
A cold voice pierced my heart.
“Just do as you do now. Just like you've been lying to me all this time."
Since I haven't told that important story until now, it's only natural that he feels deceived. No matter what I say, it's just an excuse.
Kirana just lowered her gaze helplessly.
“And come with me tomorrow to the hospital.”
Reynand spoke in a quieter tone than before.
“I will see a more qualified doctor in an even bigger hospital. I found that getting pregnant was difficult, but not impossible. If this isn't total sterility, we have to find a way.“
Looks like they've been checking out other hospitals for a while. If it was him, he would have gone mad from shock...
On the other hand, it was amazing that he was capable of being rational and level-headed even in this situation.
However, Kirana also felt like she wanted to work hard and had visited many obstetricians and gynecologists. He said with a dark face.
"It will stay the same even if I go to another hospital. I've been to many places."
“But I wasn't there at the time.”
Reynand spoke firmly.
“Come back with me. I myself should listen to the doctor and ask him directly."
What difference does it make if I go with him?And those who heard it in person would only be even more disappointed. I wanted to say that, but his appearance was so firm that I could not answer any further.
Reynand looked at Kirana's trembling eyes. Then he spoke in a firm tone.
“This is a world where the slightest mistake will turn into the greatest sin.”
"......"
"Stay clear your mind and think about holding on. Don't do anything that will make others take advantage of your weaknesses."
Reynand's neighborhood is full of people who want to find the slightest flaws. Kirana's weakness could be her weakness. Like he said, you have to stay alert.
“Do you understand what I mean?”
A clear gaze met with Kirana. Her eyes seemed to be desperate. What fear is there in those eyes? Is he scared because of me, he can't get what he wants? I'm sure you're not afraid of losing me.
I didn't fully understand the point, but I nodded.
"All right....."
Now all the choices are in his hands. He is the only one who can end and maintain this relationship, and it is no wonder that this relationship will end.
Kirana will do whatever Reynand wants. It should be like that until Sarah wakes up.
Reynand looked towards Kirana and then stood up.
“Pak Driver will come to pick you up tomorrow afternoon.”
"......"
“Then I'll see you at the hospital.”
After finishing what he wanted to say, Reynand walked towards the front door. Kirana could only look quietly as Reynand left the house again.
****
Kirana and Reynand were sitting in the back seat of a moving car. The inside of the car was so quiet that it was filled with rushing air.
Kirana glanced at Reynand. Reynand, wearing a dark blue suit, stared straight ahead in silence. Both are on their way home from the hospital. The hospital they visited was the obstetrics and gynecology department with a renowned professor, and Kirana underwent all the tests required by the hospital. And the test results have not changed much.
'Basically, whether it's a natural pregnancy or artificial insemination, implantation should be done first, but in the case of Kirana's mother, fibroids have spread to most of the endometrium... making implantation itself difficult.'
Reynand was as if she could not accept the professor's words, and ended up leaving the treatment room with a dark expression on her face.
The sky started to darken and the car approached the house. Reynand who had not said a word the entire time, opened her mouth.
"I'm gonna find another hospital, even a foreign hospital, even if I'm gonna look for it."
"......"
"I don't trust that professor. So forget it."
When I arrived at the hospital, I was told that he was the most trusted professor and the best doctor in the Country.
Understanding Reynand's feeling of not wanting to believe, Kirana just nodded slowly. Reynand looked towards Kirana and said again.
“It looks like you don't have a fatal disease, so no need to worry”
"......"
“That is, we don't need to look so hit.”
Hearing those words, Kirana stared at Reynand's face for a moment. He didn't seem to know, The person whose world seemed to be collapsing was also the same person.
Reynand's face had darkened since she left the clinic. Although it did not show her disappointment or regret, but I could feel her appearance. Reynand didn't even have to reveal it. Because a gloomy energy was flowing from all over his body.
Maybe he regretted having chosen Kirana. I will not marry this woman. He should have stopped when Ameera objected. I think he might have that feeling.
Now Kirana felt her heart tighten. When the car stopped right in front of the house, Reynand turned towards Kirana. He turned his head and he spoke firmly with a strong tone.
“Remember, you must not tell anyone about this. I will take care of the examination with the hospital attendant.”
"......"
“I'll find a way, so just do what you always do.”
“What can I do too…."
Reynand covered Kirana's words and looked at her with strong eyes.
“Only... keep it like this.”.
"......"
“Do not think of anything, stay where you are now.”
A deep voice echoed throughout the car.
“That's all I want from you.”
Kirana's eyes were slightly wobbly. If Reynand finds out the truth, Kirana thinks she's going to ask for a divorce. Because kirana was of no benefit if she remained by his side. Instead of finding a way to get Kirana pregnant, she married another woman and had a child.
Since he was a cold-headed and calculating person in every way, he would know what method made the most sense. But now Reynand is hiding the truth from the people. And he wants to stay by her side. It was an unwise and irrational method.
However, there was no honesty to tell him that his methods were wrong. That was why he was so weak and relaxed.
Although I could not fully understand Reynand's intentions, my only answer was to follow her. As long as he held my hand, there was no way I would let him go first.
In their hands, not only is my future, but also Mama's future in their hands.
“OK, I'll do whatever you ask.”
Kirana said calmly.
“I won't tell anyone and will do it as usual.”
All I have to do is live my daily life as usual. To please others and live a quiet life like a doll. It wasn't so hard that I was able to handle it. I've lived like that since I lived in Om Doni's house when I was young.
Reynand looked at him for a moment, then turned her gaze straight ahead and said.
“Come in first.”
"how about you?"
“There is still work to be done in the company.”
"When......"
“I'll be late. Don't wait 'cause I don't know when I'll be home."
“Then listen...."
Kiran heard Reynand's phone ringing. And he even saw the name plastered on the phone screen. Reynand answered the phone immediately.
"Hello."
[It's me Mr. Director. Do I want to talk to you now?]
"Say."
[When you get out, Mr. Governor calls me by phone. He said he wanted to tell you something about the amusement park business... … … … .].
Reynand instantly became serious and continued the conversation with Julia .
Ever since the job at the company entered his mind. Kirana no longer seemed to be in his mind.
Kirana saw him talking on the phone and slowly opened the car door. After getting out of the car, he closed the door. Kirana looked towards the slowly moving car.
Through the window, I could see him still concentrating on the phone call. His eyes never once touched Kirana until the figure slowly drifted away and disappeared before her eyes.
The moment our eyes met, the hand that was meant to be held awkwardly wandered and fell.
****
'Rrrrr--rrrr---'
Kirana opened her eyes when she heard a phone ringing beside her bed. With her eyes half-opened, Kirana raised her phone and looked at the screen.
[Mama]
As soon as Kirana saw the name on the screen, she immediately lifted the upper part of her body. And after a thud and said,
'Ehcchw.'
I answered the phone.
"Hello Ma."
I tried my best to stay calm, but I couldn't hide my heavy voice.
Ameera's voice sounded.
[Are you still sleeping?]
"Ah yes..."
[What time is it and you're still sleeping?]
Kirana looked at the wall clock opposite her. It was 7:50 in the morning.
It's true that I slept much later than usual, but it wasn't late enough to be considered lazy.
[Then I don't think you've had breakfast. You should eat regularly in order to take herbal remedies at the right time.]
"Good Ma."
[It makes no difference, last night I had a dream about a big goldfish, and as you know, a dream about a goldfish is a fetal dream.]
The slightly hopeful voice continued.
[I'm calling you to see if there's any news.]