The Murder of the Beloved
Chapter 30

After the bathroom business was finished, they were forced to go home with a heavy heart after telling Bi Imah to accompany and take care of Dinda. There was a sense of guilt in each of them that no relatives accompanied Dinda at such a time. But no other relatives were closer than them. While Dinda was a little strange, but the strangeness was already attached to Dinda so it is not surprising anymore.

Next Dinda with Bi Imah carrying Bi Imah cots to be aligned with her dip. After all, he also craved from someone who could understand his feelings. Of course Bi Imah was happy because it was considered meaningful. He loves Dinda for having been taking care of her since the age of a toddler. Now the boy lost his mother and did not want to be accompanied by anyone, including his biological father, except himself. Ah, Bi Imah feels happy mixed with sadness. Of course he will take care of it as well as possible, that he is willing to lose his life when necessary. But shortly after laying himself on the bed, he fell asleep because he was tired of the power he was fighting.

Dinda looked at Bi Imah with slight disappointment. Actually there are things that he wants to ask, but lost quickly by drowsiness Bi Imah. It's free to wake him up to answer his questions, because it's possible that Bi Imah can't answer correctly. Then he could only stand still, hearing voices. Although he was also tired, but drowsiness did not want to come. Too many minds master it.

Late at night, Bram just got home. Dinda heard the sound of his vehicle entering the courtyard. Bram has his own spare key, so there is no need to open the door. Had he not brought the key, Dinda would not have opened the door. He was sure, after going up to the attic Bram would definitely check his room and find himself not there. And then Bram will visit Bi Imah's room and find the room was empty. Then lastly this room must be what he checked. He's a son-in-law with big eyes at the door. Now he doesn't have to worry about that door, because it's locked. The key is still hanging in the hole. Justright. He did not have to wait long to hear a slow step and then handle the door moving once, twice, then stop. After that, he heard nothing else. Lonely quiet.

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The next morning Dinda woke up. Bi Imah who had woken up first as usual, did not wake up because he did not order so. Bi Imah felt sorry for him and thought he should sleep enough.

"So Mr. said, if non or anyone looking for him he was in the hospital," said Bi Imah.

"Did he have breakfast, Bi?"

"Oh yeah. He's coffeeing and eating instant noodles."

"Keep talking about what else?"

"Not talking about anything non. Just that message. He also gave money for shopping today. Not eating what?"

"Anything is easy, Bi. Instant noodles can also."

"Therefore I went to the market first, yes Non?"

"Yes Bi. Uh, just a moment Bi. I'd like to ask you something. Did Mr Bram ask aunt yesterday about the shards of cups I told you to keep?"

"Yes Non. At first he did not know the cup was broken. He asked me if I had washed my old cup. I said the cup was broken and still kept because Non told me to. His fist cannot be thrown away either. He kept asking me where I kept it, so I'll tell you."

"Well, I don't know, non. I was busy being told that. I don't know what you're doing."

"Yes already. It's okay Bi."

Dinda pensively afterwards. It turns out that's right what she was worried about last night. But he realized he could not blame Bi Imah. All due to his sheer carelessness. He did something very, very stupid. The important items should not be handed over to Bi Imah. He should have kept it and hidden it himself. Shoulda-coulda.... Oh. Is there any point in being regretted? Crying until the flood is free. Time cannot be told to return to give him a chance to correct the mistakes he has made. So, after useless regrets, should he lose hope?

Before noon, the results from the lab had already come out. Dinda was not surprised anymore. Results negative! The liquid content that is still attached to the broken cup and tissue stains is just coffee, milk and sugar. No toxic substances.

What hurt Dinda was not only the result of her own ignorance but the people's view of her. They seem to lose faith and over-think it. While Bram's reaction was clearly predictable. Bram looked at her with a cynical and harassing gaze. There were indeed no words spoken by Bram, but his gaze was as if saying, "You can't corner me, let alone defeat!"

After that, Dinda pulled away. In addition to disappointment and regret can not be eliminated even though he realized it was useless, he also began to the people who had been helping him. Bustaman, Della, and her father. Of course they did not show their hearts openly to him. But he can feel that their trust still loves, supports, and protects him. But what he wanted was not just that. He wants them to believe it too.

When the person closest to Dinda was already trying to comfort Dinda all out. But their words are mere cliches. "Oh, don't think about it. Don't be sad anymore. Relieve mother's departure." Just that kind of thing. There are no words that are promising and encouraging. For example, "Don't despair, Din. We'll keep investigating the man. Isn't mom's body not cremated? There is still hope that the truth will be revealed." Such words can help her a lot. Not only as an antidote to sadness and disappointment, but also a spirit generator that reminds him that he is not alone. Now he feels alone.

Unfortunately again, Dinda has a feeling that the people closest to him actually feel happy and relieved by the results of the lab. That means no troublesome problems. There will be no uproar that can make their families not declare in words. But for Dinda, feeling as a result of observation was enough. It means more than empty words.

"Dinda hates Bram. But his hatred makes sense." Johan concluded in the talks that took place in the absence of Dinda.

"Yes." Yeah." Della. "I'm sure the man had bad intentions towards Dinda. The boy's sensitive."

"But the idea is brilliant" Bustaman admitted. "I admired him. Maybe it was because he read a lot. Many of his ideas and theories came from books."

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to be continued 😂