
“Kirana..”.
Kirana opened her eyes when she heard a soft voice calling out to her. She was lying on the bed, and Sarah was in front of her. As soon as she saw it, Kirana immediately cried.
"Mama.."
Sarah looked at Kirana with sad eyes and gently stroked her hair.
“Kirana..”.
Kirana's eyes became increasingly wet from that warm touch.
“Ma.. I miss you.”
“I too.... I want to go with Mama too..."
Sarah shook her head slowly and said.
“No Kirana.... You have to live your own life.”
"....."
“Now you should also be happy.......”.
How can I live my life without my mom? How can you be happy without your mom?
Kirana shook her head.
"I can't do that. I want to come with Mama too."
"That can't be son."
A loud voice sounded.
"It's never possible."
Kirana's vision became increasingly blurred, The warmth I felt from the caress of the fingertips slowly dissipated. Kirana's eyes shook violently. An unbearable feeling of fear and despair overcame him.
"NO...... Mama."
Kirana cried and survived like a child. Sarah's face became increasingly blurred.
"Ma.... Don'tgo...... Mama......."
Kirana shook her head violently and cried. She could no longer see Sarah's face in her teary eyes. He felt like he was alone in this world. He was scared, lonely, and confused. Kirana who was fighting against that fear, opened her eyes.
"Oh my goodness..!"
A familiar ceiling appeared before Kirana's eyes. That was his bedroom.
'That was a dream.....'
Kirana looked to the side where there was no one there and did not want to believe her and realized a reality she did not want to believe in.
Just yesterday, we finished Mama's funeral. And I can't see him anymore. Mom disappeared from the world. It's not a dream, it's reality.
Now that I can't see Mama, I can't even see her sleeping face.
Uncontrollable pain gnawed at my body. Cold sweat formed on my forehead. At that moment, my chest felt tight and I became nauseous. Kirana went straight to the bathroom. I grabbed the toilet and emptied my stomach.
'Oekkk~'
Since I did not eat anything, I only vomited bitter water. I just felt nauseous without any response.
Kirana stayed in the toilet for a while, then rinsed and left the bathroom. And then lay back on the bed helplessly. He felt very dizzy and did not want to think of anything. He closed his eyes and fell asleep again.
As Kirana slowly closed her eyes. Suddenly, he heard the door open. Kirana opened her eyes and closed them again as she watched Reynand enter.
Reynand, dressed in a black suit, came to Kirana's side. He was holding something in his hand. It was a tray filled with porridge and side dishes. He put it on the bedside table. And then he spoke to Kirana.
“From yesterday you haven't eaten anything.”
"......"
"You'll pass out if you keep doing this. Even if you don't have an appetite, try eating a little."
Kirana heard Reynand's words, but said nothing. Seeing Kirana like that, Reynand let out a dry sigh.
It seemed like Reynand was in a jumbled state of mind.
Since Sarah's funeral, Kirana lost her expression and lost her ability to speak. There are times when Kirana does not answer when Rey calls, and there are times when she stares blankly into space like a lost mind. Reynand looked at Kirana and said.
“I'm sorry about your Mama.”
"......"
“I also lost my Papa, so I know what it's like to lose a parent.”
He spoke a little stronger.
"But being sad like this doesn't change anything. Your mama can't go back, and you can't turn back time."
"......"
“I hope you don't grieve for too long. Even so, there is no profit whatsoever for you."
There's no profit? Does the grief of losing a parent have to be compared to its benefits? … … … … …
If this was meant to be entertaining, it was a failure. It was so unreasonable that it made me laugh out loud. That seems to be what happened to the people in this family.
If there is no benefit from the passing of a parent or child, it seems like the grief could easily be wiped out. So I feel like a loner in this house.
He lived his life by forcing himself to adjust to people who were very different from him.
Kirana closed her eyes even tighter, as if she did not want to listen to him anymore. Reynand looked at his small back and said.
“I have a three-day business trip to China starting tomorrow.”
"......"
“You may not have appetite, but I hope you eat well.”
"......"
“If you are sick or need something, please contact me.”
Reynand was about to turn around and face Kirana again as if she remembered something. Then he took out a rectangular piece of paper from inside his suit.
