
"Mrs... Should I have dinner?"
Kirana shook her head at the words of the housekeeper.
"No. I'm not hungry right now."
“I will make porridge as usual, Mistress should eat it.”
"...Later."
Kirana left the kitchen after drinking just one glass of water. He could feel a sad look in the housekeeper's eyes, but he couldn't help it.
After Sarah died, Kirana had no desire to eat anything. Kirana not only lost her appetite, she also lost her sense of taste. No matter what he ate, he could not feel it. It might be due to stress, but he continued to feel nauseous. He felt bad so he had no appetite at all.
Kirana walked into the living room and looked out the window. A bodyguard was still stationed in the front garden of the entrance. They took turns guarding the house for 12 hours. No. more precisely, to keep an eye on Kirana.
How long do you plan to monitor me for?
Kirana looked outside and recalled Reynand's words.
'I have no intention of ending this marriage.'
I don't know him. No matter how much I pulled him, he didn't come any closer. Now when I tried to get away, he grabbed me and didn't let me go. Was her pride hurt because I decided to divorce first?Or maybe I'm late developing an unnecessary sense of possessiveness?
I still don't know why Reynand is so stubborn. One thing I realized was that stubbornness could take a while. I want to get out of here as soon as possible, I can't wait for Reynand to divorce me or for her bodyguard to disappear, I don't want to live as someone's wife or daughter-in-law. I want to get my life back as soon as possible.
Kirana who was thinking hard, raised her phone as if she had already made up her mind. And call someone.
****
Next morning.
Reynand was getting dressed after taking a shower and getting ready for work. He was wearing a white shirt and a dark blue tie. Then he put on a suit vest and suit one after another.
Reynand with her hair neatly combed and dressed in a three-piece suit, full of coolness. Just as he was about to leave the dressing room and head for the entrance, he
see Kirana coming down the stairs.
Kirana who was approaching Reynand put on a face that wanted to say something. He stood still for a moment, then slowly opened his mouth.
“In retrospect... I've been very emotional all this time."
"......"
“I'll do whatever you want.”
Reynand's eyes widened slightly. Kirana spoke with a determined tone.
"I'm not going anywhere."
"......"
“I will eat well, take care of the house, and stay where I am now.”
Reynand was both pleased and confused by his words. She had not expected Kirana, who looked so stoic, to change her mind so quickly.
“So, let that person go now.”
Reynand looked in the direction Kirana pointed at with her eyes. His gaze was fixed on the security guard standing outside the window.
Reynand thought for a moment. Kirana says she will do whatever she wants right now, but she can change her mind at any time. In the worst case, as soon as the bodyguard was sent, he might leave the house as if he had been waiting for him. After much deliberation, Reynand rejected his words.
"Later. I'll have them leave when the time comes.”
"No. Please tell them to leave as soon as possible. It feels uncomfortable and burdensome if there is such a big man who
stand in front of the house."
Kirana narrowed her brows, openly showing signs of discomfort.
“I'm worried if people in the neighborhood will see it. What do others think when they see it?”
"......"
Reynand thought about it again, but the conclusion remained the same. He felt uncomfortable to immediately tell the bodyguard to leave.
Kirana who read his thoughts from his expression, beckoned.
“If you feel anxious, let the main secretary be by my side.”
“Julia?”
"By the way, you have more assistants than the main secretary. And it's not that I asked him to help me for the rest of my life, it's just for a short time."
Kirana continued calmly.
"If I were to become the main secretary, I wouldn't mind if she was on the side
me for a long time. First of all, since we're the same sex, I think we'll be comfortable and communicate well."
Reynand's eyes narrowed.
Julia has long worked as my secretary, and among the secretaries in the company, she is one of the most trustworthy people. But I don't want my household problems to leak out. No matter how loud Julia's mouth was, I felt uncomfortable entrusting this task to her.
The answer is to reject any offer that is not refreshing.
"The First Secretary couldn't do it because he had a lot of schedules to deal with. I'll find someone else."
Kirana looks disappointed at Jin-wook's words.
"...... Alright."
He answered in a low voice and then turned around.
Reynand became confused as she saw Kirana walking helplessly.
****
The secretary desk staff bowed politely and greeted Reynand. Reynand walked towards them bowing her head, Reynand passed them and walked down the hallway, And then she went to her office.
After taking off his suit, he sat down and opened the documents.
As soon as Reynand started working, he always started working without a break. There is a lot of work to do and he wants to get it done perfectly, so every minute and second is worth it.
As he was concentrating for a while, he heard a knock on the door.
It's time for the schedule report from the secretary. Julia opened the door and greeted Reynand.
"Excuse me. Mr. Director."
Julia opened the schedule file and reported the schedule today. Reynand who listened to the story, recalled what Kirana said this morning.
'If you feel anxious, let the main secretary be by my side.'
Rarely did Kirana ask me to do anything. I felt bad because I refused her request firmly. Moreover, Kirana said she would follow her wishes and maintain her position. If you accept something, you must also give something.
But I didn't really listen to Kirana's request, which I received. Right now, I wonder what would happen if Kirana changed her mind again.
'......Alright.'
Kirana's face, filled with disappointment, continued to appear before my eyes.
Reynand who was thinking hard, raised her head and faced Julia.
Julia is the type of person who carries out her duties diligently but calmly. I feel like he's not the type to talk nonsense about family matters. He also knew that doing so would be toxic to him.
Reynand recalled the schedule next month. He has many business travel itineraries including this month and next month.
Anyway, I'm going on a business trip with a secretary other than Julia.
Reynand who reckoned that Julia's workload would not be great for a while, said to him.
"Main Secretary. Can I ask for your help."
“Ya, Director. Please.”
“First of all, what I say from now on must be kept confidential.”
Reynand asked with sharp eyes.
"Do you understand?"
****
That night. When Reynand came home from work, there was a dense darkness everywhere. Kirana, who I thought was sleeping, was in the kitchen. He was putting tea leaves in the pot. Kirana turned her head when she heard Reynand's footsteps.
"You're home."
“You haven't slept?.”
“I can't sleep.”
Kirana's appearance as she said it looked very thin. Reynand only wished she could eat well and sleep well, but was it that difficult?
Reynand was frustrated, but tried to understand it. Fifteen days have passed since she lost her mother. Mental illness is not something that can be easily cured just because it wants to get better. Over time, it will naturally heal and eventually return to its original position.
Now that Reynand said he would do whatever he wanted, he would definitely do it. However, one had to be near him until he returned to his normal position.
Reynand decided to designate the person she wanted as the right person.
“Start tomorrow, Secretary Julia will help you.”
Kirana's eyes widened slightly at Reynand's words.
“He will be by your side from 8 am to 6 pm, and after that, the bodyguard will take turns working.”
"really?"
Reynand nodded and continued speaking.
"But I don't know how long Secretary Julia will help you. If work gets busy in the middle of the day, he'll have to come back anytime."
Kirana said with an understanding expression.
"I know what you mean."
Kirana faced him and smiled faintly.
"thank you. Have listened to my request.”
Reynand felt one side of her heart heat up looking at the smile she was facing.
Why does Kirana want to leave? I was very worried and had to go back to work. I finally know why I can't stop. It seems I'm afraid of losing this smile, I'm afraid I'll never be able to see this face again.
Reynand said as she looked at Kirana carefully.
“If you want to thank me, eat well from now on.”
"......"
“If you continue like this, then your body will only have bones left.”
Hearing those words, Kirana nodded with a small smile.
Reynand finally believes that everything is going as it should. The true feeling was hidden behind his smile....
Even then he didn't realize it at all.