TRAPPED IN META LOVE
Final Letter

Meta broke down his body shortly after Rendi bailed to go home after their dinner earlier. Meta is really happy with the surprise that Rendi gave earlier, after all the embarrassing High School reunion incident earlier. Meta is still thinking from where Dinda got the pictures of herself with Devan.

"Is it possible that Dinda's been following me all along?" meta murmurs in the heart.

Meta stared at every corner in his room, the most comfortable room exceeded the zimmer of apartments in Germany. For him his room is the most comfortable place even in his house this is a place full of warmth because it is filled with the affection of the people he loves.

"It feels really hard to leave all this behind, I will definitely miss this room, the same mom and the same Rendi," said the meta with turmoil in his heart.

Suddenly meta again remembered the school uniform he had used, looking for where he was while trying to remember the last time he put it.

Meta tried to check the bag he was using, he actually found the envelope he just remembered earlier given by Ardian.

"What the hell do you want the child, still tell to read the letters that are not clear?" meta's own grouse.

Meta sat down at his desk, opening the letter that Ardian had given him. Meta felt like Dejavu, remembering the days of High School that used to be almost every night he read the letters that Ardian gave him.

Meta checked his desk drawer, it turns out that the letters from Ardian are still in his desk drawer. Actually meta once thought to return all the letters to Ardian, but it was done because actually he was lazy to meet let alone have to chat with Ardian. Moreover, every time he saw Ardian that flashed through the meta mind was precisely the most terrifying momentum that Ardian had done to him.

Actually meta was reluctant to read the letter from Ardian again, but considering Ardian's words that promised not to bother him again made the meta curious about the contents of the letter.

Dear Metas, please,

Maybe I have a lot of bad memories with you.....

Maybe at this time there is no one right word other than the word sorry even thousands of words sorry will probably never be comparable to what I did first....

Meta..I just want you to know that the feelings from before until now will never change...

Even if I dare to send a letter to you in the past just because I really want to show my excitement to you....

My horror will never end and will never be replaced by anyone in this world....

I honestly can't shake this feeling....

But I know enough myself that the existence of Rendi by your side is your happiness.....

I know I can only let go of all your happiness with him....

I was sick the first time I knew you had a relationship with Rendi....

The time Rendi sang the song on the bus hurt me because I thought I was the only one who would sing a special song for you....

But it turns out I was wrong.Even at that time Rendi blatantly showed her relationship with you....

It hurts.I really hurt to see that....

But I'm not desperate....

I'm still trying to get your attention, but I know it's all for nothing.....

Once again I'm really sorry that I was being disrespectful to you...

At that time I was enveloped in emotion and also jealous to see your togetherness with Rendi....

And at that time I felt frustrated and thought about how to get to you.....

When I was desperate, Dinda gave me the idea to do some brazen things with you....

I who was filled with jealousy and the desire to have you at that time was finally persuaded by Dinda's idea....

All beyond my limits....

I'm really sorry......

After that incident I felt really sorry and cursed my own stupidity....

Love cannot be forced as we want.....

Maybe with my letter I hope you can forgive my mistakes.....

At least even if you don't forgive me though.I've tried to be honest about all my feelings and circumstances....

It may not be easy to forgive the actions of someone who has made a big mistake....

But I'm grateful that you didn't report me to the police....

It was only then that I realized that you were honored to forgive me and give me a chance to get better.....

Thank you for that opportunity.....

Meta honestly there is no most beautiful word except my fondness for you.....

I know this is impossible.....

I know that I will never have your heart.....

But I will always keep the happy memories of your face in my mind forever.....

Meta I want to be honest with you once again.....

Maybe this isn't something that's important to you....

But in this letter I really want to try to expose all my heart and mind to you....

A few months ago I was diagnosed with meningitis.and the doctor has given the consequences that will occur with this disease....

If one day I would not be in this world again without meeting you...

I hope you can truly forgive my mistakes.....

Forgive all my annoying behavior.....

I hope that even though you may be reluctant to accept all my letters....maybe this is the last letter you read from me. And as I promised....

Meta...maybe I will always remember you.....

And I'll always keep this feeling up until anytime....

Thank you for giving a sense of excitement to someone who is most special even though this feeling is only I enjoy alone....

Seeing your smile silently from a distance and seeing your beautiful face from afar was more than enough to make me happy....

Sorry and thank you.

Greetings from those who admire you at all times

Ardians

Meta was amazed to see the contents of Ardian's letter, honestly at this time the meta feeling became mixed between the shock of knowing it turned out to be the mastermind of all the events of that time was Dinda. And also shocked because it turns out Ardian suffered from meningitis and his age will not be long.

"I didn't think it was all Dinda, even you and Dinda planned it. What exactly is my fault with you Din to the point that you can't admit everything is the same as me!"

"I'm sorry you're Ardian. I forgive everything that happened that day. I wish you could recover from your illness."

Meta closed the letter, put it in the envelope again. Meta really did not expect everything that happened.

Meta cleaned up all the letters from Ardian and put them in a pink file box with a picture of flowers. Meta accidentally put all the memories of Ardian that may be although many things that are annoying but save all the letters given Ardian is only as a form of appreciation on Ardian.

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