TRAPPED IN META LOVE
The heart is contrary to action

The day was getting late, the rain was getting heavier but the meta did not budge down beside Rendi's tomb. Devan who had been waiting for the meta also looked wet at this time.

Devan knows very well what the current meta state is, but meta shouldn't do this. Meta should be able to think clearly because even though meta crying Rendi like this will not change anything.

Devan squatted his body next to the meta, trying to persuade the meta to go home because Devan saw the already haggard meta face.

"Your life doesn't stop here! There are still many dreams and hopes that you can pursue!!"

Meta sees Devan with a cynical look as if he wants to drive Devan out of it and meta wants to be alone next to Rendi.

"Speaking is easy!!" answer ketus meta.

"What is it with you that tortures yourself like this and keeps Rendi going to live again? What in this way Rendi would definitely be seneng!!?" devan said half-screaming.

The relentless tears of rain that seemed to hint at the same sadness as the current meta feeling mixed into one.

"Enough Van! I don't want to be horrified, you never know how I feel! You never know how sad I am?" meta said in the middle of his sobs.

"What do you do that lost Rendi? Everyone was also at a loss, let alone Aunt Karoline, but she could still think clearly because this was the destiny she had to live with! Then with this belief can you change the destiny that has been outlined by God with Rendi!! If you think this is what Rendi will also look at you like this. When do you cry like gini? When are you going to mourn Rendi's departure??"

Plakkkk

One meta slap landed on Devan's cheek, which made an instant of silence between the two of them. Devan did not expect meta to do that to him, because from the first time despite jokes outrageous meta never slapped him like this.

"Okey, thanks for the slap meta, as a friend I just reminded you! I know I shouldn't have forced your will, and maybe I've always been aware of my position, so I don't think I should always bother you!" devan replied while holding the cheek of the former meta slap.

Devan stepped foot leaving the meta standing there. Devan was disappointed by the meta attitude, but maybe that slap was what he had to get from the beginning because from the slap it might be able to realize that he should have forgotten his feelings with the meta.

Meta was still silent, his cry broke out instantly, feeling regret for slapping Devan like that. Maybe he's too much for slapping Devan like that.

"Devan ..I'm sorry...I accidentally did that!!" scream meta in the rest of his energy.

Devan who was already far away from that place could not hear the meta screams.

Devan got into his car, took off his wet clothes and drowned his face between his folded arms on the steering wheel.

It felt like he was so emotional at the moment, that he honestly did not want to care about the current meta state but his little heart was opposite to his actions. Because he can't just leave the meta in such a state.

In his heart he was actually worried if something happened with the meta because Devan knew from yesterday the meta was not lustful to eat especially from yesterday the meta just cried sobbing without regard to his own condition.

"Arghh...stop devan..stop thinking about meta....!!!" swearing Devan while hitting the steering wheel of the car.

"This slap should make you realize that he never cared about you!! You should have realized Devan that meta feeling is only for Rendi, and you should have realized it long ago!!!" yell Devan himself.

Devan was in a mess, he started his car engine and ran his car to get out of the tomb.

"Shitt!!! Why do I keep worrying about meta!!"

Devan decided to return to the tomb again after arguing with his own mind. Devan headed for the tomb again, he wanted to see the meta alright.

Devan picks up the umbrella he had in his car and chooses a Hoodie for him to wear which he happens to always put in the trunk of his car for

Carrying the umbrella Devan walked into the tomb again, this time he only wanted to pay attention to the meta from afar to ascertain the meta condition.

Devan sees the meta already lying next to Rendi's grave, the meta fainted next to Rendi's grave when Devan left earlier.

Devan immediately ran over to the meta and hurriedly carried him to the car.

Devan immediately sat the meta in the car seat, the look of a pale meta face made Devan even more panicked.

Without thinking long Devan took off the wet meta shirt and then put on his hood for meta.

"Actually I could have done anything to you right now so I could have you completely and you could have forgotten Rendi!" inner Devan who is always fascinated to see the meta beauty.

But hurriedly Devan brushed off the dirty thoughts running around in his mind at this moment. Devan sat in his seat and headed straight to the hospital for meta to get treatment.

******

Devan waited at the meta in the hospital overnight, because the meta had to get treatment after all his energy was drained along with his crying that from yesterday did not stop flowing, even to make the meta without appetite.

Meta must even be infused so that the power can be recovered. Doctors suggested that the meta should rest a few days in the hospital so he could recover.

Devan contacted Karoline and Risma regarding the current meta conditions. But Devan forbids both of them to go to the hospital tonight, because devan feels sorry for aunt Karoline and also Risma who must be still exhausted.

Until finally Devan has to wait for his own meta tonight. Last night the meta asked to say the name Rendi, his body was shivering because of his fever so high. Luckily the doctor directly provides the best treatment for the meta.

Last night Devan was next to the meta, Devan clasped the meta hand tightly. His actions and thoughts are always contrary, on the one hand he wants to be indifferent to meta, on the one hand his little heart always wants to feel close to meta.

Even because of his great feelings on Meta that's what causes him to always want to be close to the meta even though sometimes Devan has to feel hurt with meta.

Meta's face looks pale, maybe it has been almost a week since Rendi was treated in the hospital yesterday meta already does not care about himself.

Deva kissed the soft meta forehead, as if she was so worried about the current meta state. Just this time he ventured into kissing the meta like this, even just this time he could grasp and kiss the meta hand for so long.

Maybe for Devan at this time this togetherness that makes him a little happy, although maybe when the meta realized later surely he will re-think Rendi.

Devan gently stroked the meta hair, while clasping the meta hand occasionally Devan kissed the back of the meta hand. Devan can't lie to himself if he loves meta so much.