The Wife Who Escaped
The Collapsed World

As soon as Kirana got out of the car, she rushed to the intensive care unit panting.

In the intensive care unit, the medical staff were seen with dark expressions in a chaotic atmosphere. And he saw a familiar silhouette lying between them. Although her head was covered in a white cloth, Kirana immediately knew who was underneath. Kirana's getting closer. The medical staff who saw him slowly lifted the blanket. As the white cloth was lowered, Sarah's face was seen with her eyes closed.

"Ma.mma..."

Sarah was lying motionless. His face was pale, and his lips were bluish. Kirana asked the doctor.

"What's going on? Why is my Mama....?"

"The disease worsens suddenly so the exact cause is unknown, but it appears to be an acute myocardial infarction or stroke caused by blood clots. After a heart attack, CPR was done for 30 minutes, but we decided it was not effective anymore, so we stopped CPR after speaking to Mr. Doni.”

The doctor said with a dark expression.

"Miss Sarah died at 11:30 on December 15. We express our regret."!!

Kirana's face shook.

The sight before my eyes turned white, and my body became stiff. He nodded as if he did not believe what the doctor said.

“It..... That's not possible...That doesn't make any sense. It doesn't make any sense at all."

The trembling voice slowly disappeared.

“Mama... My mom is not the kind of person who gives up easily.”

"......"

“Cannot be Mama left me.”

My mom loved me more than anyone. There was no way I would be left alone in this lonely and miserable world.

After that the doctor said something, but Kirana could not hear it. Kirana held Sarah's hand with trembling hands.

"Ma.I'm here."

Kirana looked at him affectionately and said.

“Ma, today is Mama's birthday, so I made Mama's favorite meat soup. I tried to come faster, but.. sorry...”.

The hand I was holding was cold. If only I had come a little faster, would there still be any warmth left?

"I'm sorry. Sorry I came late..."

Sarah is not moving. And just close your eyes as if you'll never open them again.

"NO....."

Kirana's face changed and tears flowed.

“Ma, Mama can't continue like this.”

It shouldn't be like this. All I see is that he always suffers. I have never been shown my services as a decent child. I can't let his life go on like this.

“No….Ma...”

His crying voice spread sadly.

“I've promised to live happily together again when Mama wakes up.”.

Even if everyone in the world were to oppose him, he was the only person who would be by my side. The one who made me stubbornly endure no matter how miserable the reality was. My mom is my hope, my dream and everything.

“If Mama goes then I will be alone in this world.”

A world without a mother is darkness. I was so afraid of being left alone that I couldn't accept it.

“Ma, don't go.. please…"

Tears that flowed down my face.

“No...Ma..”

Kirana sadly called out to him until her voice became hoarse.

“Ma... don't go… … … … ."

I begged desperately, but she never woke up. The prayers I pray to God every day are violently broken.

Kirana's world turned black and collapsed.

Rachelle looked around with a sweaty face. Then, she found Kirana sitting in front of the intensive care unit at the end of the hallway. Rachelle immediately ran towards him.

“Kirana...”.

****

Rachelle arrived in front of Kirana, wiped the sweat on her forehead and sighed violently. As soon as she heard the news about Sarah, she went straight to the hospital.

Although Rachelle came, Kirana just stared blankly into space.

"yeah....."

Rachelle asked with a worried expression

“Kirana....Are you okay?”

“Reynand is also coming soon . She said you didn't answer the phone and she was worried.”

Rachelle lives close to the hospital, so she can reach Kirana faster than the others. While on her way to the hospital, Rachelle receives a call from Reynand. She said she was late to hear the news because she was in a meeting, and Rachelle, who was close to her, asked her to leave as soon as possible to check on Kirana.

Kira a is still silent. Rachelle looked at Kirana with sad eyes.

"Kira..."

Rachelle placed her hand on Kirana's hand and expressed her condolences. Kirana who was staring into space with an unfocused face, slowly opened her mouth.

"Mr......."

"......"

"Mama… ... Go… … … …."

I remember lying next to Mama in a single room when I was young and talking.

'What kind of person do you want to marry when you grow up?'

'I won't marry anyone.'

'then?'

'I'll stay with Mama forever.'

'What? You won't marry and just stay by your Mama's side?'

Sarah smiled as if she was surprised but not unhappy.

'Ma, Mama will stay with me for the rest of your life, right?'

Sarah said as she looked at Kirana with affectionate eyes.

