
The sun does not emit light, covered by dark navel clouds and abundant due to snowstorms that have not stopped crashing since yesterday afternoon. And I continued to stand behind the window staring at the atmosphere so that the reflection of myself was clearly drawn on the transparent glass.
Obviously now is not a good time to come out, it looks like the winter in early February was pretty harsh.
I also exhaled a long breath.
Suddenly the sound of the door creaking sounded, making me spontaneously look back. They-Fate and Cecil-finally came out of the doctor's room, explaining that Fate had finished the examination.
Then I turned my body perfectly. "How did it go?"
Slowly, Fate moved his left hand as if checking how strong his hand was. "Although I still have to undergo rehabilitation, I've been allowed to leave the hospital."
This good news invites my face. "Good! I myself also do not like to linger lying down like that. Does your physicality mean better?"
"Compared to the beginning of the wake .. yes, it is better. But I still feel like my body is stiff. If circumstances permit, would you not mind sparing with me? Just a little exercise because it's been a long time since it hasn't moved in the coma."
"Good idea, I will supervise your training to provide progress on rehabilitation data. I'm sure Red wouldn't mind keeping up?"
Immediately I nodded swiftly towards Crist's statement standing to the side.
"We are given a fairly light task so that we can accompany Fate and help the recovery period, if Red is indeed off because of rehabilitation as well. But lately Daniel's been getting calls in the office ...."
"We can do the sparing if Daniel's off," replied Fate, "I want to train the ability to use a gun at close range, and the practice is also good for Daniel."
"A melee gun .. I wonder, who trained you to use a handgun for melee? Mr Lucian? Whereas the Gunner Class users are devoted to long-range attacks, ordinary difficulties for close attacks. But those limits don't seem to apply to you."
Crist's question struck me. True, when sparing during the re-grade leveling, Fate was very reliable against me who used the sword until it was subdued-ah, including the surprise that he could change weapons easily in the middle of the fight.
"The one who first taught me .. was Sen."
Suddenly one of my eyes twitched as I stared flatly at those who were busy talking.
"Oh, that name again! I often hear Sen's name spoken when we like stories. If I could know who Sen is? How's he like?"
"Hmm, from what I remember ... Sen a good leader, smart, also a strategist. He was the one who taught me how to think in the middle of a fight. And always by my side, always protecting me. The person I remember always carries warmth ...." And Fate scrunched up the shirt on the chest "Here."
"Sen was amazing, how many times I heard about him." Instantly, my lips were drawn to carve out a smile. "It feels good, to be able to keep remembering him and that feeling, right?"
A smile spread on his face. "Yes, it feels good. But ... I still don't remember it very well now, some of my memories are still hazy."
"I'm sure one day all your memories will return." And maybe get there, I can accompany you.
"Oh, Red, do you know anything about Sen?" And Cecil's attention was on me.
"Of course I know, from the beginning already know ...."
... If I had no chance at all.
But why does it feel painful? Though already understood from the beginning I was in charge of accompanying him for a while; only temporarily. So, why when remembering this the heart feels like it is suffering slowly; one by one, pierced by a needle until the pain pulse spreads throughout the nerve? Until I could no longer hold back my smile and ended up staring at me.
Actually, I no longer want to think about Sen even I switched the conversation and slightly chuckled. "Maybe we can do some sparing when the storm subsides? Or at the Training Center."
"Haaa, can-can! Let me take care of the paperwork to borrow the room! For now, we're getting ready for dinner! Mmmn, cold-cold gini delicious creamy soup... oh! Fate just got out of the hospital, right? We make special food! Fate, what do you want to cook dinner for?"
Then a crisp laugh sounded faint when Fate saw the innocent behavior of his best friend. We started down the hallway with the girls busy chatting lightly. Seeing him absorb rhythmic steps and grasping Cecil's tiny hands, gave his own serenity in the chest.
I hope, Fate continues to be enveloped in kindness and warmth. Although I can no longer accompany because it is impossible to disturb the calmness of him with his loved ones. As long as it is happy; as long as it is happy, it is enough. Love doesn't have to have, does it? But why is this .... this thing, it seems sad?
I snorted and closed my eyes, slowly.
"If you may ask." Suddenly Crist's voice echoed in a quiet hallway. "Is there anyone who looks like Sen in the academy?"
"There's." The answer from the soft accent lured me to focus my gaze forward. "Lux."
