The Love of Luke
Resisting Emotions

The night has passed and it has been a very lonely and painful night for me.

Until the next morning I tried to return with my initial attitude and a new me, I was getting ready to go to school because I thought I hadn't really been taken out by my mom from school so I left for school, but before that I cooked a meal for myself and I just wanted to eat it I saw Master Luke coming up to me and he again snapped at me.

"Hey, why are you just enjoying your own food? Did you forget what I told you earlier huh?" Shake him at me with sharp eyes.

I didn't want to hear his chatter and just ignored him and continued to eat the food I cooked myself until he became very angry and he hit the table hard.

"Brack.... Are you deaf? Make me some food!" Snapped him very hard,

I just gave her a sneery and annoyed glance then I immediately went back to the kitchen and cooked for her, after I served the food she was seen eating it straight away and she was seen eating so much that it looked even more like a starving person.

"It's worth it that he snapped at me like he was so hungry" I thought.

Looking at the way he ate I understood why he was yelling at me and getting mad at me like that, maybe I should have understood it more because after he ate he also did not scold me anymore and went straight outside then I followed him and asked him to take me.

"Why are you following me, stay home!" The impact again,

"Bright... I have to go to school, did you forget I was in the third grade of high school, where maybe I stayed at home" I replied to him.

He was seen scratching the back of his head in frustration and was finally willing to take me along with him to his car.

"Asha... Yeah, let's go in but remember don't touch anything in my car, do you understand!" Said he was warning me.

I just nodded obediently and immediately got into his car, at that time I wanted to open the back door of the car but he pulled my hand violently and told me to sit in front with him.

"Do you think I'm your driver, come here you are.aishh is very troublesome, come on in and sit in front!" He said still with a cruel and flat look.

I was actually very upset with the attitude he gave me but I also could not fight him let alone curse him at this time because I was afraid that he would hear my curse, I kept trying to hold back all the emotions inside me by biting my own lips held back the emotions with all my might.

He also did not speak during the trip and just kept quiet looking ahead, and I started to feel anxious because he did not ask me where I was going to school, though he knew nothing about me at all, but strangely it turned out that he knew the school I was in and he dropped me off right in front of the school gate.

"Eh... Do you know where I go to school?" I asked keceplosan.

I realized that if I talked too casually with him, I immediately shut my mouth and looked at him who was staring intently like he was going to eat me.

"Down!" Said cold.

I got out of his car and when I was about to wave and say goodbye to him he immediately drove his car quickly leaving me, I was really offended by what he was treating me, there I was so upset and I kept dying for him to vent my emotions.

"Aadrkkhghhh... He's so annoying!" I screamed very loudly while stomping my feet on the floor,

"Fuck man, ice man! Aaargghhh I want to bury him!" My snapping again evaporated my emotions.

At that time I thought that no one would see me and maybe people would focus on their activities.

But when I turned around I immediately hit Kaylo's body and he was seen staring intently with both hands that he put in his pants pocket.

When I turned my head and saw that it was Kaylo I was immediately flabbergasted and reflexively moved away from him a few steps back.

I was so nervous and scared back then, I never thought there would be a Kaylo behind me, and I was so afraid that he heard all my very loud rhymes I was also afraid that he misunderstood and I was afraid that he thought it was all for him when it was all for Mr. Luke.

"YOU! It's been two times that you've pissed me off, lucky today I don't want to hurt you, if you hit me again or hit me with something, I won't let you go!" I said he was scary.

He walked over to my shoulder until I almost lost my balance.

I stood there holding my heart that was beating fast for fear of facing Kaylo just now.

Not long after that I immediately walked into the school environment as well and I saw Cecil's car passing by me and he stopped right in front of me and got out of the car and straight away holding Kaylo's hand.

"CRC... They are suitable, bad people will indeed be fooled with bad people" I grumbled slowly while continuing my path again.

Arriving in class now I will return to earnest again in learning I have greatly strengthened my determination to rival Cecil, because now I do not live with him anymore, I have not lived with him anymore, therefore I will pursue all my dreams and I will not hesitate to get rid of Cecil easily.

I know how much he's capable of learning he's just smart about threatening his clever friends and paying them money, which is what Cecil always does and I already know it all.

I couldn't accept it because he looked so happy with Kaylo and made me his successor, although I did want to be close to Mr. Luke to find out if he was the man I was waiting for or not, but still this way is not a good thing.

And I just want to be recognized by that man as me, myself.who he should not be looking for as a substitute for someone, especially when I know that the one who made me his successor is Cecil, my foster brother was so rude to me and had always hated me since childhood.

It hurts me that Mr. Arnold just thinks I'm Cecil's surrogate when I just want him to think of me as no substitute for anyone despite the fact that he should be engaged to Cecil but if Cecil isn't to be with him should not need to overdo it like this to make me his successor.

It hurt me too much and it hurt my heart even worse than a promise not kept.

I'm also sorry I helped Cecil get Kaylo, I shouldn't have tried to be kind and help him to prepare food every morning for one more Sunday just for me to give it to Cecil and he'll admit all that cooking is the result from cooking.

Though he could not cook at all even after practicing for a long time, let alone cook so much food and as delicious as mine, he could not cook noodles.

Because he was never allowed to come to the kitchen let alone hold a stove and pan, all this time since childhood I always had to provide food for him even when I was sitting at the elementary school level I could even make cakes, pudding and cooking various types of dishes.

Now that I keep thinking about Cecil's problem and get upset with him, so when the teacher called me I didn't focus and didn't hear it until the teacher got mad at me and I finally received the punishment to stand outside until the lesson was over.

I can only look down lethargic and continue to resist the annoyance and feet are very sore because it continues to stand throughout the lesson hours long enough.

When the lesson was over, Elis and Bimo took me to the cafeteria and they helped me to get food and drink because they knew that I had been standing for a long time.

"Elisa's drinking first, must be very penggalkan standing there safe earlier?" Bimo said as he gave me a bottle of water,

"Haa.... It did make my legs ache but still nothing compared to the suffering I received during my stay in the Wheeler family" I replied limply.

I don't even have an appetite right now, because I'm so tired of my mind, mind and physique, everything is not healthy and everything is hurt pretty badly this time.