'Mama will always be on Kirana's side.'

The words I heard while being hugged in that warm embrace were very clear as if they had happened yesterday.

Kirana's wet voice echoed in the hallway.

“Mama says mom will be by my side for the rest of your life.”.

"......"

“Mama has promised... but why mama go first.”.

Eyes that lost focus looked at Rachelle. In the end, the eyes shed tears and fell.

"What should I do now……?"

The sad voice continued.

“How should I live now..?”

There were tears in Rachelle's eyes when she saw him like that.

Rachelle hugged Kirana's trembling shoulder tightly and said,

"Don't worry.... Everything's gonna be okay."

"......"

“You can do your best.... Don't worry...."

Kirana fell into her arms while listening to the warm comfort.I cried.

At the scariest and most difficult time in my life, the person by my side was not my husband. For more than 10 years, my grandmother and father never considered me a granddaughter and daughter, nor did they ever treat me and Mama well.

It's been about 20 minutes since Reynand arrived. What kind of expression did Reynand make as her tears blocked her view?It's not obvious.

"Sorry. I turned off my phone because there was an important meeting."

All I could remember was the heavy breathing that was heard through very slow voices.

After that, Reynand was at a loss for words, like one who did not know what to say. The long hallway was only filled with the sound of Kirana crying.

****

Even after losing my family, I didn't have time to grieve in peace. This is because I have to prepare for the funeral. Under the swift action of the gotong royong company, a morgue was set up and preparations to console the mourners began.

Doni and Kirana dressed in mourning clothes guarded the funeral, and mourners who heard the news of the deaths walked in one by one.

The second night after the funeral began. Kirana was greeting the mourners in the room where the funeral table was prepared. The mourners who visited the morgue were either Doni's family and friends, or Reynand's associates.

Although they had nothing to do with Sarah, most of them came with the goal of impressing Reynand and SF Group for business reasons.

Kirana looked at the mourner who filled the funeral home with a blank expression. Everyone spoke loudly, some even laughed out loud.

Out of all these people, it seems like I'm the only one who's really grieving over Mama's passing.

Just then, Reynand who was wearing mourning clothes entered the room. He has not left the company since yesterday and came to the funeral welcoming the mourners.

Reynand approached Kirana and looked at her face. Kirana's face was pale and not bleeding. It was only natural that he had not eaten or slept from yesterday.

“You don't look good.”

Reynand.

"I'll keep watch here, so you can rest.”

"It's okay. That's my job."

“Do not be stubborn, you will faint if you continue this way.”

Reynand spoke firmly, but Kirana did not budge. A person's voice sounded from the back of the room they were in

"I can't hold on that long. To be honest, I thought I wouldn't last even a year."

“Ah... Even if we survive much longer, we will only live to suffer.”

The place where the voice sounded was a passageway. It was the voice of the middle-aged woman who seemed to be quite old, and they continued the conversation without realizing that Kirana was listening to the chatter.

“By the way, what will Mr Kester do now? He's been dating a woman for a long time."

"What else is going to happen? Since his real wife was already dead, he would marry the woman as if he had been waiting for her."

Kirana's expression hardened. As they say, Doni has a new woman he meets.

“Then what happened to his daughter?”

"In hindsight, she was a princess who did not have a single drop of blood with Mr. Kester. He's like a stranger in that family."

"No. Even if there was not a single drop of blood in her, she was the daughter-in-law of SF Group. Will they throw it away? They'll keep it going."

I never thought about what happened after Mama died. I was just hoping either way Mama would wake up, but I never even in my dreams imagined her leaving my side. However, other people were talking about what would happen to Father and me in the future? They talked about it at Mama's funeral.

At the moment when he was stunned as well as crying, Reynand who was listening to the conversation next to Kirana, spoke.

“Do not worry about what others say.”

A calm yet strong voice sounded.

“It's just something they say without thinking.”

Kirana stared at Reynand's face for a moment and then threw away her face.

I know these are just words I say without thinking. But I don't know how not to get hurt by those words.

Reynand said while looking at Kirana's still lethargic face.

"I'll be here."

"....."

"I heard you didn't sleep one bit. Go and rest."

"NO."

Kirana said while looking at a portrait of Sarah.

“This is my Mama's funeral.”

“I will take care of it until the end.”

From his stern tone, Reynand knew he would change his mind. Reynand looked at Kirana intently, who did not even make eye contact with her, and left the room with a small sigh.