sinned greatly against God. This whole day he left his duty.
Kasha was already unable to endure the disappointment she was venting with her tears. Kasha no longer knew what to say. At once his tongue was weak and only tears could Kasha let out.
Tears that just dripped make Jevin surprised instead of playing. Jevin looked at his wife's face covered in sadness and that's why. His mistake.
"Darling why crying?, Darling Mas apologized yes, should not Mas leave prayer, Mas thought because earlier Mas did not pray dawn so all day Mas did not pray, because it is useless, Mas thought because, He has sinned."
Kasha did not expect a confession from Jevin. It turns out that her husband deliberately left the prayer because it felt useless if doing other prayers because it had not prayed dawn and had already sinned.
"Astaghfirullahal adzim Mas, not like that, Mas did not pray at dawn and Mas did sin but that does not mean Mas did not pray the other, it's called Mas deliberately worshiped God."
"Astaghfirullahal adzim Mas." Kasha said Istighfar continuously. Honestly, Kasha was very disappointed in Jevin who had thoughts that should not be like that.
Jevin rubbed his face rough. I regret what he did today. Jevin would not be able to forgive himself after seeing tears fall on his wife's cheeks and it was because of his deeds.
Both eyes glazed. Jevin couldn't see his wife crying because of him. "Darling to forgive Mas ya, Darling do not cry again yes, Mas promise Mas will not leave the prayer again, Mas promise Darling."
Kasha shakes. "Don't promise me Mas but promise to God, I'm disappointed Mas it turns out Mas hasn't completely changed."
"Darling, Mas will promise Allah Mas will not leave the prayer again, Mas has changed Dear, just today maybe Mas's faith is down and-"
Kasha immediately cut off Jevin's words. "And I should have raised my faith again, not let it go down."
Jevin looked down as if confessing his guilt which had acted on God. "Dear, Mas should have raised the faith Mas instead of letting it go down, Mas the same promise God and Mas also the same promise Dear, this incident will not be repeated again, Mas, Do you believe the same, my dear?"
"I need proof Mas's not just a promise, Mas seriously love God right?"
Jevin nodded with conviction. "Dear, I really love God."
"If you truly love God, you will obey His command."
"Yes, my dear Mas will obey the commandments of God."
Now Kasha began to look expectantly at Jevin. Kasha expects her husband to truly love God not only in his mouth but also in his heart.
"Mas may be preoccupied with the affairs of the world, but do not let Mas neglect the affairs of the Hereafter, Mas I want Mas who took me into the paradise of God, God, I not only want to be with Mas in this world but I also want to be with Mas in the afterlife, in God's paradise later."
The tears did not fall on Kasha's cheeks. Tears filled with hope so that Jevin can change for the better than before. Just like the sholihah wives out there, Kasha also wants to mate with her husband not only in the world but also in heaven.
Jevin was deeply moved by Kasha's heartwarming heart. Jevin also had no power to hold back his tears that burst out of his eye sockets.
"Yes dear, Mas also wants forever dear who accompanies Mas, in this world also in heaven later."
"From now on any bus, no matter how tired Mas, Mas will never forget God, Mas will number the unity of God, forever."
"Aamiin Allahumma aamiin." Kasha assures the hope of Jevin who is determined to turn into a better servant of faith.
"Dear forgive Mas yes, honey do not be disappointed again yes the same Mas, Mas will not forgive yourself if you do not forgive Mas and still disappointed with Mas."
Slowly Kasha started to smile sincerely. "Mas I have forgiven Mas, I am also not disappointed with Mas, but please, Mas do not make God disappointed again yes, because if God has been disappointed with Mas, Mas, not only am I leaving Mas but God will also leave Mas and no longer care the same Mas, it could be a messy life without the affection of God."
Jevin shook his head many times. Jevin didn't want that to happen. It's true what his wife said. If God had disappointed him not only would his wife have left him, but God would have left him. And what is worse if God does not care about him. Then Jevin's life was ruined at once. Jevin was well aware that he was nothing without the love of God. There was no reason for Jevin not to regret his own self-harm.
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Assalaamu 'laikum Warohmatullah Westarokaatuh
Happy friday
For the honorable singles
May you be a useful human being
Aamiin Allahumma Aamiin
On this Friday do not forget to mention Al-Kahfi
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But reading Al-kahfi is not possible???
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Loss you know if you do not read Al-Kahfi, loss exclamation loss loss
مَنْ قَرَأَ سُورَةَ الْكَهْفِ فِى يَوْمِ الْجُمُعَةِ أَضَاءَ لَهُ مِنَ النُّورِ مَا بَيْنَ الْجُمُعَتَيْنِ
“Whosoever reads Al-Kahfi's letter on Friday, he will be illuminated by the light between two Fridays.” (CHR. Judge 6169, Baihaqi 635, and al-Albani disheveled in Shahihul Jami’, no. 6470)
Wassalamu 'alaikum Warohmatullah Westarokaatuh