Reynand placed it on the bedside table and left the room. Kirana learns too late that it is someone's business card, and the person on the business card is Julia.
My depressed mood is winding down. Really, this guy has the ability to make myself miserable.
****
Kirana woke up from her deep sleep feeling thirsty. His mouth was stuffy and his throat was stuck. He wants to drink cold water.
Kirana slowly got out of bed. Now that it was daytime, He did not know whether it was day or night, he did not know how many hours he had slept and did not even know what day it was now.
He fell asleep, opened his eyes, and fell asleep again just as he was about to open his eyes. He kept repeating it. He did not want to face reality, so he fled into a dream.
In her dream, she could see Sarah's face. She hugged him affectionately and even talked to him. However, after waking up from a dream, only a deeper despair and loneliness awaited Kirana.
He felt stuffy and thirsty. Kirana walked towards the door to go to the kitchen. When he opened the door and left.
"What the hell is going on?"
Reynand's voice rang out from the first floor. He said he was going on a business trip and he was still at home, but he didn't feel alone. Looks like someone came to the house.
“Where is Kirana now?”
A familiar voice sounded. The person Reynand spoke to was Ameera.
"He was sleeping. If there's anything you want to say, you better call."
“I came because there was nothing I wanted to say over the phone.”
Ameera with a puzzled expression let out a long sigh and opened her mouth again.
"Because of the situation, I haven't been able to tell you for a while... I can't wait any longer. I want you to find out as soon as possible so you can take care of this matter."
"......"
"Listen and don't worry. It's about your wife."
After Ameera sighed heavily again and spoke.
“Over time we were cheated, Kirana said it was hard to have children.”
"......"
“Although I knew it, I pretended not to know about your Wife and sat next to you until now.”
Although the news was difficult to convey, Reynand's expression did not change much. Ameera's eyes were worried at the sight.
"Yes God……………."
"......"
“Cannot be.... you already.....?”
Ameera looked at him with trembling pupils.
“When do you know?”
“Not long ago.”
“Hah, how could you not tell Mama something so important?”
“I think Mama will be like if know it”
“What?”
Shamed, Ameera narrowed her eyes and asked.
“You don't plan to keep Kirana by your side, do you?”
"......"
Reynand had no answer. Seeing that he did not deny it, Ameera's expression became solemn.
Ameera said with an urgent expression on her face.
"Don't you know if you saw the test records? Natural pregnancy, let alone in vitro fertilization, is difficult. You keep a girl like that in our family? If my grandfather finds out about this, what will happen to you?"
"......"
“Add again, his mother has died. Now, he has no power in that family.”
There was no way Reynand didn't know the reality he was talking about. Even so, Reynand said nothing.
Ameera spoke in a stern voice as if giving notice.
“Deliver him now.”
"......"
“If there is a delay, only you are harmed. In the meantime, if Arin gets pregnant, we'll be over."
Then Reynand replied in a stern tone.
“Does Mama not have the slightest sympathy?”
A deeper voice was aimed at Ameera.
“New four days since Kirana lost her Mama. And Mama told me to divorce her?"
"......"
“Did Mama not feel sorry for Kirana?”
Ameera immediately responded and shouted.
"I don't pity him! I feel more sorry for my son! How do I raise you?!"
Ameera's eyes sparkled with anger.
"You know what kind of person your father is, right? I bore it in this hard, stuffy corner of the house, just to raise you!"
Reynand's father was a heartless man. He caused too many injuries to Ameera. Ever since Reynand was a child, he had only focused on the work of the company and ignored Ameera. In addition, she had an affair with another woman, causing tremendous pain to Ameera.
Every time that happened, the only thing her in-laws told Ameera was patience. He decided to divorce her several times. But in the end, he had no choice but to maintain his heart and endure. It was because Ameera had Reynand who was smarter and proud than anyone. He promised one day he would make SF his own and Reynand's. He thought it was Reynand's revenge against his father and mother as well as his only future son. The only reason Ameera survives in this family is Reynand. Reynand is his dream and his hope.
“I survive only in the hope that someday you will become the owner of SF Group. I raised you to be smart and perfect so that no one can ignore you! I could feel joy, anger, and regret in your increasingly intense voice. How can I be sane if there is a woman who can destroy you like this?!”