"Huh? Of all people ... Lux is similar?!" cecil asked in shock until his mouth was ringed.
"... Their aura was similar, the leader and fighting style were also somewhat similar, but their nature was indeed one hundred and eighty degrees different," Fate added on a flat tone.
I saw Crist begin to cross his front chest hand like thinking, but the accent sounded joking on the sidelines of the faint ruckus. "So, are you the same Lux?"
"Huh, I ... with Lux?" Fate immediately embraced himself as if goosebumps hearing him. "Cannot be. Very unlikely. I just think of him as a big brother."
Then the noisy vowels filled the conversation. "Wahahaha, right! There's something better than Daniel, huh?"
Again the girls joked that I did not hear clearly because it was separated by distance. I don't know why I felt Crist asking me that question, but I chuckled softly. Maybe just a feeling? Because of something like that ....
"... Really, no need."
"Why?"
"Eh, did I say anything?"
Looks like my words came out without excuse. However, the way Crist asked was very different over the unusual low voice, what else to stop step by step parallel to me.
"Why don't you like me asking about Sen? ... No need? Don't you always shy away from Fate because of this guy named Sen?"
"Hnng, you could say?" Then I groaned a little. "I understand very well and know that Sen is important to Fate, just as important as Aion is to me based on his stories. If Aion is still here; by my side, I don't want anyone to disturb our calm. Therefore ... Even if I love Fate, I know my limits."
"Are you seeing Sen in person?"
Suddenly my steps jolted because stunned for a few minutes because I did not know what to answer. Suddenly my heart was mixed and honestly everything about Fate felt mysterious, even for me who was closer to him than anyone else.
"Yet. But for now let it be like this until I make sure she's okay. Once his memory is back and all our problems are done, I'll think about what steps to take in the future." And I looked towards Crist in a sickle-wrapped engraving on his sincere lips.
The young man actually threw his face, the back of the right hand also blocked in front of the mouth. She also faintly heard him muttering, "Indeed too dazzling."
He's?
The sudden shrill anxious cry made my attention reflexively fixed on the girls. "O-oi Fate! Fate up! You know why?! Fate, let's wake up!"
Cecil grew even more panicked when the girl's body was stiff despite being shaken even though they were far ahead, making me not know the expression on Fate's face. All I know is that he looks straight out the window.
Rushing I ran to approach, nimble to move in front of him then clearly the gaze of the iris amber so empty as to have lost my soul and spontaneously I touched both slender shoulders. He called her name many times, but she did not answer.
Then I turned to look to the right to see Cecil who was still holding Fate's left arm. This reminded me of Professor Caterine's words, as soon as I saw Crist and immediately caught the look in his eyes. Crist's eyes widened as if he understood what I was asking for and he immediately held Fate's right hand.
And Fate immediately flinched in a confused look, also scared. "Ba-news .. what ...."
"Well, I'm still in the hospital. Did we take Fate to check again?
Screeches worried that Cecil was in the air but I touched Fate's temple to the side of the head to reveal strands of silver hair, to make sure he saw me a man. Then spoke slowly, "You hear another whisper?"
Upon the unusual weak look present on the face, Fate replied, "Yes."
"Whisper what?"
"Still the same. Calling my name ... asking to go home. And, not only that." His two hands slowly shook until he let go of Cecil and Crist's grip on the chest. This is the first time I've seen Fate so scared.
"When I was in a coma there was a figure coming in the dream. Sometimes the figure of a child. Sometimes they become adults. But what they're asking for is the same .. that's asking me to come back." I slowly grabbed the girls' hands; clinging to each other's fingers and stroking the backs of her hands; slowly it was like trying to provide calmness.
Then the soot eyes were fixed on Cecil, making the little girl's body tense for a moment. Perhaps surprised by my cold eyes? Whatever it is I don't care and reach for his right hand, then pull towards Fate so that they hold back so that my hand is out of the fingers.
Then attention was on Crist. "I want to go, can you take care of them?"
The young man was silent at my incomprehensible expression, but only temporarily because he had already reviewed a knotty smile. "Sure, it's my job."
I nodded steadily and looked at Cecil. "Keep with Fate."
Cecil blinked his eyes many times as if surprised but he nodded in understanding later. I took a few steps back too. Although their faces were full of wonder, I thoughtlessly ran away from the hallway.