
If I go back to hurting others, I can't forgive myself more than this. I'm gonna be hard.
If you have nothing, you will lose nothing and die in a state of loneliness.
I should have lived like that.
Because until now still asking why must live, what is the use?
In the end I felt empty. Like a puppet, just following the flow of the stage without direction and purpose.
But until when?
It must have been nice to get a hug; a warmth; a tranquilizing affection.
It arrived, which I dreamed of coming.
He stretched out his hand to me, dragging me out of the darkness. With him, I'm happy. Together, we were full of laughter. All these wounds are closed, and the emptiness in the heart is filled.
It was the first time I could breathe deep air.
But with my stupidity I lost it.
What hate; revenge; wrath, to myself.
Hates. Hates. Hates.
I still need all that, you know?!
Be ill. Painful.
Hates.
I still need her warmth, but why am I snatched? Why did I kill him?!
Hates. Hates.
Hate it!
Prangs!
Unknowingly I again smashed the mirror in the room with one hand, whether this is what I know. I can't stand looking at myself.
Devil boy!
Immediately I slammed into the bed, leaving the hand with a few pieces of the bell still stuck there.
It didn't hurt, or maybe I was numb.
My eyes are heavy but I can't sleep.
How to sleep in such a situation? Overburdened.
Close your eyes with your left arm. My right arm let me wiggle on the side of the bed, fresh blood still dripping there.
Suddenly I remembered what happened yesterday afternoon when Professor Kaidan came to see me.
That girl .. Maybe I hurt her heart.
However, what he .. ah, I don't understand.
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At that time, I immediately rushed out of the ward. Passed by him who was still standing by the door; seeing me pass by.
I dare not return those faint blue silver eyes.
My hands began to try to grab; pale palms also faced, the natural beauty up there. Because until now I still hope for a moment
"Star."
Hearing that I immediately clenched my hands, pulled him back to his original position and turned to the origin of the voice.
The girl was at noon.
"As your name suggests, REDstar."
I took a deep breath after that. "No, I don't have a name. It's just a call from people."
I honestly hate that call, it doesn't suit me.
Not as beautiful as a star.
I finally tried to change the subject. "It's late, don't sleep?"
"Not yet sleepy, the library is also a place that I like, so I visited this library. The books here are good too."
Oh? Usually if I can't sleep, he-my loved ones-read the story and.
Ah, how could I have hugged that girl, whom I had already hurt her feelings when I first met.
"You hear a story?"
He's nodding.
Immediately I sat down next to him and began to tell him .. about the little monster.
A little monster who wants to be free and learn about himself but is so free, only poignant to feel.
The little monsters that humans fear; the ones humans hurt.
Little monsters who only know that humans only give pain.
A little monster who decides to be alone until a woman finds him. For the first time the little monster felt happiness; love; affection; hope, thanks to the woman.
However, his happiness was simply wiped away .. by the hand of the little monster himself.
And in just that one day anyway, the little monster lost it all.
Desperate and swallowed by darkness.
"I'm not familiar with the story" he said suddenly.
I still see the sky. "It's not a story, it's a true story. About--"
"You."
I looked at her in surprise, but the girl continued to say, "And I'm pretty sure you're different."
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...Another world; a faint memory; a map of black documents, it's all....
...(.(.The story of Fate being a member of Vaughan)...
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