The Tears of Ayanda
chapter 11. Fear

01.20 Ayanda awakens from her sleep. His body felt heavy because there was a hand that was hugging him tightly. He looked at Rion's peaceful face.

When I try to open my heart to you and start falling in love with you again, why doubt this now covers me? he muttered while stroking Rion's peaceful face.

Ayanda got out of bed slowly so as not to wake her husband. He opened the balcony door of his room which was greeted by the wind of the beach blowing fast and the cold night air that pierced the bone.

He stood up while staring at the beach with a roar of waves.

"Why when someone calls his name does this heart feel the tightness and pain of God?" she shriveled while holding her overcrowded chest.

Without realizing it, the clear circles in his eyes also fell on his cheeks. And his brain's memory was rewinding part after part of that painful event.

#flashback on

Eight years ago, the,,

"What do you mean, you're taking this woman to our house?" he pointed at Dinda.

"I will marry her," Rion replied lightly and was greeted with a sly smile by Dinda.

Ayanda only widened her eyes when she heard Rion's words.

"Now you leave this house and take your sick child!" he shouted, then pushed Ayanda's body to fall down.

When Rion hears her son insulting her, Ayanda's anger mounts.

"You may despise me as you please, but never insult my son! Remember, he's your flesh and blood!" his mind with reddened eyes.

"I don't want to have a sick child" said Rion.

Plaque!

Ayanda's hand immediately slapped Rion's cheek.

"How dare you slap me?" His emotions and directly dragged him out and threw Ayanda's body very rough.

"Dinda, take the sick child and love her mother. I'm sick of seeing their faces" said an emotion-stirred Rion.

Dinda handed little Echa to Ayanda by pushing her tiny body.

"Ma-mah" said little Echa.

Ayanda immediately hugged the tiny body of Echa and immediately carried her. Not a single tear came out. He stood straight in front of the crazy couple.

"Happy are you, I hope you will not regret it" Ayanda said before leaving Rion.

Ayanda also went to bring her little daughter, actually Ayanda was confused about where to go because there was no destination.

It was raining, then,

Ayanda and little Echa take shelter in a Ronda Post. He saw that little Echa was getting cold and Ayanda was tightly hugging the tiny body of Echa hoping to channel warmth to the little body of her daughter.

"Patience, son, Mom will do anything for you. Although Mamah's life is at stake Mamah must be ready son, and as bad as your Qyah, Mamah will never separate you from your father," he said with tears and a kiss on his little daughter's forehead.

#flashback off

Ayanda's body suddenly drooped weakly when the memories were present again, she rested on the floor holding her chest tight. Her tears were already unstoppable again and a soft cry came out from her lips.

Rion awakens instantly because his throat is dry, but sees Ayanda is no longer in bed. He rushed to look for her and saw the balcony door open. Slowly he walked towards the balcony, how surprised Ayanda was crying bitterly sitting on the floor holding her chest.

Rion ran up to him and immediately hugged him.

"Darling, what's wrong with you?" tanyanya's confused.

Ayanda just kept crying bitterly in Rion's arms.

"I'm afraid Mas" she replied as she continued to cry.

Hearing the name "Mas" makes Rion's chest feel tight. He memorized it correctly with that name.

Rion helps Ayanda stand up and breaks her into the room, sitting her carefully on the bed.

"Darling, what's wrong? After dinner, why are you doing this?" he asked again by holding tightly his wife's hand.

Only a soft cry came out of Ayanda's mouth.

Rion got out of bed and sat down in front of Ayanda.

"If I'm wrong, reproach me don't punish me like this. Surely I can't help it Honey," he added, placing his head on Ayanda's lap.

An Ayanda's heart is like a tissue, soft and fragile,

That's why he is easy to laugh, easy to hurt, easily disappointed and easily drain tears.

"I'm afraid," Ayanda exclaimed in a trembling voice.

Rion raised his head and saw how sad his wife's face was. He hugged Ayanda.

"Don't be afraid, I'm here" he replied.

"I'm afraid you'll leave me again" he said.

Rion immediately froze and could not say anything. His mouth seemed to be silenced and only guilt was now in his heart and mind.

"I'm sorry" Ayanda said.

"You're not wrong, which is full of mistakes. I made you like this, which created a trauma in your heart. I've wasted you and our son just for the sake of useless trash. I'm sorry, honey." rion regretted.

Ayanda was unable to speak anything, just sobbing for the sake of sobbing that came out of her lips.

"Honey," said Rion as he let go of his embrace and tightly grasped Ayanda's hand.

"Look at me!!" rion Pinta

"Allow me to make amends for all my past mistakes. Stay by my side even if you don't really believe me. Even though you're still disappointed in me, and you don't love me yet."

"Let me love you more deeply and struggle to convince your heart, it's okay if I have to love myself the most important thing is you stay by my side, live with me until death will separate," with eyes that are already glazed.

Ayanda could not help but cry and immediately hugged her husband's body tightly. No matter how much disappointment she felt but could not exceed the magnitude of her affection for her husband. Such is the heart of Ayanda.

"I'm sorry I'm too sensitive."

"Dear, you're like this because of my mistake. Maybe it's God's punishment for me to be patient and fight to make you believe me again" said Rion while peeping in Ayanda's forehead.

"Thank you for accepting me back. Thank you for taking care of our child, thank you Already" he said as he continued to kiss the tip of Ayanda's head.

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The night was full and the tears changed.

"Darling, wake up aren't you hungry?" ask Rion.

Ayanda was still curled up in her blanket because she was still tired of the effects of crying last night.

"I'm ashamed to go out, my eyes are swollen," he said

Rion laughed too.

"Wake up yuk" he asked. He pulled out the blanket and pulled his hand to sit down.

In the kisses Ayanda's eyes one by one.

"Don't be sad again yeah, I'll never leave you again. I promise I will continue to be by your side. Always stick with you rich stamps," he said with a smile

"What the hell," retorted Ayanda. Rion kissed his wife's lips.

"When we take a shower, we eat, I'm hungry" Rion said.

Ayanda followed Rion's orders. After finishing the bath and neat they headed for a beachside restaurant.

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Restaurants

Rion clasped Ayanda's hand tightly towards the table they had ordered. Suddenly someone called,

"Rion" call a woman.

Rion and Ayanda looked over.

"I miss you" said the woman, hugging Rion. While the one being hugged just fell silent.

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